Reponse

Hi i know this a really random but id just like to respond to something you spammed me a while back.
" i also think it's nice to know i'm still occupying your mind atleast 5 whole months (at the time you posted this) after our break-up." i don't see the point of mentioning this. although it might not seem like it to you but thinking about an ex 5 months after breaking up is not an uncommon thing. especially because it was rough on both sides.

"you know for a fact my name isn't actually makoto, you know my real name. we both know you do." no i actually did not know. i know your legal name yes but i clearly remember you telling me you were starting to feel uncomfortable with your current name (at the time jamie) and you were starting to shift to the name makoto.

"either way, isn't culture meant to be shared and celebrated?" people do share cultures and celebrate them for acknowledgement. but taking from other cultures is very different from cultural appreciation. you can't pick and choose from culture or what you're from. People are discriminated against for their cultures and you taking a small part of it for yourself is very insensitive to do.

"why do you want to gatekeep names of all things?" its not "gate keeping"?? if it was gate keeping it means id say 'oh dont learn about cultures just because!!' 'dont use this certain name because i dont want to share it with others!!" i pointed it out because it's disrespectful along with reasoning.

"you're of mexican descent going by a name that actually derives from - get this - my culture" just because its your culture doesn't change the fact you aren't a minority. I pointed it out because you were apart of a major group using from a minority group. a minority using from a major group is completely different because minorities unfortunately dont have alot of social power.

"so, as a proud irish man, i humbly ask you to change your name to something stereotypically mexican, as to abide by your own standards." pardon?? why are you acting as if being irish is so uncommon?? asking me to change my name to something 'stereotypically mexican' is just straight up racist.

"but just to mention - i don't recall ever saying i liked the incest?" never said you did. i was just mentioning a major flaw in a game you had interest in. same thing with ponytown mention. i felt like being a little jerk with that rant and jabbing at things you liked.

"if you stalked my rentry that much then you should've seen other people i'm friendly with there too." actually this was false. i was on the dni list the day you unadded me on everything. that day your status on disc said you were remaking it. when i noticed it was gone i looked at it. looking at it there my name was along with my user. i thought jokes were meant to have both people in on it. reading "orangebones/caden (what you did was pretty fucked up ngl..)" did not feel like a joke because there were no other PEOPLE in that list besides me.

"i was deflecting and pleading for you to drop that topic because i didn't want to talk about it, and the fact that you continued despite that was blatantly violating my trust and my boundaries." i do regret trying to fix a problem i couldn't fix. and for that i apologize for. but i'm not apologizing for you to forgive me but for myself.

"no, i never loved you, what i thought was genuine attraction was more along the lines of trauma-bonding. am i a piece of shit for leading you on knowing our relationship was failing? yes, but that was less malice and more i was afraid of what would come after." this is incredibly sad. especially because you were the one who asked me to date you. i know you dont care but i did love you. i thought our relationship was genuine. it sickens me you wasted my time.

"for the first part, that was less "asking if i was okay" and more pointing out my mental issues to my face, way to water it down to make yourself look good." it was not mental "issues" i was not telling you that you were depressed/had a mental disorder. i told you why do you put others over yourself because it was gravely affecting your behavior for the worse.

"for the second part, you have just provided everyone who knows what i've gone through and has read your rentry the PERFECT example of reactive abuse. it's almost poetic." that wasnt the case for us? i didnt mistreat you nor did i disrespect you as a person. I cared for your feelings. if this was the case it would mean i wouldn't even bother to bring up the topic and just straight up tell you that you are a doormat to people.

"cry me a whole river and let me drink your tears and savour the salt you sad, pathetic vile sack of shit." on a random little note if your goal was to make me feel highly uncomfortable reading that, you did it.
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Why?

At the time i felt terrible and one of my friends told me to let it out on a rentry and hide it on my main page. I agreed because i was very desperate for a frustration outlet. hence why everything is very unserious and for the little typo of "nick pick". also the stalking was purely because i was bored with myself with nothing to do. was it weird? yes. do i regret it? also yes. this response was for myself for an add of peace.
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Yikes
What i find interesting is that you sent me the response in july. It is now september and youre harassing me on retrospring. Its a bit more odd because when i bothered you, what i was saying was harmless. and it was only twice i said something. but you spamming me on 6 different occasions is wild to me. i think you should go back to your job and get a life.
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Closing words
I hope that the small chance you've even read this you decide to be mature and leave me alone. you genuinely made me feel terrible about something i wrote for myself. im done with you and am trying to move on with my life.

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Pub: 01 Oct 2024 00:22 UTC
Edit: 01 Oct 2024 15:26 UTC
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