Chapter5: Reaching Out

Iruru: But from time to time, I am envious of people like Hatsumi. To be able to act so passionately like that with nothing to lose......

Daikoku: .....Envious?

Iruru: Oh, sorry. I got so caught and said something weird.

Iruru:(Crap, this is awkward.)

Iruru:(How could I say something like that to someone younger than me......)

Iruru: Oh, Daikoku. Why don't we go for some training together--?

Daikoku: I can't just forget about something like that.

Daikoku: I can't just give up......

Daikoku: Until I joined Eden, no one would even acknowledge me. Not even in theatre, not even anywhere else.

Iruru: Daikoku......

Daikoku: I hated it. Constantly rejected from Sirius...... And all those people who made fun of me.

Daikoku: But, I really wanted for someone to look my way.

Daikoku: And then my Master gave me a place to belong......

Daikoku: She taught me how to stop hiding these feelings of envy and channel them into my acting......

Daikoku: And being able to stand on the stage...... That is my goal now.

Iruru: I'm so sorry...... I didn't mean to bring up something painful like that......

Daikoku: It's not that painful anymore.

Daikoku: It's just irritating.

Iruru: Huh?

Daikoku: I really look up to you. I think you're the most amazing person, after my Master.

Daikoku: But for you to act while giving up your future......

Daikoku: It seems like you're just using everyone...... It's annoying.

Iruru: I'm not using you guys......! I just......

Daikoku: 'Envious of people who can act passionately'? Do you really think that......?

Iruru: Still, "giving up my future"?

Iruru: I......

Iruru: (What is it that I want?)

Iruru: (Even thought I've already accepted that I only fit in a supporting role. I've went and borrowed the script for "Salome" and went and understood her emotions.)

Iruru: ......

Daikoku: I'm sorry for bursting out like that. I can't focus now, so I'm going to go to another room for some private practice......

Iruru: Hold on, Daikoku.

Daikoku: What is it?

Iruru: You're right.....

Iruru: I may have lied.

Iruru: The truth is......

Iruru: Theres something inside of me that wants to play Salome.

Iruru: But I thought that I wouldn't be able to do it.

Iruru: I didn't have the confidence.

Daikoku: You've finally realised it...... A person who doesn't want the role wouldn't go out of their way to borrow the script.

Daikoku: So you should announce that you want to do it. 'I want to take the lead role. Even if it means competing for the spot'.

Iruru: Haha...... As much as I like watching competitions, I'm not a fan of competing for an acting role.

Iruru: But, you're right. I should recognise and announce how I feel.

Daikoku: In that case, why don't you go speak with someone else about it......?

Iruru: Like Hatsumi?

Daikoku: That person will never forgive anyone who hides their true feelings. I'm sure she wants to know whats deep in your heart......

Daikoku: I sure it's OK. My Master is there to lead the way for us after all.

Iruru: Right, I'll go speak with her.

Iruru: Thanks Daikoku.

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Pub: 22 Dec 2023 23:55 UTC
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