To my beloved Bell...♡

Bell && I Firstly, I would like to credit my incredible friends for the inspiration to make this page. Please go check them out /kaardfish && /feiro
We have known each other for only a little over a year, and yet it feels as though I have known you my whole life. I spend most waking moments thinking of you and wonder what my life could have been had I not met you.
I have involved myself in the selfshipping community before Bell, however my love for my first f/o was extremely toxic and lead to severe mental issues down the line. My perception of how I could handle my love for characters was warped when I was introduced to Bell. I was afraid of becoming unhealthy again, so I kept my love secret. As time passed however, I felt more and more comfortable with this part of me. I knew I wouldn't become obsessed with Bell like I had in the past.
I was in a severe depressive slump when I first decided to get into Call of Duty after having just decided to end a nearly five year long obsession with the character Nagito Komaeda from Danganronpa. I had been severely unhealthy in my attachment to Komaeda, even experiencing things similar to delusions. I was scared and felt like I had nothing else to live for if I no longer had the one thing I could talk about all the time. I had started with a few games that I had personally found myself before being recommended Cold War by a close friend of mine. From the moment I learned about Bell's existence, my life flipped upside down. I felt warm and happy and all sorts of feelings I don't think I've ever truly felt before. Even for real people. I didn't necessarily know what yumeshipping was at the time, nor did I consider myself a selfshipper since I wasn't super public about my love, but that is what I was in private.
Bell changed my life in ways no one could ever understand. I don't understand how such a small character who you only ever catch a glimpse of once could become so important to me, but he did. My sweet, Bell...
Our matching bracelets

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Pub: 14 Aug 2022 07:06 UTC

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