im going to kms if my last entries didnt save because i cant find them anywhere but i still need to check on my phone when i get it back oh my lord bro im done
ACTUALLY nothing to say today im just kind of idk disappointed,,,,ish? i cant think of any closer emotion word to describe it
so seizures yeah allat been getting worse n worse and weve thought about a service dog. but today when i tried to look into it a little more they are genuinely PAINFULLY expensive. and i dont know what to do. thats like, 8x the money we spent on the entire cruise. and we're still paying that hella expensive shit off too.
i mean we do have the money i guess. but we've spent so much. i dont want to spend even more its notlike we're MD surgeons in a mansion or shit we're just. normal people and i as a normal person do NOT think we can spend $40,000 on a dog.
idk ill be fine of course my family is really just the only people that give a damn which is understandable its just a seizure not a stroke or something
i mean i talked about ts
but my last one at school my friends were like "uhh MR _____! hes HAVING a SEIZURE 
????" and teach said NUN but "m.. wellllllll
. i GUESS we're gonna HAVE to call a code blue /
now......!! 

" teach was DONE 
they said he literally stared my seizing body on the floor down while finishing his sentence about andrew jackson because he was clearly in da FLOWW state before he audibly sighed.
n they were like "HELLO??? HES HAVING A SEIZURE??? MR BLANK 

" and apparently he then angrily took his time stepping over to the emergency button/lever thing idk 
"i have MORE TO DEAL WITH!!!!!" ahh flawg 

ts what i mean nobody at this school EVA locked in
still oh SO much better than my old one i genuinely love this public school ahh public school. at my old school it was like "we dont like school.. YOU KYS KYS KYS !!!!
rage emoji.." but here its just "we dont like school.. we all in ts together man :nod:" i value not being told to kill myself by the teachers <3 <3 and 80% of the students too but my old math teacher telling me to kill myself is what REALLY gobsmacked me atp
heh. guess i deserved it sighhh
idk why im even thinking about them but i KNOW if anyone from that school hypothetically read any of ts theyd b like "OMG. PERIOD AH PERIOD UHHH!!!! YOU GO MS MATH TEACHERR OUH WE LOVE YOUUU DIVA. PUT DEADNAME IN HER PLACE"
all i have to report for now because mymom is coming down and im not supposed to be on my computer OOGBDYE HOTPINK DIARY!!!!!!