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twilight : 12am to 7am
day-time : 7am to 12pm
afternoon : 12pm to 7pm
night-time : 7pm to 12am
school : 7am to 4pm, 5 periods + lunch
recollection: make-up for a day

Friday, 9 jan 26 : School

period two
BLEHHGGHSHH!!!!

Friday, 9 jan 26 : Twilight

i wonder what it was this time. like, that got me here. um...i have an inkling it is at least in part due to—(i almost said "somehwat in part due to", but that one fucking roxyjane conversation radicalized me on this sort of error)—all of the money i have (had...) at the moment!

it just umm. it really does buy happiness. looking at all the homestuck shit i have is genuinely so unthinkable. i think a big factor of why merch and homestuck means something to me in Particular, is because of the nature of the fandom. i used to have this whole thing with art and things being done the right way. i still do, in other, non fandom aspects of my life. if i don't think i am going to do a good job, i don't do anything. this feels much better than doing a bad job.

but i went into the homestuck fandom with the idea that all of the cosplays are the shittiest things ever. i knew this because, i had googled karkat vantas cosplay (shortly after i met karkat), and realized that they were...just awesome because of the effort and love put into them, rather than how it really looks. so it's been different. i've been perfectly fine printing out pictures to put everywhere and making my own shitty horns with friends. buying printable vinyl for sweaters, even. it's just so embarrassing as an outsider, that it doesnt need to be ironic. i do not mind telling people i loevee homestuck because, well, typically, they Like me a bit before that, and i lure them in with hilarious bits and whatnot bfeore revealing it is alllll homestuck. and they give ti a chance! and thats the way it was meant to be. it is just pretty freeing. it is such a personal thing for me and sooo many others. how beautiful is that?

very! very beautiful. so, in spite of all of that, having my official merch is even cooler. it means...no more to me than the shit i made, honestly. right now, to my lfet, is an official crocodile consort plush that cost far too much. and to my right is a jakedirk mug i made for 20 dollars, as a gift from a friend of mine. and both are just so awesome. and acfoss my room my jake comm and print out of eridan are staring at me. lik ewhat a fucking life man. and of course the mini dirk Mags made me is on my bedside with RD & AJ (& FS). all so so so beautiful! but i'd be just fine without all of it, i think. it just really changed me and is changign me. normally..changing doesnt ttake this long. and yet it feels like there's so much to do. i haven't even reread the entire thing yet. i havent even played hiveswap. i havent even considered the logistics of johnrezi. i havent even read. vast. error. like BRAH! there is so much. and at the same time i am Having Not done any of this, the community is so active! what a beautiful!!! fucking way to be!!!!

well anyways. my point was just sort of... oh wait i wasn't even talking about homestuck. ok fuck my life hang on

well Anyways. i feel pretty great right now. that's odd. its 3:45 AM and i am starting and finishing a seminar i am to present tomorrow. i've been losing it over this and various other assignments for the past month (as in, two thirds of dec and one third of jan). and yet. bird noises...listening to the same 10 songs consisting of various bird noises is sort of! saving me. they are so pleasant. i forget they aren't..like..real very easily. which is awesome, because there was a time that i couldn't really fathom that bird noises WERE real. hearing them outside of my window was very um...unreal.

so maybe the birds cured me? i didn't know they could do that!

Thursday 8 jan 26 : School

period one
at tims. whoops!

i'm not super into skipping at the moment ( i don't want my mother to sedate and kill me, and i could easily fail these classes ) but this is going well so far. it is 9:13 and i have 30 minutes. Mags stayed home and that was a sign. normally it would take weeks to do the bare minimum, or, anything, but thi sis. this is okay. this is fine. and strider be mine is playing. which reminded me of kindness and joy.

period two
beacuse it's almost the end of the semester, i'm interested in trying to have a proper routine. this is likee umm...i don't know. it's a big deal. i have never had a routine. a proper one of any sorts. it takes a lot for me to like, remember to...brush my teeth and grab a water bottle every day. not that i casually Don't brush my teeth. its just ADHD i think; i can't wake up early. i wake up at the absolute latest i can even when i desperately don't want to. it's really annoying. so i wanna try fixing it.

i guess some people wake up way before school starts. which makes sense...and probably gives you a lot more control over how you feel during the day.. i assume school would feel more like school and less like your entire life and being if you wake up before it, LOL. i have 0 spare time in the morning to do anything but get ready, so my mood is prettay unstable during the day. and if i don't do things the night before, there is literally no other time to do them, and i have to wait for the next school day to end. this is a very um...inefficient method.

so this is what i am planning. in the morning, i would like to be able to eat breakfast (first thing), shower, and tidy my room. that isn't umm. a lot i guess. but as its been made clear, for Me it is. i used to wake up like 4 hours early to play fortnite. its gotta be possible.

Wednesday 7 jan 26 : School

period two
ok 600p book in two nights umm ummm kako emote kako thinking emote thing she does. idk man.

Tuesday, 6 jan 26 : School

period five
yuppp its over. i came down here to sit with Mags but she isnt even HEREEE. whatever. not that important. i didnt wanna sit with her n-e-ways.

in more interesting news, i just decided today, finally, (as in, i've been thinking of it for a while, but as of today, i know for sure), i don't really care...if rentrycord sees my face! like, whooo..idk. who cares. my personal information is sooo. not important, lowk. this is a big deal because i used to care a whole whole whole lot about this sort of thing. but honestly, i don't think it matters. if someone was triyng, they could easily find my school. my full name may be a bit more niche, but i mean, what is anyone going to do with any of this. i guess maybe...find my shitty yearbook photos? its true, i'm pretty ugly in those, but thats that. i am hiding nothing and i have no history. so its chill. especially considering no one is trying to do any of that because no one really cares!

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Pub: 22 Feb 2022 10:21 UTC

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