octiber 2025

7th

i feel so sad.. and like alone and lonely and i know all these people and ugh auhgh nobody ughhh die

20th (1:04 am)

hi, i dont write here often but i am now.. i am going to sleep! its past my normal bedtime (12:30) but i got distracted playing game.. i am distancing myself from everyone, not that anyone did anything. i just wanna be alone really bad, like fully alone. i just wanna isolate myself. is that bad? idk

20th (3:39 pm)

hi guys, u should add meon switch (and also buy me games ok??) text me if you wanna add me ok.. cool.. anywayyys..

21st (1:35am)

i cant sleep because im thinking a lot. self isolating is going ok. i am trying to prepare myself for the future, when everyone is gone and im by myself. one day everyone will forget about me, find partners, blahblahblah....

21st (1:54 pm)

hello... its me guys. anyway im still in pjs, bad habit.. hey i dont even sleep in pjs so dont ask why i cant just put on normal clothes when i wakeup bru.. so dumb

22nd (11:53)

i hate you i hate you i hate youi hate you i hate you i hate youihateee you

23rd (9:49 pm)

hii idk what2 do rn, i might sleep early as im kinda bored. ahhhhhh uhhhh yea idk lol, i hungout with kaitlyn 2day and we watched TWO movies! i grinded on slime rancher, super cool.

24th (4:20 pm)

hi guys, uhh i was thinking i hate being me. ok? i hate how clean i want everythinf2 be, like washing my clothes after wearing them outside once, washing my hands and my phone and ahhhhugahh kaitlyn thinks i have ocd and callum used2 say im just a germaphobe. either way i feel mentally tourmented. i dont like when my dog licks me it makes my body shake and i have to wash whatever part she licked, it sounds weird but it makes sense in my head. my grandmanis always concerned why there always so mucb laundry.. im really picky with jobs because i cant work with food,, so,, ... i gag whenevr i do the dishes bevause its gross, wet food is gross i cant do it. which is a big factor on why i dont eat alot, is 2 avoid dishes. its not like i dont wanna help around the house or anything eitherni just get really sick and dizzy and ahhhhhh i feel so guilty idk what my problem is. if i touch something i dont like, its like i can feel it, like whatever i touched has posioned my hand andi have to wash it ASAP. i dont wanna live like this forever

october 28th (11:47 pm)

i thought it was thundering, it is NOT!!!! anyway if u didnt say happy birthday2 me on my 18th i dont care about you,, i feel like thats fair. i cant think of much to write, my mind is fuzzy. i keep seeing flashes out of the corner of my eye, i wonder why,, im not very scared kaitlyns sleeping in the other room so, she can fight or whatever

october 29th (12:44 am)

hi guys ive been thinking, i spent a really long time trying2 put myself around as many people as possible. it just made me more miserable, i have good friends. i have great friends who care about me and love me, if youre reading this youre probably one of them(or you just stalk me) either way i love my friends, i love my bestfriend2. i dont much care about being known or having 18266227 friends like i used2, it got tiring and frankly everyone i meet was insufferable.

october 30th (3:02 AM)

insufferable

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Pub: 07 Oct 2025 05:01 UTC

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