
hi. i go by lots of names as stated as in the rentry where i assume you came from. i preferably go by felix, wolfgang, or michael. lucien is fine. i love nicknames give me one ok. infp-t 1w2 im a minor
i am professionally diagnosed with GAD and get depressive episodes a lot. being honest ive been having them since about last year or two years ago but right now the episodes are getting more frequent and intense. i shoud've said something about this earlier but better late than never +chronic illness and i might have asd but not sure
i might not act like myself, i dont take medication either. i get emotionally numb a lot or just zone out or dissociate whatever you want to call it it may render me unable to keep conversation for long durations or reply fast.
i have these days where its just a planewreck and others where im dancing in the rainbows, its similar to bpd but im not diagnosed with it so im not saying i have it ok. self diagnosing sucks you suck if you self diagnose.
intense mood swings, i get angered really easily and might lash out so id distance myself from people if so or just remain quiet so i dont lash out like a certain people.
i cannot deal with people who become super obssesive me, or depend on me a whole ton. trust me, i depend on people too but i dont dump venting on them. dont vent to me without asking. dont vent to me everyday.
if youre acting like youre actively seeking out for me being online or youre acting obssesive for long durations of days or time i migth start avoiding you or even ghost you entirely. again, i dont deal well with people who get obssesive over me. please try not to label me as your fp or something like that. i have disorganized + anxious avoidant attachment. sure, i call people my "favorite person" sometimes but dont take that to heart or too seriously, and dont take it in the context of bpd. i dont have bpd.
i much prefer if i interact first, im much more used to it since well i dont think i'd be good enough for people to rely on in general. im busy with school and so much things happening irl +low self esteem (im working on it) im like a cat, i want your attention and sometimes i cant tolerate it at all and would distance if provoked.
im slow and cant read between the lines. im tone deaf through text and take things literally. i appreciate tone indicators but if you use /silly or uh something like that im going to explode you.
my view on my identity is obstructed by something so i feel unconnected to it. i go through lots of names trying to find out who i am, and currently these ones listed above is what i feel like fits me the most. sorry for changing my names so much. Google search: is felix/michael real??
dont be pushy or insistent, i find it annoying if you do it repeatedly no matter who you are (unless gf ^///^ /pos)
I start going crazy if the same thing is happening over and over again or if i interact with the same person too many times.
if you just scrolled through this, just know key points.
- dont be obssesive with me, or i will avoid you
- bad moodswings and anger issues
- dont be pushy or insistent for long amounts of time
- i am often disconnected from reality, zoning out. low battery
- im taken by my wunderschön girlfriend (HI!!) my gf can bypass any of the dont's here because i trust her with my life. shes MY real favorite person ok??
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