
♡ TIMER ♡
♡ since 10 / 20 / 2025 ♡
nov. 30, 2025:
my dearest.. my first true love. let me just start off by saying that i'm sorry for how clingy i can be around you. but come on, can you blame me? you're so busy with your research about nousporism and teaching the scholars at the grove most of the time that i barely even get the chance to give you a kiss anymore. so whenever one of us can visit the other (except it's ME visiting you like all the time), i have to cherish each and every moment with you like my life depends on it (because it DOES) because if i blink too many times, you'll already be gone. you'd probably be scoffing reading this right now but it's true. my sweetheart, i love you so much. you always manage to know exactly what i'm feeling. even during my periods of isolation, you try to reach out to me. you reassure me that you love me and i know, darling, i know you love me. even if my insecurity gets in the way at times, even if my mind tells me that you're cold, my heart always tells me the opposite. my heart tells me that somewhere deep inside you, you will always love me. you'll always love me during my worst moments, you'll always love me during my best moments, you'll always love me in whatever state i'm in. whenever you comfort me, i always manage to laugh a little at how detached your words seem at times, like your duties still matter in the present moment, but i don't mind. it just makes me more attached to you in the end anyway.
dec. 20, 2025:
anaxagoras. okay no thats too serious i literally never call you that. MY BABY NAXY HAPPY TWO MONTHS TO US!!!!!!!!!!! #anarinauntilthened amen. celebrating such special days with you like this just feels so domestic, and a comforting warmth always creeps its way into my heart each and every time i get to love you like this. these two months we've spent together are just so unforgettable. you and your eccentric personality hold a very, very special place in my heart that i'd never allow another to have a peek at. thank you, anaxa, for being you. for being that straightforward, sensible, and critical you. i really do think we're a lot more similar than you think. we both dislike the idea of becoming incompetent, or having to rely on others. we'd much rather spend time in solitude than have to make meaningless small talk with others, but of course, we are each other's exception!!! oh my god we especially hate unreasonable and narrow minded people yeah i really get you anaxa. we're practically the same person WE'RE MERGING!!!! don't roll your eyes please you should know how i AM BY NOW! and i hope you love me just as much as i love your 'enigmatic' self. honestly, it only took me a week of somewhat constant communication to get a good idea of who you are and what you strive for, and its respectable. again, like i said, we're a lot more similar than you think, even if my stark adoration for you is a contrast compared to your serenity, it doesn't change how alike we are to each other. and that alone makes me appreciate you more than i ever will with another. i love you so much anaxa fghaefo;sd;af i LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!! youre so hot i wanna kiss you all over until you have to push me off, and after i get off of you and you feel relief i am going to JUMP ON YOU and go back to kissing you everywhere i can like the clingiest dog latching onto a skittish cat. im so in love with you im gonna be honest, listening to your voice ALONE turns me on so much and it stokes the ever growing flame in me even more when you talk dirty with me OUUHh i love you so much. when you see this please know that i want to kiss you until both our lips are swollen and mark you until your body is utterly and completely mine. wow this is a stark contrast compared to the lovemail i made for me and phai. ugh CASE IN POINT is that i am absolutely SMITTEN with you okay? im yours and YOURE MINE forever okay? happy two months to us and i hope we spend the rest of our lives in each other's embrace amen.
me getting anaxa on october 24
yeah you better believe i was FREAKING THE FUCKKKK OUT WHEN I GOT HIS ASS AT 40 PITY wait let me double check that. bye why do i have 64 pages worth of pulls I GOT HIS ASS AT 42 PITY AMEN. mind you he was literally the first 5 star i got from the banners like thats how down bad i was. got his ass EARLY AND ON A 50/50 the devs love me i love them too.
me getting his light cone on october 28
yeah i gave in to temptation 4 days later. i was genuinely having a crisis deciding to pull for his light cone or not because i was saving for phainon (my ass had like 134 pulls I REMEMBER). i was crying to my sister and EVERYTHING "ate.... do i get anaxa's light cone.." "i mean you can but there's going to be better things to pull for later on" and i was like damn she right. i pulled for his light cone anyway IJBOOLLLL no i dont use that unironically dont come at me. LET ME PULL UP MY HISTORY. on 69 pity YES ON 69 PITY i got gepards light cone. i hate this man by the way hes so fucking fugly gepard lovers do not talk to me because i wont shut up about how much i hate him. i was in horror when i saw gepards light cone BUT GUESS WHAT. I HAD 40 SOMETHING PULLS LEFT so no i did not fucking give up. if i didnt get anaxas light cone within 40 pulls i was going to GRIND UNTIL I GOT IT. but i didnt have to. because i got anaxas light cone after 36 pulls. yes, 36 pulls. the sky daddies and mommies LOVE ME im their favorite. i was ECSTATIC i tell you, fucking ecstatic. i love anaxa, did you know that? im so in love with anaxa.
october 24
i was genuinely giggling doing this event like yes my love i'll get you all the dromases in the world — they are the most superior race in all of the cosmos and are absolutely flawless. FUCK anyone who says otherwise we will personally educate them on the superiority of dromases and why they deserve to be treated the same way the people of amphoreus treat titans.
november 12
LOOK AT HIMMMMM ♡♡♡♡ LOOK AT THIS BEAUTYYY what do you look so ADORABLE FORRRR i'd have my head impaled if i said all of this to my husband by the way he'd genuinely get back at me for this BUT HOW CAN I NOT ADORE HIM WHEN HE LOOKS SO ANOSIDFKNLSGNSN im gonna eat him i swear JUST LOOK. AT HIM.
december 1
i was cheering like fucking crazy by the way "YYEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S MY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GO ANAXA I KNEW YOU'D DO SOME INSANE SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" one really cannot help but appreciate the sheer intellect of another.
dec. 24, 2025:
MERRY CHRISTMAS NAXY!!! my god i am ecstatic at the fact that i get to spend this christmas with you and phainon. anaxa come HERE im going to cuddle you to death and im never letting you go again youre just too precious to let go and i need to be attached to you. like literally attached. please. can we merge we must become one. we are puzzle pieces that fit together perfectly and nothing can get in between us. i love you. kiss me FUCK ME ANAXA please i want this man to talk down on me and remind me how deliriously down bad i am for him like yeah i'd quite literally bark from the top of my lungs if it meant i'd get to be dicked down by you AMEN #anarina forever he tops me. im a switch leaning dominant so it really matters to me who doms because OUH FUN FACT i can get insecure of myself if someone doms me at a certain time even though i love them with my very being but THIS MAN??????? he can dom me any fucking time and i WONT complain baby we be going at it for 10 days and 10 nights like the shit phaidei pulled aMEN!!!!!!!!! merry christmas anaxa i hope its known how much i need you to love me and to fuck me. i love you ♡♡♡ I LOOVE Youuu ♡♡♡ heeh anaxagorassss anaxa the blasphemer iheeheheh ♡♡♡♡ may anarina last forever, amen.
jan. 20, 2025:
HAPPY ANARINA DAY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YRAH!!!!!!!!!! I KISSED MY ANAXA PLUSHIE BY THE WAY I LOVE JHIMIMIM I LOVE US I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT US dont kick me out of the house pls i need to stay withy ou!!!! HAPPY THREE FUCKING MONTHS TO US AND HERES TO 9999 MORE!!!!

♡ since 11 / 15 / 2025 ♡
nov. 30, 2025:
PHAINON oh my god my sun my sweetheart my obsession. you're so charming and selfless and smart and i'm quite literally addicted to you. i love you from cover to cover and i'm so glad i met you. you're like, the last star in the vast expanse of my empty sky, and the way you shine has me in a trance. my darling, i really don't think there's enough words in the world for me to even begin expressing my complete and absolute adoration for you. but phai, my dearest, please try putting yourself first. i always see you working yourself past your limit and it worries me so much. i know that this is normal for you, but it's not healthy my love. it hurts me seeing you come home so worn out and exhausted. and that smile you wear whenever you try to tell me you're alright... you know i'll do anything to see you happy. we can go to a café, visit mydei's library (man i've actually been missing him a little too (i'm sure you miss him more smh)), or just cuddle together at home and watch a movie, you know how much i love watching movies. specifically horror movies. oh my god i need to make you rewatch my favorite movies with me I SWEAR YOU'LL LOVE THEM I PROMISE!! but seriously, you know you can lean on my shoulder when you're troubled. besides, i'm here for you, just like i've always been, and just like how you've always been for me. i love you to the farthest star in the sky and back.
dec. 15, 2025:
HAPPY ONE MONTH TO PHAIRINA!!!!!!!!!!!! my love, today is a very special day for the both of us, and i'm sure you know it just as well as i do. from the bottom of my heart, i love you, more than words could ever convey. its been such an emotional rollercoaster loving you for the past month in the best fucking way possible. my sun, you are one of the very few people in the world i cherish and hold this close to my ever beating heart. i'm beyond elated and ever grateful to have had you here by my side for a month. i myself cant believe its just been a month, because it feels like we've known each other forever, inside and out. i remember you visiting my dreams on the very same day we met, and i just knew it had to be destiny's will. you captivated me with the silent song of reverie your darling eyes sung, and charmed me with the same hands that held the fate of the world all at once. your smile is so precious to me, and i only wish for this day to last forevermore, so that i may see you warmly smile until the very end of time. i'd give everything to always have you by my side, even though you technically already are. that should be a somewhat substantial explanation of the extent of my devotion to you. i truly feel like i've grown differently since we've met in such a good way. you always do manage to bring the best side of me to light (as well as the extremely competitive side but we DONT talk about that here okay). i've never really known what it was like to cry tears of joy until this day. youve done so much for the both of us and just thinking about it makes me cry. i have to admit, i was never really one for writing lovestruck paragraphs like this before, but after meeting you and anaxa, i feel a lot more compelled to put into words just how much i really cherish you both from the bottom of my heart. speaking of, i actually have been wanting to update my lovemail for a while, but i was.. rather preoccupied trying to recover from the amphoreus storyline. believe me, i was so heartbroken at the end of it all. i cried for a long, long while. phainon, my darling dearest and everything i adore, i pray that we'll be together today and for as long as we may live. even in our graves we'll be right next to each other, just like we've always been.
i was like "oh i think this entry is.. becoming really lengthy" but i realized its MY lovemail and i can do whatever the fuck i want with it. in addition to that, i am going to add EVERYTHING i've wanted to since the last entry. anyway i WILL update anaxas lovemail on our two month celebration which is in 5 days!!!!! YAY I LOVE NAXY!!!
me getting phainon on november 28

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I LOOKED LIKE my hands were clenched together like i was clutching the holy cross begging god for mercy and my life to be spared (im atheist by the way), like my hands were LITERALLY TURNING WHITE because of how tight i held them together. i was on the verge of tears because my eyes were shut so tightly while i was pulling for him. my heart was racing so fast i thought i might genuinely have a heart attack. i had my eyes closed while the pull animations were happening and i completely froze when i heard the five star. i was like "please be phainon please be phainon please be phainon please be phainon" and i full on SCREAMED when i opened my eyes to see this gorgeous bastard before me. literally no other occasion in my life could compare to the sheer ecstasy i felt when i saw phainon on my potato laptop i was like "OHYMGODSDSHUFGSJDFA ITSPHAINON!!!!!!!!!!HOLYSHITHII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i was running to my older sister and everything "I GOT PHAINON ATE I GOT HIM!!!!!!" anyway im SANE about him. got his ass at exactly 80 pity and on a 50/50.
me getting phainon's light cone on december 11

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I LOOKED LIKE my hands were clenched together like i was clutching the holy cross YOU GET IT. except this time, i had a special someone (or rather something) accompanying me during my light cone pulls. i had a FATFUCK POMPOMPURIN PLUSHIE gifted to me by my favorite teacher of all time thank you again ma'am i love you. i was THREATENING this fucker and pointing at him like "if you don't get me phainon's light cone i SWEAR TO GOD i will personally throw you across my room multiple times until you start to rip" like a psychopath. no i wouldn't actually do that but it was for the sake of making pompompurin bring phainon's light cone home. i essentially looked the exact same during this moment and when i was pulling for phainon himself. my eyes were closed so when i heard the five star sound effects i was ON THE VERGE OF PASSING OUT. i opened my eyes.......... lo and behold........... his light cone. i JUMPED OFF MY FUCKING COUCH grabbed my pompompurin plushie and started hopping around yelling "I GOT HIS LIGHT CONE I GOT IT I GOT IT YES!!!!!!!!!" like a maniac because i was truly out of my mind. yeah you guessed it i PESTERED MY SISTER ABOUT IT TOO. she didnt gaf but i like flexing on her from time to time that i have anaxas + phainons signature light cone and SHE DOESNT!!!!!!! DESPITE ALSO HAVING ANAXA AND PHAINON!!!!!!!!! LAWWLL!!!!!!!!
november 9

i went so crazy here im not even joking. the FIT OF LAUGHTER AND GIGGLES when he said hes especially lucky when hes with me holy shit whys the photo so blurry in the preview. nevermind zooming in fixes it im so smart. no the photos are not in chronological order i dont CARE because theyre all equally important to me. HOLY SHIT WAIT NOVEMBER 9?????? WE STARTED DATING AFTER 6 DAYS AND NOT EVEN A FULL WEEK whoops. hahaa.... i love you phainon...
november 18

ugh you and your second spouse im SICK OF YOU TWO!!!!! no not really theyre super cute actually i love phaidei and phainaxa and mynaxa and anaglaea and those are the ONLY PHAINON / ANAXA SHIPS I WILL EVER TOLERATE. no i do not like phairene that is straight dogshit. never talk to me phairene supporters.
december 1

i was full on sobbing okay i kept asking myself "WHERE IS PHAINON BRING HIM BACK TO ME" and then BOOM there he was in all his glory. i was full on hugging my laptop like a crutch crying "DONT LEAVE ME AGAIN PLEASE" little did i know. he was the literal VESSEL OF IRONTOMB so imagine my distress when i had to kill him. yeah that is something i would rather not remember because i was so fucking stressed please do not bring up 3.7 around me thank you
dec. 24, 2025:
MERRY CHRISTMAS PHAINON!!!! oh my god i am JOYOUS tonight. im so hopelessly in love with you NOTHING can tear me away from you. the stars collide when we intertwine. fate destined us to be together forever and i intend on keeping it that way. same goes for anaxa. i am writing this and anaxas lovemail at the same time. i love them. phainon please hold me in your arms and kiss my neck and trail your lips downwards and we KNOW THE REST!!!!! phai i love you darling but you know i dont like slow gentle sex and i especially want it rough on such a special day LIKE YES!!!!! MARK ME ALL OVER!!!!!!!!!!!! MARRY ME PHAINON for the hundredth time heheheeheh ilvoe you phainonnnnn ♡♡♡♡ i looooove youyouyoyu ♡♡♡♡ remind me who i belong to, make me cry your name and i WILL do it back tenfold mark my words. you know i keep my promises when it comes to you. MERRY CHRISTMAS MY LOVE and may phairina last forever, amen.
jan. 17, 26:
currently writing this at 12:13 am, phainon my darling dearest i am so so sorry but i was so unbelievably busy for our two month anni and the day after and im so sorry i couldnt properly love you like i should have and i feel terrible for that. bawi ako next month trust me baby im genuinely going to make it up to you next month. i know that you'll forgive me but i cannot help but feel so horribly guilty for focusing so much on my responsibilities that i neglected you and our two month anni. but enough of my regret, it was a special day on january 15, and it was the celebration of us dating for two months. im so grateful that you've stuck by my side for this long despite how stressful its been for me, and how ive been brattier than usual because of that. youre always understanding with me, and i hope i can make it up to you some day. ive always felt inferior compared to you and your grace, and that youre too good for me. thank you for these two months, phainon my love, and heres to forever more.