I love you so much Doctor, you were my first pet and you'll always be my favorite puppy forever. You were the sweetest dog I've ever met, you never once were aggressive towards me, nor anyone at all. You loved others so much and it always made me happy to see you running and barking around. I miss the times where it was once annoying to wake up to you barking at a squirrel or our neighbor or when you would nudge at my door and open it whenever you would want to lay in my bedroom. I'm sorry for the times where I got annoyed and kicked you out when you wanted to cuddle. I wish I spent more time with you, and realized all those times that were once annoying to watch over you would be my last times I got to be with you. I remember how excited I was in elementary school when we first got you, and how I wanted to name you Oreo, but your name became Doctor Sniff Pupstable. I never called you by your full name ever, you always remembered puppy, poopy, and Doc. You were always my puppy boy and I wish I realized sooner that your time was up already. Eight years was even short for you, you had a few more years left if we realized why you haven't been okay. I wish I could've taken your cancer so you could life the rest of your life happy. I miss when you'd have your zoomies around the downstairs living room or when you'd defend me and get my dad when he "attacked" me. I knew you loved me so much when my room because your safe spot even when your absolute favorite person, Daddy, scared you sometimes and you'd immediately run up here. I wish those last few weeks you could lay up here with me, but because of your hurt leg you couldn't be allowed upstairs. Even when you weren't allowed to you snuck up here once and honestly at the time I was concerned and mad at you for doing something dangerous that could damage your leg again after surgery, but now I'm proud and happy you did. It's nice to know you were willing to do something so stupid for me. I love it when you would come over and cuddle with me on the downstairs chair, the first place you ever slept at when you first came to our house. I love kissing your cute face and touching your paws, and you never minded it. You were patient, yet also extremely stubborn when you didn't want something. I always remember when I have to push you and you'd just sit and not move when I had to get you out of my bedroom. Thats still my biggest regret of doing that. I love you sleeping in my room and just laying with me, and knowing you felt safe around me. Watching your heath degrade these past 2 months killed me, but I'm happy you're no longer in pain puppy boy. I tried so hard not to cry in front of you, and I think you knew you were leaving when everyone was cuddling you at the vet. It made us all laugh when even when you were being put to sleep you immediately tried to eat more food before passing out, you always loved eating food. I know you loved me most because I always shared everything with you and I never yelled at you. I'll still save you a few pieces of anything on my plate, even if you're not here because I know you will still put your head on my lap to beg for more to eat when your food bowl is already full of your kibble. You never ate your own food, yet you wanted everyone elses. I hope you felt me holding your paw like I always did before you fell asleep when you were being put to sleep to rest forever. You were the most silliest and sweetest dog in this entire world, and I hope I can see you again one day. I love you so much puppy.
I thought I heard you just now, it sounded like barking from downstairs then outside in the backyard, I really really miss you I love you so much. I also thought I heard your collar jingling last night, are you still coming to sleep with me in my bed? I'll leave you a spot on my bed where you loved laying.
I spent time with daddy since I knew you always did that with him when he was home and I know you wouldn't want him to be sad, he still talks to you as if you're there. Did you lay outside with him as he smoked his cigar? He brought out your bed so you can lay with him like you always did and he even made the blanket on your favorite chair look like you. He found a dog that looks a lot like you that he wants to adopt but I don't really want a dog that looks like you. If we do get a new dog I'll bring your bed upstairs so you can lay with me since I don't want you to have to share your bed that was meant just for you. I love you puppy, I cried a lot today thinking and talking about you. It's weird that you're not here crying for our food and trying to get on the couch with daddy and licking his bald head. I'll be coming downstairs to spend time with you still so you're not alone when he leaves for work. I know you hate being alone and you always want attention. I'm sorry for those times where I end up leaving you by yourself for a little bit and when we leave for vacation. I'm also so thankful that I had that bag of fur I collected when I was once helping you shed your fur, I forgotten to throw it away and just kept it in my drawer. I'm so thankful I did that, and I might give your fur to daddy as a birthday gift, even though as much as I want to keep it for myself I think he'll want it more. We can put your pretty fur next to your ashes when you come home puppy. I love you so much puppy boy I hope you've been doing okay without us, or maybe you are still here and we don't know. I hope you get excited when daddy calls out to you and we still have you here with us.
I miss you puppy our neighbor was doing his lawn and it's weird not to hear you barking at his leaf blower. It's weird to not have you here at home with us, I slept with your toy, I wish I let you play with it more before everything. I also hugged the seal tighter, I remember when you used to attack it and it reminded me of you. It felt like you for a moment when i was petting it like how I pet you. I wish you could've met my boyfriend, I know you would've loved him. I wonder if you just purposely ignored him when he was calling me and turn your head away when I turned my camera on. You somehow knew when I was going to take a picture of you because you immediately get all shy and turn your head away. I love you puppy boy
I wish you were here I miss you so much it hurts I feel so alone I miss you puppy I thought I was finally doing okay today but I started crying the second I was left alone. I miss you so much I wish this was all a horrible dream. I want to wake up with you curled up on my bed
Hi puppy I forgot to write something earlier, but we took you on a walk with us like we've promised you. We held your leash and collar as we walked the same way you used to walk with daddy. We talked about you the entire time and he told me how you had to turn a certain way at a point or you wouldn't move. Hearing your collar jingle was really refreshing, I missed hearing your collar jingle and for a moment it made me think you were with us. Daddy told me you used to pee in people's bushes which made me laugh, and when we do get the new dog, you're allowed to sleep on your bed in my room. I don't think you would mind sharing but that bed was really just for you, and it's where you rested for the last few weeks here with us. I cried again today, and I don't think I'll be able to not cry. Our neighbor probably figured out you're no longer here with us as well, because you no longer came out to bark or watch him. We all miss you Did you see all the flowers you got around your bed? You got really pretty flowers, so please don't eat them. My blanket still smells like you. I originally let you lay with that blanket everywhere because it smelled like me and I let you use it to be comforted by that smell, but now you're returning the favor and comforting me with your scent. Thank you puppy for that. I love you always and I'll never stop wishing you somehow return to me.
We found out your medication that you were taking caused your cancer. I'm so sorry puppy I wish we knew sooner that the medication for your pain was the cause of your cancer. I feel so horrible I'm so sorry puppy my sweet puppy
It's raining today, I hope you are inside with us puppy I know how much you hate the rain. Or you can be under the deck with daddy like that one time, we were proud of you for not getting scared and realizing you won't get wet under our new deck. I love you so much and I miss you. I cried a lot yesterday thinking about you.