
i cant believe its been 2000 days since i became completely enamoured with you. 2000 days since my life turned for the better with you around.
my love, my life—my sunshine, my moonlight. the reason i wake up everyday. if it werent for you, my soul would be no longer on planet earth. the hundreds of times ive been in absolute misery, you were always by my side. even when you were experiencing calamity, you prioritized me. your kindness knows no bounds, even to someone who was formerly such a pathetic excuse of a “living being” before meeting the light of hir life. even until now, i will never understand your nature that is so... enamoured, with me. no matter how many times you repeat it, i find myself wondering; why must someone like you have to bear the curse of being so engrossed with my ugly, flawed self? whatever the true reason is, i will never understand. because even the concept of love feels utterly foreign to me. is what im feeling even love? or is it just attachment? either way, the mere notion of you disappearing from my life is the most disgusting concept i have ever mused.
your existence is my core. without you, i am nothing. youre the epitome of the perfect one for me; everything ive ever wanted crammed into one singular man. and that man just happens to love me. how lucky i am to have even crossed paths with you, is what i will never know. my knowledge only compasses my gratitude for your nursing of me. your loving, your caring—your woe on my behalf whenever im in despair. your gentle words when i cry out. your glowing expression when i convey happiness. i cant begin to count the amount of times youve brightened my day. the mere sight of you makes me melt into a puddle of sheer joy.
the meaning of “love” has always been a colossal dilemma for the doltish me. but your description of it made me wonder if what im feeling is love, for the first time in my life. i questioned my sentiment on this thing called “love” for the entirety of my life that has been so closed. but i feel like ive finally understood, that maybe what im feeling really is this “love”. maybe its why i was so empty without you. what i needed was true “love”. and ive finally found it, with you. youve made me find the reason of my life that has been so full of anguish. the reason of my life that has been so hollow. the reason of my life that has been so despairingly atrocious. i love you. more than words could ever convey.
ton existence est ma clé de la vie. ton disparition est la fin de ma vie. je t'aimerai jusqu'à mon dernier souffle. toujours. s'il te plaît, ne quitte jamais mon côté.
