From the ages 12-17 I was just a flat-out awful person, I used to joke about things that I could NOT reclaim/were just downright offensive, would misgender people if I didn't like them, and just had a major victim complex and instead of fixing issues with friends at the time i'd go "ok you're 100% the problem i'm leaving"

Early 18 I still had somewhat of an issue when it came to just listening to what my friends said and not speaking up because "well I'm made to serve them!! if they dislike something/say something is ok/etc I have to follow!!" and just accepted what they said because I trusted them. Which lead to me being pissed off at everything and even ranting about people I considered friends/currently consider friends because "well I hate them bc they did x that means they're awful fuck them"

As of October 2021 I have been doing better and have been trying to be my own person, I still do tend to get frustrated easily but I can say i'm doing much better now.
As to anyone I directly affected I'm sorry for the things I did. And as to the ones who hurt me I'm also kinda sorry for the things I did to you as well but also please step in a puddle with your sock on because you took advantage of my "i have to be obedient" mindset

(if anyone I've directly interacted with wants to clear the air and get closure you're more than welcome to! I cant guarantee it'll make us become friends because I don't want to slip down the same rabbithole of having a toxic mindset but i'm more than willing to hear you out and try to give you the sort of closure you want)

this is only here for both my comfort and maybe yours. If you do not feel comfortable interacting with me because of something I'm publicly admitting to doing AGES ago then that's fine. I don't quite agree with the "nobody can change" mindset but if it makes you comfortable you do you man.

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Pub: 02 Mar 2022 06:56 UTC
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