hi
idk what to write about beloved diary </3 but ig this happened


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yeah.
thank you for thinking of me and remembering some of my lore and stuff but like ☹️ the two people she spoke of is one someone whos mostly moved on from me we sgill talk a bit but ueah ,,, and 2nd persin is someone that now hates me 💖 thanks for the suggestions mom!!
im tryyn not to be a bitch,,, duh she doesnt know sny of that or anything,! /g but i guess it still just made me feel shitty
i doubt im gonna be doing anything for my birthday , for a few years its felt less and less important and its not like anybody other than my family gaf ,,, im not saying i dont want to celebrate with my family, but i just sometimes fantasize the thought of having friends that remembered it and wanted to celebrate with me and shit so yay
last 2 or so birthdats were spent with people that hate me now and most of my friends today are too busy and just have a lot more friends or just lwk dont care asl
so why am i whining? didnt i put myself into this pit??
i guess it wont matter so ill be fine, its still just another day that ill get through nonetheless even if it sucks
hurts more too, because again rhe last 2 years were spent with friends and others and stuff, and EVERY year before that ive always genuinely hated my birthday or just when i was little my parents always fought on it and now im sensitive and crying just by thinking of it get a load of this guy
i wish someone highkey didnt want me to kms
again there is my family which of course means more than anything, but just someone else
but in a way this could be good. thinking of all the people that hate me, theyd probably feel satisfied seeing how i am today , so even if i hate this, at least i can know the other people whove been longing this
or im overreacting, who knows, maybe both
, and i just need to stop crying like a pathetic little dog "ohh id do anything for 'true love' iuhh no onr lob me whimper whimper sob" get up. stop being a fucking child and deal with your fucking life, either live or dont. and itd be stupid to try and do what i did a while ago because my mom is still paying off that fatass residential bill , and even then i can finally realize that none of my friends actually missed me.
i really do need to just deal with it. i have enough, why am i still begging for more? i have a family that cared, and wants to celebrate with me, and all that stuff. why do you care about a social life more than your family? i dont. i dont. but it still feels shitty. and look at this now im just talking to myself on rentry 😭
i guess in a way every entry is me talking to myself. its my own little journal diary thing, that i know is quite unlikely to be read by anyone else, but anything is possible (i would just be like "fuh nah im not readin allat" 😭)

what am i doing with my life? look around. you are nothing because everyone who loved you is gone. they only talk to you out of occasional pity.
again though i think this isnt read by anyone i am talking to MYSELF "you" is ME not you youre a diva

more flashbacks from the airport
i wish id go back but no i really really dont
at least at my new school, people talk to me a lot more and people give a shit about eachother so yeah they would notice if im gone
i already feel bad enough because i have a seizure every so often and scare the shit out of random people 😭 some people tell me they were crying and then i feel awful because no bro i love you so much im okay give me a hug bro we love and care about you bro
anyway i told another kid some seizure stories 😭 the construction one and the BLUE ONE 💀💀 and a little bit about the first one i had at this school, and the last one i had in the library. but just a TINY bit, mostly the construction & blue stories. it would be funny ASL for someone to for some reason be reading ts and not have a CLUE what is going on 😭😭
if you are.. why are you reading this bro... the oc lore cannot be that important slash SILLY......

well my fingies hurt because me no like typing on phone... goodnight bludsters and bludettes!!! 🌹🔋💖

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Pub: 15 Jan 2026 05:01 UTC

Edit: 15 Jan 2026 21:02 UTC