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I'm not really that good at holding conversations with others so I usually let the messages die out and let things get awkward, I usually am quiet when I'm overwhelmed or just tired in general. Nothing towards you at all! I'm just not that good with messaging! Another thing is that I hate messaging first as I always overthink that i'm just bothering someone with my constant messaging so I just go quiet until someone messages me. I often ghost people completely on accident or I'm just too overwhelmed with things going on in my life that I just go quiet for a day or two.

I have reoccurring jealously issues and i tend to overthink things alot. i dislike it when I find out that I've gotten attached to someone as i feel like I'm going to be a total failure and mess everything up. I tend to self sabotage myself in various ways when i start to feel distant such as telling myself that i'm better off by myself, ignoring messages, push people away, etc. I also tend to stay away when my friends are talking to other people, this is out of fear that i'll get jealous and it'll resort to going back to self sabotaging myself all over again.

Like Yikes man, I DO NOT want to do that but my brain tells me to. SO CRINGE!

Another thing is that I am usually seen by myself or with a friend or two, this is because I don't really enjoy talking in a large group of people, something about them makes me feel overwhelmed and uneasy so I tend to avoid them the best to my ability. So I much prefer hanging out with atleast 1 person or 2 people to make me feel at ease.

I dislike talking about my issues and problems to other people, I feel like i'm oversharing and that i know i'll regret talking about it afterwards, I tend to bottle up my feelings until it gets worse, I am aware of this ongoing problem however i just hate expressing my problems. I also firmly believe that People are out to get me, which is why I do not like explaining any issues that I might have out of fear that people who share those messages with their friends.

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Pub: 22 Oct 2024 10:33 UTC

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