Fell in love in just three nights 。 。
, those november days still haunting me ꩜ .ᐟ
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꒰ა how to interact with me ໒꒱ first things first: my neurodivergency.
i struggle with tone over text; tone tags are a must with me. if we're extremely close i dont use tone tags and the same goes for the other, but if ur allistic i ask you always use them. ~ i may say things that offend others. most times this isnt on purpose; it sounds okay in my head and i dont understand the things i say even when i think about them. if this happens please just be patient with me and explain to me what i did wrong. i never intend to offend and screaming at me wont fix anything ~ jokes can fly over my head though most times i get them, sometimes i take them literally ~ i dont understand social cues and i cant read the room ~ i dont message first to most people bc i dont know how to start convo dont be afraid to message me ~ for the love of god. dont text dryly to me if ur not interested in talking to me dont talk to me at all. im okay with different texting styles than mine but if ur continuously giving me one word responses im just assuming the conversation is over. ~ dont randomly go full stop when talking to me either tell me what i did to get ur panties in a bunch or dont say anything im not a fucking mind reader and i dont have time to play guessing games PLEASE ~ hyperfixation means exactly that. 95% of the time i will be talking about sonic and i cant control it, please bear with me ~ i am very socially awkward and dont know how to act, i may mimic your behavior to blend in ~ please dont make fun of me or call me embarrassing i understand if its a joke but im only comfortable with close friends making those type of jokes ~ i dont like to talk about my neurodivergency as it embarrasses me, and i have a tough time communicating my problems with others which is what this rentry is meant for.
suspected bpd.
another thing i feel uncomfy talking about, so here are my precautions. i've been somewhat medically recognized to have bpd or am at least suspected of it, enough to get prescribed medication. i don't owe anyone an explanation other than those with the condition. ~ i have extremely bad episodes of panic or mania. most times i STAY OFF during these as my behavior is extremely erratic and i say stuff i regret that deeply hurts others. if you catch me in one of these i ask you to be patient and try to understand. its not nice of me and if i do end up saying something its not an excuse which is why i tend to stay offline. ~ my mood swings are dramatic and can happen quickly and whenever. if u see a sudden switch in attitude again be patient and try not to take it personal. ~ i tend to be impulsive and do risky behaviors, and I CASUALLY TALK ABOUT SH AND SIMILAR TOPICS, so be warned if it ever gets brought up. ~ i have a lot of insecurities about myself so i whine a lot ~ i may blow up on people for the smallest things ~ i have a big ego and if we ever fight i always believe im in the right and will most likely act petty (but is it my fault that i am always correct . . . ) ~ i think in black and white sometimes ~ i push away help a lot
misc.
if you see me go dni for anything, understand that i consider "close" to be my MOIRAIL or my BOYFRIEND. if i talk to you under dni u can assume that u are also considered close. ~ if i dont talk to you under dni dont take it personally. most times i just dont have mental capacity or energy to talk to many people. ~ im a minority. i make white people jokes. if ur getting offended then pal . . . im sorry to tell you but . . . it might be applying to you . . . and if u call me racist okay idc i didnt know the rights of a bajillion gringos disappeared bc i said "lol whites" ~ im hypersexual i dont wanna explain what that is bc that is an even more senstive topic google is free and i dont have to explain to anyone the cause of that condition ~ i spend a lot of time with people of similar interests or conditions as me, so sorry allistics i just dont know how to talk to y'all
overall i am simply a person who thinks differently, that may be a lot for people and thats fine; ur not obligated to talk to me. just please understand i am different and there's not much i can do about it. the fact i even need to make this rentry is baffling to me but oh well shrugs - 