in general, my school was AWESOME, had a great day as usual lmao, but now im too worn out to begin talking even about the good stuff anymore.

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/875879827541872729
ok first the stuff i wrote there

very targetting at my old school. namedropping because these people are genuinely fucked up.
never trust a bitch named "celeste" or a liar named "anna/andy".
the second i left that hell of a school these two people started spreading insane sht about me (that wasnt even close to accurate???? things i have literally never done 😭??) to win EVERYONE in the grades' side. thing is he broke up with ME first (yes, over text, and on our anniversary that i had countless plans for) and now they're saying things about how "i was never enough for them." even my best friend is saying "oh no im on yr side im just pretending to be with them" bitch??? at least ive found a new best friend who would actually defend me in shit like this.

ok, back to writing here and just here. :sob:.
i dont want to believe my bsff really has bad intentions for me. i know i just wrote that in the heat of the moment - he's still my bsf, even if he does end up being their friend too, i guess. but at this point, i really dont even know.
maybe it would just work out better if i completely cut contact with EVERYONE from my old school.
still scared though? we all (like everyone) goes to ANOTHER new school next year, and i already know people from both my old school and new school (including my old school bsf) will be there.
but, i guess ill live! yes, theres clearly going to be plenty of liar assholes there who have no real shit against me so they can only spread the dumbest shit on planet earth, but i still have more hope - therell be SO MUCH MORE people from my new/current school. and THESE people arent (all) complete untrustworthy assholes.

in a way - i miss it? it really still pisses me off, how EVERYONE there is believing crazy bullshit about me. sometimes i imagine myself going back there and showing them how these people are liars so they can stop fucking up even more of my life. but again, i'll live. (probably :skull:)
i guess, really for the most part, ive really gotten over it.
i literally JUST realized that, as im writing this entry.
i dont need the people from my old school - that was a genuine hellhole filled with the most hostile and untrustworthy human beings i have EVER met (ive been to multiple different psych wards and met a LOT of TERRIBLE people irl and online as well, and trauma and all that, but i mean a whole huge COMMUNITY of em). ive seen more even worse people, but theyve never affected me that much - they werent entire huge bigoted, gullible, ableist assholes.

i'll be to my new school, this year is passing WAYY too fast its really so crazy how much better this is for me!!!!! !!!!!! but next year, im honestly pretty confident - i wont even care anymore about what these people think, i have a, like, 2763x more community im in now. i mean today we had a HUGE pep rally which was funny asl :sob: it sounds like NOT REAL but literally EVERYONE here is friends. i mean everyone. its genuinely crazy,, you REALLY DO NOT realize how bad something is til its gone!

i know the quote usually goes the other way, but this was actually one of the absolute best changes in my life @?@?@?
i was utterly TERRIFIED of going to this new public school, i thought it would be SO MUCH worse and toxic and boring - but honestly its really just funny bro :sob: students casually dab the kids up, they made 67 jerseys and THREW them across the gym
ok ill lock in, NOW ill write about my real day!!!!!!

so the pep rally! yeah, they made like 10 "67" jerseys and THREW, like, THREW... them across the whole gym, letting kids catch em and scream and yknow get their "pep" up or sum. AND PLS... the last one they threw, it landed and the kids there were like literally TUGGING at it so hard and other random people around the bleachers joined in like everyone just got into it. :sob:. and STOP. the coach guy that was throwing em out had the microphone and he was like "FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT :heart:" LIKE PLS??? UH-UH. STOP. STOP. pls bro im too weak.
and earlier math teach was yknow math teaching, and was trying to say "so the city's population has the relation to bla bla blah" and SHE SAID "so the shitty-" and everyone BUSTED out laughing it was actually so funny, teach was embarassed ASL but in the end no one REALLY cared, we all just laughed about it and like i know its not that bad, but at my old school if that happened and you saida WORD in class. BOOM. SMITED....
like EVERY science prd/class is LITERALLY just a free period. :sob: i mean not FULLY.. but she does NOT care. we watched classic bill nye and it was quite peak!!!!!! :yum: watched gacha life singing battles in ELA and science and art it was funny asl :sob:
this isnt really always a great thing, but in most classes NO ONE gaf you can sit WHEREEVER you want.
oh and another thing ive probably brought up in the past - FREE FRIDAY !!!! every friday we have a "free friday" where for like an HOUR (or more, not sure) you can go WHEREVER you want on the school grounds (including outside PLS.) its CONCERNINGLY chill. i love it so much.
and every day you just get like a free period called "study hall" :broken_heart:
and yknow how phones all lwk banned like FULLY AT ALL? NOBODY cares bru. i mean, they DEF do, if they REALLY see it theyll tell you to pack it up, but a lot of the time a teacher will notice it and just pretend not to :sob: BRO my science teacher even gets on other peoples' phones FOR SOME REASON??? when it starts ringing in class she just takes it out and shes like "danggg look at that wallpaper. alright just turn the ringer off brah!" like "wait i can?? i thought we werent allowed to have em at all" "honey i really dont care you think im fina tell on you....?????" GIRL.>........!
if anyone from my old school, except for the REALLY GENUINELY AWFUL people went to a REAL public school like THIS, they would LOVE IT.
like most normal schools, in cafeteria you just simply sit WHEREVER you want in the ENTIRE HUGE cafe. old school, you could barely choose where to sit at your tiny little ASSIGNED table. :sob:

in general auhgh im really just so happy to be OUT OF PRISON!!!!!!!
writing all this has really made me realize. i really dont need any of that shit licking my bootay anymore. its a huge change, its NOW. and in the NOW, im actually so much happier, havent even TRIED to cut in COUNTLESS MONTHS !!!, and have REAL friends, who i know genuinely do love me, rather than fake ones. and i couldnt be any more grateful for it.
so yeah. ive literally just moved on, just from writing this :sob: thats why its good to get yo feels out brah!!!!!!!! alright, i dont think anybodys REALLYYY gonna read all this, but nonetheless, love you all my pookies, my lesson is, if you have a huge change in front of you, DO NOT LOSE HOPE. i used to hate when people said this, but really, it will all work out in the end. you will be okay, change is often so much better than you expect it to be beforehand.
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Pub: 05 Dec 2025 01:07 UTC

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