i figured it was gonna be the same as always. just a new teacher, what can go wrong? it's probably just gonna be a woman anyways. i thought i was going to be alone for the rest of my life. until i put my eyes on you. you, just leaning against the doorway, having a small, little smile on that beautiful, clean face of yours. you were like an angel sent from heaven down to planet earth. your eyes shine the brightest out of everyone else's. the way your hands move slowly when you talk to other people who can absolutely die and jump off a cliff in my perspective. but you. your body is something to behold, to die for. i just wanted to place my hands on you and feel your soft, smooth skin everywhere. you were my whole life, my world. and i love you for that. you were perfect. my only one. just me and you against the universe. i adore you for that. you talk as i'm sitting in the back row, watching you look around the room to find me. you liked me. you loved me and you wanted me to prove to you that i was the only one for you, the only true love for your life.. you introduced yourself to me. you gave me your name!! █████. █████ █████ ████████. you gave me your middle name too. and i loved your middle name. it fit so perfectly with you. you were my everything, my light. i even searched you up on facebook as well. seen what you had, seen what you were, what you wanted. your birthday is ██████ ████ of ████. you're ██, going on ██ years old. you were like a dream come true and you were gonna be mine. you're married, but that doesn't change the fact that we're gonna have a future together. i also stalked your so-called "wife". ██████████ █████. or, formerly known as ██████████ ████████. god, what an ugly match, the way her first name didn't and doesn't go along with your last name. she was my target. someone i'd kill for to hold your warm, soft hand with mine. i marked it on my bucket list to kill her someday. i love you so much. i will do everything for you to be mine someday. and you will be mine.
i feel like giving up. you mention your wifes name like i'm not even in the room and it disgusts me to see your wide, grinning smile from across the room. watching you laugh, hearing you talk, just derives me from wanting you. you mention your kids, and i just can't wait to see the sparkle fall out of your eyes as i slaughter them into pieces one day. your family drives me insane. you deserve so much better.
hearing you call yourself ugly and stupid was the last thing i wanted to hear you say about yourself. you know i cried after school, looking photo through photo, seeing your breathtaking smile and your beautiful, warm, fleshy layers of skin. watching your eyes drop down to the floor just because i got laughed at in your class made me feel so depressed and empty inside. you don't need to feel insecure, not when you're around me. i want to see you happy and ready to start your day. it's not your fault. i don't want to watch that happy feeling fall from your face. not from yours.
it was the graduation of middle school and i got to hug you!!! god, my heart was racing when i saw your beautiful eyes glistening when they fell on me. it was like a dream come true.. and now i can't see you anymore. not in school. oh, how i miss you so much. :(