
"Time heals all wounds."
Then why do I still miss her? Why do I still want to beg and plead for her to be my love again? Why do I still wish she was mine? I love my boyfriend, I really do, but I miss her so goddamn much. If time heals all wounds, why do I want to go back to the times we'd be on the phone all night?
Why do I want to hear her laugh again? To see her smile? Why do I miss her teasing and her beautiful eyes? Why do I miss every little detail about her, but cry when I can't remember them? Why do I miss everything about her? Why can't I just tell her how badly I want to kiss her?
Why does it hurt so bad?
If time heals all wounds, then why hasn't time healed the hole she left in my heart?
If time heals all wounds, then why hasn't time healed the pain I feel when I think of her?
If time heals all wounds, then why hasn't time healed the dread I feel when I see her after I close my eyes?
If time heals all wounds, then why do I still dream of her?
Why do I still dream of finally getting to hold her, to kiss her? Why do I still dream of getting to be close to her and tell her how special she is to me?
I want to tell her how much I miss her, how much I want her back, but... I don't think she likes me that way anymore...

MeeMaw. I miss my MeeMaw so much. IDK why you'd want it, but here is her obituary if you want it.
She was amazing. It includes my deadname, but idgaf. I loved this woman with my whole heart, the loss is NEVER going to get easy. She was my best friend, my second mother... She was my everything. I lived with the woman, slept in her bed, sat in her chair... Everything. I did everything with her. I was bathed in her kitchen sink, believe it or not. (Gross, I know.)
She was my favorite person. She still is. She died five days after my fifth birthday. Ironic, yeah? Belated gift or some shit, idk. Insert bday joke ab it here whatever. There's so many things I want to tell her. I want to tell her about my boyfriend, I want to tell her about Jack and Julius... I want to tell her about my life, about the ups and downs. I want to tell her about my interests and my hobbies. I want to draw for her again. I want to hug her, I want to cuddle with her. I want to be with her again. I want her back. I just want to be with someone who makes me feel special. Maybe things would be better if she was still here...

LYRIC VENT - Savlonic - Epoch ; The Living Tombstone's Remix
Everyone makes mistakes. I've had more than my share. But it's okay, 'cause I'm gonna repair it.
They say there are no retakes... But I just don't agree, no, this show... Is of my own making.
*Take it back to the start. I've had a change of heart.
I know we can make it better than it ever was! I know we can make it BETTER. I know we can make it better than it ever was, I know we can make it BETTER.
I know there's things to change. The path that I could choose is loose and I could find a new one.
Our fates are not yet written, I will take the warning. Choose a way that's less destructive-ive-ive-
Yeah, I know... We look back. But we have only see one path.
Can't you see? We are free. . . To choose our destiny.
To be... The way we want to be.
A second chance.
We just need to believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Believe.
Take it back to the start.
I've had a change of heart.
I know we can make it better than it ever was! I know we can make it BETTER. I know we can make it better than it ever was, I know we can make it BETTER.
I know we can make it better than it ever was! I know we can make it BETTER. I know we can make it better than it ever was, I know we can make it BETTER.