To my cherished little sister who has been with me since August 2, 2023 ♡

Sabrina's lovemail!!!!
Last updated: April 9, 26

I adore my sister!! You're not her #1 fan! Because that title is mine!
Hi Sabrina ♡♡♡ I love you, don't forget!!

Duos: My Melody & Kuromi. An & Kohane. Rilakkuma & Korilakkuma. Celestia & Mikan. Hysilens & Hyacine. Evernight & March 7th. Herta & Asta. Chiikawa & Hachiware. Monika & Natsuki. Semmelweis & Lorelei. Ava & Lorelai. Moldir & Lopera. Sayaka & Madoka. Melania & Anjo Nala (Ult team). Sandrone & Columbina. Paper heron & Sotheby. Twilight Sparkle & Pinkie Pie. Princess Luna & Princess Cadence.

Associations: Tea party. Chocolates. Cheese burgers (If you know, you know). Hair clips. Letters. Jewelry. Comtemporary music. Strawberries. Shortcakes. Caramel pudding. Puppets. Halos. Gardens. Lakes. Stage. Lace. Blossoms. Candles. Umbrellas. Fairies. Porcelain dolls. Light sticks. Concert. Cameras.

Dynamics: Opposites. Monochrome & Pastel. Brown & Pink. Artist & Audience. Fallen angel & angel. Night & Day. Older sister & younger sister. Found family. "Why dis 🎻so mad 😰". Can't cook & Can't cook. Cat & Dog. Moody & Cheery. Yapper & Yapper. Arts & STEM. Clarinet & Flute. "That guy is so ugly." & "WDYM HE'S SO CUTE!" "What the fuck." & "What the flip!" Gothic Lolita & Sweet Lolita. Elegant & Cute. Queen & Princess. Uncaring & Sentimental.

Your instrument from me: Flute!
This is us↴ , not you.

Dear Sabrina:
God, where do I even start? I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!!! You practically changed my life! BELIEVE ME YOU DID. Ariosa didn't have enough space (I was an idiot goodbye) for me to pour out everything, but now I have all the space I could possibly ask for. Back on track! You're quite literally my day 1, back when I had 0 online friends (or any friends at all even), it was you who reached out first. I still remember our first few interactions, clear as day, too. You would talk to me about any struggles you had, listen to my advice even if they were pretty bad, and before I knew it, we started talking everyday. I'm genuinely so overwhelmed with positivity that you see me as someone reliable enough for you. Before then, I never really liked being the older sister because of my irl brother, but you changed my mind. I'm MORE THAN HAPPY, MORE THAN BLESSED TO BE YOUR ADOPTIVE OLDER SISTER!!!! You have no idea how proud I am every time I get to brag about this. Sometimes I forget that this originate from a joke, and now, I forget that we aren't actually blood-related at times.
You've become such a huge part of my life, I really don't know what I would do if you were gone. Even if I reply super late almost all the time, you never once got mad (which if I were you, I probably would've lost it). You always waited patiently for my reply and always ready to spread positivity into my pessimistic worldview. Sometimes, I hate it when people try to force their positivity on me, but with you, it's a different case. Too many people I've talked to force their positivity on me, but you invite me into it. You don't introduce it aggressively, but rather, naturally letting the conversation shift to a lighter topic. I don't have to worry about tomorrow when we're talking. You talk on and on about our future plans and dreams, and it reminds me that I need to relax sometimes too. You have no idea how many times you've saved me from bad days by simply doing this. I know I'm busy and all, and you're getting busier, too. We can't talk as much as we used to, but I look forward the day, hopefully after my exams, we'll be just like old days!
Now, I REALLY wanted to include this in the old lovemail, but you know... We NEED to talk about September 4th. I think on this topic alone, I can go on and on forever. The late-summer of 2023 was already crazy enough for me, but the beginning of autumn is where our foundation were set, I'd like to think. I would be lying if I say I don't miss it. Me and other people would comfort and try to help all the time. but that night was totally a surreal dream for both of us, and that experience IS ONLY EXCLUSIVE TO THE BOTH OF US! I remember starting from 11 PM, everyone pretty much left to do their own thing or ignore us I have no idea, but we were panicking because of the situation. After realizing there's nothing we could do at around 12 to 1 AM, we accepted your fate and started talking casually about what to do in the future, and spent rest of our time listening to your favorite artist (which I'm not mentioning, people online are really soft) until early 3 AM. From others' POV, this is a really stupid decision, because I had school tomorrow morning on that day, and maybe you still had a chance to do something for yourself. However, I don't regret it at all. I'm beyond, like LITERALLY BEYOND fortunate to still have you by my side for nearly 3 years now. I don't think it's fathomable for anyone else, other than me, to comprehend my absolute joy when I found out you're here, alive and well, on the afternoon of September 5th. I hope you know I'm proud of you for making it through, being here, listening to me talk, getting better grades in school, and improving your mental health and character. You've come so far, and even if you think you haven't change, I saw a lot of change. I see you as my blood-related sister, and I'm always here to support you no matter what, if you don't mind the late replies...
And just so when you think I'm done talking about the past, well, I'm not. I want to give you the biggest shoutout for being my only (YES, I SAID ONLY) pillar when I was done with my ex. I could tell you were not experienced, neither am I, but you gave your all and was there when I needed you most. I didn't think I could have BPD back then, so I thought I was overreacting but you reassured me, and told me that I'm doing okay. I literally cannot stress how much that means to me. I think most people would've just brushed it off and say "it's okay, you'll find someone better," yet you gave me your best. I really did felt the effort. Thank you so much for being my only support for that period of time ♡
Now, to the present. All the times we had issues, like the cybersecurity incident and our confrontation, we managed it to resolve it quickly with both sides satisfied. I'm used to handling all kinds of bullshit back in VZH, but the opposing party to me were always hard to cooperate with; they don't learn their lesson, they don't try to understand me at all, or they take it too far into their hearts. Amia, Blossomy, just to name a few. With you, I really do take it for granted how mature you are despite being younger than me and those mentioned people. The cybersecurity thing, I admit, I was far too paranoid, that was on me. Yet you agreed to let me know before accepting random friend requests. Though I asked you to, you really didn't have to. I don't want to control you by any means, but I still need to thank you for letting me know always, so I don't panic. And as for our confrontation. I thought it was going to be incredibly messy, I was ready for the worst outcome possible and I was borderline about to lash out on everyone (I didn't tell Yuqi this shh...), but all that panic was for nothing, and I'm glad it was for nothing. You gave the most mature responses I've seen from everyone I've confronted with, and did what you needed to do in order to change. You have no idea how shocked yet relieved I was. You literally acted more mature than freaking teens who were 2 or 3 years older than you. I saw change, too. You're an excellent listener and amazing at taking feedback, it's unreal. I said it before and I'm going say it again, I'M PROUD OF YOU AND YOU'RE DOING AMAZING, LOVE YOU LOTS. I don't know how to put all of my appreciation into words, so I'm hoping you get it through this long letter.
But too bad, you can get to understanding later, I have more to say!! You're someone I feel safe to that I can talk about anything with. I'm sure you've witnessed my identity crisis in detail, whereas others might've js saw a drastic change in me, but you know the process; what I was thinking, my reason, and what I want from it. It just feels natural to rant to you, I don't have to worry about anything. And plus you're an amazing supporter and listener like I said. Some people I love are great speakers and have good insights but their listening skills are... Something else. For you, you're good at keeping the conversation going and also giving feedback. You know how I am with conversations... ABSOLUTELY TRASH. But I don't have to be anxious about keeping the conversation alive because I know you have my back covered, which ease my overthinking. You give good feedback, ESPECIALLY WITH FASHION OH MY GOD. YOU GUYS DO NOT PLAY WITH SABRINA WHEN IT COMES TO FASHION, MY GIRLIE IS STACKED WITH KNOWLEDGE. And listening, I literally cannot recall a time you gave me a "IDGAF" reply, ever (and I hold grudges, too). You respond to everything, and is curious to know more, which THIS IS A QUALITY I TREASURE SO MUCH!!!!! It's almost like I can talk to you about the most boring things the world has to offer, and you would still patiently listen and tell me what you think. You might think this is basic stuff, me too, but apparently it's lacking in humanity. So trust me when I say, you're really unparalleled when it comes to this ♡♡
THIS IS SO LONG BUT I HAVE MORE TO SAY <//3 Holy Lucifer, I need to wrap this up soon... I'm not one who likes to talk about future a lot so this section might be short as hell. Anyway! One day, we're both escaping the US, going somewhere it snows and has fine chocolate. We can have lolita themed tea party, BLACK AND PINK!! I want a cat or bird or dog, WHAT DO YOU THINK?? And if you're up, we're cosplaying as the Semmel-Anjo nobody-is-using-this team ♡♡ GRIND REVERSE SOON, ANJO IS RERUNNING!!!!!!!!!!! Okay, blah blah. Well, we've changed so much over the course of 3 years. I'm sure you could tell that I'm different, you're different, too. But we're still family with each other. I know for a fact that we won't lose each other easily, which means we're gonna be stuck together for a long, long time. Keep improving, and I'll do the same. And stay amazing! I love you to bits!!!!!! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
From Yena.

This is such an old account... Just ignore it. This the museum where I put all of my favorite moments from Sabrina!!!

Don't lie to me, what other gifts could be more heartwarming than this one?