Bane of My Mind

Overthinking
Rethinking
Doubting
Hesitating

Words bleeding out my head
Seeping back in my brain
Headaches; migraines that cause immense pain
The words she said

They haunt me
Those words, they circle around
Fighting back, its no use;
"Why would you make me choose?"

Overthinking:
I messed up I messed up I messed up
I didn't have a choice, I was being tormented
I'm not the one to blame... right? but--

Rethinking:
Maybe if I fix things, everything will be alright
If I do this, things will go back to how it was
But what if it is not right?

Doubting:
He loves me, right?
I was being tormented, so its her fault... no?
I... I don't know anymore...

Hesitating:
Should I open up more?
Maybe if I stall a bit more...
Its still too soon... right?

Words seep into my brain like poison
Damage so great it's messed with my emotions
Thinking, I am thinking
It hurts, but what choice did I have than to take it all in?

Written by: eLIE | Bane of My Mind | 9/16/24 | Back to main page --> https://rentry.co/eLIE000

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Pub: 16 Sep 2024 17:11 UTC

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