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Oskar, 2006¹⁹ Cisgender boy ⚣ He, him only Non-sharing #1 RPF Alek self-shipper. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀

Remake of my previous Alek rentry, will finish this once I get the motivation to do so. Answering most frequently asked questions about my yume and RPF yumeshipping.

001.⠀⠀Why Aleksy?
Something about him caught my attention right away after I saw him on the cover of Kamienie na szaniec back in 2019. I felt an urge to learn more about who he was, not just as a character because we were covering the book at school, but as a real person. The first time I actually looked him up was in the school bathroom! I wanted to know which one of them was Rudy, and which one was Alek. Well, the more I read about him, the more mesmerized I became. I admire his actions, his dedication, the way he stayed cheerful and optimistic even in hard times. That admiration quickly turned into emotional attachment. Learning about things he struggled with just made me love him more. It's quite literally like you would have fallen in love with someone you met. You see them, you think they're cute, you learn more about them and.. you're in love! Overtime, my feelings grew much stronger. I seriously cannot put my love for him into words. I genuinely have never loved anyone as much as I love him, and my feelings for him will never go away!

For those curious, yes. I can have real life relationships..

002.⠀⠀Is RPF disrespectful to the real person?
It can be. In my opinion, my relationship with Alek is as respectful as it can get. I feel like I have to make this clear, as I'm sure this raises questions.. I do not romanticize war, violence, or his suffering, and I treat his real life and history with respect.

I also respect his real relationships a lot. I don’t feel jealousy toward his girlfriend at the time at all. She loved him deeply, and after his death she went on to live her life, get married, and have children. Because of that, there’s no competition or resentment in the way I feel.

I genuinely think she was an amazing person, and I have nothing but respect and love for her.

Regarding the Kamienie na szaniec community: I do not support roleplay accounts, shipping between real historical figures, or AI edits involving them at all. These are real people and I believe they deserve dignity. While interpretations of close friendships (such as Zośka and Rudy) exist, they should not be exaggerated or sensationalized. I know most of the community is younger.. but please. Have some respect.

I also do not support Rośka fanfiction!!!! Stop!!!! Nooo!!! It doesn't matter whether they were gay or not keep your damn fetish to yourself!!!

As for celebrity RPF in general, I believe it's okay when it remains non-invasive and private, without bothering or crossing boundaries with the person involved.

003.⠀⠀Is it parasocial?
Short answer: Yes. But parasocial ≠ bad.
It becomes unhealthy only if it replaces real life relationships, causes you distress, affects your daily life and makes you feel dependent.

004.⠀⠀Is this delusional?
Nope, unless you genuinely believe it’s real. If you KNOW it’s fantasy, that's healthy escapism. If you think it’s actually happening, that’s when it starts being a problem.

005.⠀⠀How is this any different from a celebrity crush?
Honestly, it's not THAT different. RPF yumeships just go deeper: self-inserts, emotional bonds, and most of the time it's comfort based. A crush would be thinking they're cute and liking their content. You would admire them from a far. Whereas RPF yumes imagine themselves interacting with them, talking.. dating.. They sometimes become a part of their daily routine. A crush would be fun, exciting or aesthetic, while people use RPF to cope with stress, feel loved or comforted.

006.⠀⠀Why do people hate RPF yumes?
Parasocial relationships make people uneasy because they include real people. They worry about objectification, disrespect, boundary crossing, consent.. you get it. It's fair, but they often assume ALL RPF yumes cross the line, when most of them just stay in their rooms and daydream without actually hurting anyone.

People confuse fantasy with delusion. They assume "if you imagine this, you must think it's real." But that's not true. Fantasy isn't delusion, and daydreaming isn't psychosis.

They don't understand the emotional function. For many yumes, it's imagination as therapy. But they don't see that, apparently.

007.⠀⠀What do RPF yumes usually do?
It's not that different from normal yumes. Drawing, tropes, playlists, pinboards, edits, daydreaming, and so on.

008.⠀⠀Is it okay if it makes me feel better?
YES! That's literally the point. If it helps you feel comforted, less lonely, safe etc... Then it's serving its purpose.

009.⠀⠀What's the difference between selfshipping and yumeshipping?
There is none. It's quite literally the same thing, but yumeshipping comes from Japanese fan culture. Personally, I fluctuate between using both terms. No, I didn't start saying yumeshipping because I think Japanese words are cute (do people seriously think like this?) I've been at this since 2014, thanks.

But I do think selfshipping makes more sense in RPF context, as the word yume translates to dream.

  • Bonus.. Who even is Alek?
    Maciej Aleksy Dawidowski (born on the 3rd of November 1920, died on the 30th of March 1943 at 22 years old) was a Polish scoutmaster, Polish Scouting resistance activist and Second Lieutenant of the Home Army during the Second World War. Alek is a main character in the books Kamienie na Szaniec by Aleksander Kamiński, and Rudy, Alek, Zośka by Barbara Wachowicz.

Personal notes:

  • If you think me being in love with Alek is a bad thing, I don't care cause I'm a bad person nevertheless lol
  • I do not read nor write RPF, I am simply in love with my dearest boy, Alek. I despise Kns fanfiction and I want to strangle all of you weirdos. Am I a hypocrite?
  • While I see all historical RPF yumes as my dear siblings, I hate the Nazi ones (I've seen ones of Goebbels, Mengele maybe more I don't remember) and I hope they all die. You are NOT one of us!!!
  • I would not call myself a RPF yumeshipper or selfshipper whatever the hell.. I am simply a boy in love!!! Leave me alone. I do not use those terms outside of rentry. Thanks

Happy Valentine's day to me and Alek
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Pub: 05 Jan 2024 19:43 UTC

Edit: 14 Feb 2026 09:34 UTC