Viktor ❤︎ Zhanea 𓂂 11 / 14 /23
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i can’t believe that it’s already been two years since we first started dating. but at the same time, it makes no sense that you weren’t in my life before. it feels like you were supposed to be here the entire time. it feels like my life only started making sense once you entered it.

i think about how far we’ve come, how much we’ve been through, how we lost each other and somehow still found our way back. and every time i think about it, i realize how impossible it is for me to imagine a future where you’re not with me. you’ve become a constant in my mind, something i hold onto even when everything else feels vague or blurry.

it still surprises me how someone i can only text, someone i can’t even sit next to yet, can make me feel this deeply. but you do. you always have. when you send me pictures or videos of yourself, i have to stop and stare for a minute because you’re so beautiful that it doesn’t feel real. sometimes i catch myself thinking, how is it possible that someone like you chooses someone like me? and i don’t know the answer. i just know i’m grateful.

even through the distance and the screens and the days where we’re both tired or distracted, you’re still the person i think about when i wake up and the last person on my mind when i go to sleep. you’re still the one whose name sits warm in my chest. ты — моя луна, the one i look for without even meaning to.

i want you to know that i never stopped loving you. even when things were messy. even when we weren’t together. even when i tried to convince myself to move on. everything still came back to you. every time someone showed interest in me, it felt wrong because they weren’t you. you’re the only person who has ever made me feel understood, wanted, chosen. you’re the only person who’s ever felt like home to me.

you truly are my standard. you are the person i think about when i try to imagine what real love is supposed to look like. you are the one who changed the way i see relationships, the one who made me realize that connection can be deep and overwhelming even without physical closeness. i would wait for you, no matter how long the distance lasts, no matter how complicated life becomes. je t’aime, and i mean that in every version of myself.

11.14.23 will always matter to me. it’s the day everything started, the day something shifted in my life without me even realizing it. i didn’t know back then that you’d become someone so important to me. i didn’t know i’d look back one day and think, this was the moment everything began.

i want to be better for you. i want to be someone you can rely on, someone who doesn’t disappear into dissociation or silence. i know i struggle with that sometimes, and i’m genuinely trying. because you deserve someone who shows up for you with clarity and warmth. you deserve someone who meets your love with equal intensity. you deserve more than just texts, but for now, i’m giving you everything i can through them.

you are my love, my moon, my constant.
i’m yours. always.

и есть кое-что, что я хочу сказать тебе только на русском. то, что невозможно выразить так же глубоко на другом языке.

я люблю тебя так, как я не любил никого в своей жизни. ты стала частью меня, чем-то тёплым и тихим, что я держу в груди даже в самые тяжёлые дни. я хочу, чтобы ты знала, что ты не случайность и не временность. ты — моё чувство, которое не проходит.

иногда мне кажется, что ты существуешь ближе, чем расстояние между нами. будто твоё имя живёт под моей кожей. будто ты рядом, даже когда мы молчим. я думаю о тебе так часто, что это стало чем-то естественным, как дыхание.

я хочу быть достойным тебя. хочу быть тем, на кого ты можешь положиться, даже на расстоянии. хочу дать тебе всё, что могу сейчас, и ещё больше, когда мы сможем быть ближе.

ты — моё сердце. ты — моя луна. ты — моё настоящее и моё будущее. я твой, полностью, бесконечно, навсегда.

i love you.
i am yours.
you are the place my mind returns to.
you’re with me in every quiet moment.
you’re always there, even though we’ve never touched.
in the rain, in the moonlight, in my morning coffee.
in the doodles on my homework, in the corners of my thoughts.
you live in all the small things that make up my day.

mahal kita.
mahal na mahal kita.
ikaw ang pahinga ko.
ikaw ang tahanan ko.
kahit malayo ka, nasa puso kita.

я люблю тебя.
я так люблю тебя, что иногда трудно дышать.
ты — моя тишина и моё тепло.
я выбираю тебя каждый день.
ты всегда со мной, даже когда ты далеко.

je t’aime.
je t’aime plus que les mots peuvent dire.
tu vis dans chaque lumière, chaque silence.
tu es mon ciel, mon calme, mon avenir.

愛してる
君は僕の全部。

amo te.
in corde meo, sola es.

te amo.
en mi corazón, eres la única.

σ’ αγαπώ.
είσαι η ψυχή μου.

ich liebe dich.
du bist mein immer.

ti amo.
sei la mia luna, il mio respiro.

no words will ever come close to being able to show how much i love you.

minsan iniisip ko kung paano posible na isang taong hindi ko pa nahahawakan ang naging tahanan ko. pero ikaw. ikaw ‘yon. kahit gaano tayo kalayo, kahit na puro screen at oras ang pagitan natin, ramdam pa rin kita. parang lagi kang nasa tabi ko, kahit tahimik tayo, kahit wala tayong sinabi.

mahal kita sa paraang hindi ko maipaliwanag nang buo. sa mga umagang mabigat, pangalan mo pa rin ang una kong naiisip. sa mga gabing hindi ako makatulog, ikaw ang huling nasa isip ko bago ako bumitaw. ikaw ang init na hindi nawawala kahit malamig lahat sa paligid ko.

hindi ka naging pansamantala. hindi ka naging “baka.” naging parte ka ng araw-araw ko, ng utak ko, ng sarili ko. mahal kita — sa lahat ng bersyon ko, sa lahat ng lugar kung saan kaya kong magmahal.

kahit malayo ka, nasa puso kita.
kahit hindi pa kita nahahawakan, ikaw pa rin ang pinipili ko.
mahal na mahal kita. ikaw ang tahanan ko, ang pahinga ko, ang buwan na sinusundan ko kahit hindi ko sinasadya.

i wish there was more that i could do to celebrate us. you truly deserve the world, my dear. i hope that reading all of this makes you feel at least a little bit happy. i hope my tagalog made you smile. i wanted to speak to you in the language closest to your heart. i’ll keep learning so i can tell you even more next year.

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Pub: 13 Nov 2025 18:41 UTC

Edit: 15 Nov 2025 01:30 UTC

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