🐝 I am Beetail from Warriors Cats. Thunderclan's Deputy during Oakstar's leadership.

This is a spiritual kin, meaning I have memories of my past life as him. If you don't take it seriously or find it cringy, that's fine. Keep it to yourself. I do mind if we share, so do not interact.


Canon

  • ENTJ
  • I was a young warrior when I was made deputy, around some moons older than Ravenwing.
  • I was AFAB. During my apprentice years I identified as transmasc but soon as I became deputy I felt comfortable with any gender and pronouns. Close clanmates would call me by she/her while the clan would refer to me as mostly they/them.
  • Ravenwing and I had feelings for each other. We weren't official due to Ravenwing being a medicine cat and having trouble, confusion and fear of expressing his true feelings.
  • My fur was very spiky but silky, easily shaped. I had a very long, silky and whip-like tail.
  • I do not think I knew my parents. I have no memory of them, only of my sister; Squirrelwhisker.
  • Oakstar was my mentor and his kits saw me as family. I let Birchface in warmly but wasn't much of a fan of Frecklewish.
  • Doefeather/star was my childhood best friend and at some point in our childhood I had a crush on her, but during our training we were very harsh with ourselves and each other which would cause us conflict due to childish mistakes. As we grew up mentally and physically we put our past behind us and became inseparable.
  • My dream was to become leader.
  • I wasn't good with words or feelings at all, which was why I was always logical, strategic, extremely honest and charismatic with my clanmates. I had very few close friends and would open up to them only.
  • I was very tiny/small but my legs were oddly long for my size. Doestar would often joke about my height. I would tell her that she intimidated me.
  • I died due to one of Oakstar's unnecessary battles. I had many open and infected wounds but would push any help away and shut down due to being focused on fixing the clan after Mapleshade's exile. I eventually passed as my wounds worsened.
  • The drawing above was made by velo-cats and it's my canon design. The only thing missing is that I had a scar on the left side of my neck, muzzle and shoulder.

Memories

  • I remember feeling guilty about being cold to Cloudberry in her first days in Thunderclan but at the time I was dealing with grief due to losing Ravenwing.
  • I became friends with Cloudberry when, one night, she found me mourning over Ravenwing's death alone in camp. She sat down close to me and something about her just made me feel comfortable and I finally, after moons, was able to let my feelings out and cry. Soon we would become close.
  • I remember feeling uneasy with Mapleshade's presence since ever, even before her relationship with Appledusk happened. Something about her just made me uncomfortable.
  • The clan interrupted me mid-grooming to Mapleshade's banishment. I stood next to Ravenwing in disbelief. As Ravenwing, without facing me, shot out the news it hit me like a punch in the face. Ravenwing then looked at me with a vengeful look in his eyes and whispered to me "Birchface wasn't your blood but sure was your kin, I knew how much he meant to you. And this traitor carried his murderer's kin. I knew it, and I refused to keep quiet any longer. She is not welcome here, Beetail.". I was in shock. Then Frecklewish spoke up and I cringed. No matter how bad these kit's father could be, they would never deserve the ending that they eventually got. But I couldn't speak up. I blamed myself for these kit's death until my own.
  • I never believed Birchface was the father of Mapleshade's kits and I honestly never cared about knowing who their father was. But I felt guilty for being the one who told Frecklewish about Mapleshade's pregnancy and she eventually being the one who spread this rumour around. And I never did anything to stop it.
  • The night of Ravenwing's death was one of our date nights and I waited for him, Larkwing and Sloefur to come back. As Larkwing and Sloefur came back alone I couldn't believe them so I went to his grave to check it out myself. As I got there I was in shock to find Ravenwing's body unburied and half-eaten. After mourning and dissociating for some hours, I buried his remains and went back home. I couldn't speak for the next two days, only give orders around.
  • I did a lot of work and faced extreme burnout to try to reform Thunderclan after Mapleshade's banishment.
  • When Deerpaw died I felt the need to do a special cerimony in her burial along with Doepaw/feather and our friends. I always felt guilty for not being able to take the cat who attacked her down in time.
  • Deerpaw would tease me very often and we'd get into childish arguments.
  • My sister, Squirrelwhisker, knew about mine and Ravenwing's relationship but it took me a while to tell her about it. When I finally did, she burst out laughing and screamed "AS IF I DIDN'T KNOW ALREADY!" and after this I had always to shush her down or else the whole clan would know about me and him.
  • I was very happy, honored and proud that Doefeather eventually took my place as Thunderclan deputy after I passed. During her nine lives ceremony, I gave her a life for determination. I told her; "With this life, I give you Determination. Use it wisely to lead your clan strategically, but do not forget your compassion, Doestar. Do not make the same mistakes as he did. I trust, and love you, and will always accompany you in your journey of bravery. I am proud of you.". I also requested her to deliver a message to my sister.

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Pub: 14 Dec 2021 15:35 UTC
Edit: 15 Dec 2021 00:20 UTC
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