4TH PRD
so my ex boyfriend completely stole the layout i made! yes, the one i spent DAYS working hard to make. the sally face one! removed all credits. i should have put some in there myself that would be harder to remove. he still just has it there. i mean. imagine making your boyfriend make you an entire FULL ASS css spacehey layout that took me actual DAYS just to perfect - having teeny tiny credits - and then removing all of them the zeptosecond you break up with them. no one's really said anything so i guess i'm not really too concerned about him taking credit - but idk, maybe he will, maybe he'll add back the "made by my wonderful bf" but replace it with "layout made by me!"
i mean, i know there's not much i can really do about it .. i could try to recreate it? i mean coding shit is HARD. i spent days on that i know i've said that like 5 times but still - it was EXTREMELY time consuming all because i wanted to make him happy.
ok change - she also goes by anna again from what i've told. i can't tell if she was ever actually transgender or she just idk. i don't know how to explain - lied? maybe im overreacting. my "bsf" (you know, that one,) said andy, and my better friend said anna (can you guess who i trust more?) again, the "bsf" is the one that is still following my ex and all that shit after 8 years. yesterday i talked about cutting her off - i kind of want to. i'd feel awful. for a while i've been thinking like, "then i'll have no one at school next year, no friends and no one will like me and waaa" but, i guess change is good. leaving that hellhole of a school turned out being one of the absolute best changes even my life, even though i HATED the news at first. right now, a lot of me still hates the idea of leaving her. will it be good for me? will i just have to find new better friends next year (even though i HATEEE socializing and allat)?
luckily: i think a few of my friends may be going to the same school? hopefully we'll get classes together so i won't be yapping and whining on my blog instead of talking to real people. 

so .. yeah. idk what to say or do. i'm probably going to update this later in the day a little bit? probably around my 8th period. i'm in 4th right now so i'm gonna add tht to the header ok done
yyyeah. my better friend that i've mentioned before is still helping but again i'm conflicted and not sure what to do. i've got plenty of time to think about it .. like, PLENTY. but also none. do i cut her off next year when we see eachother in person at school? or do i just do it now on discord. that feels like an awful thing to do, but at the same time shes "pretending to" support my ex who broke up with me on discord. as bad as i'd feel saying this - she doesn't know what it feels like. that's not her fault. but still. i'd just want at least the slightest bit of empathy.
oh - and my CRUISE IS COMIN UP!! hopefully thatll take my mind off of everything - now i wont have to be scared of irl drama i'll just be scared of BEING ON WATER FOR A WEEK??? its like 5x bigger thna the titanic or something what in the "unsinkable boat"
i think it'll be fun! oh yeah and there's like again a HEL ton of food and all you can eat buffets so i am bouta CLOG they toilets. is ts tmi? yes. is it my blog? hecks yus. :pleading:
alright .. ts it for now! oh and also i saw a pinteest post last night that was like "I HATE YOU IF YOU USE 'TS' TO MEAN THIS." like brah how about we like idk let mfs do what they want
? lowky dont even care about ts
i'm going to continue using a two letter "word" howevr i want
alright .. ok REALLY. bye for now !! if you're reading this i'm in love with you
hello from her friend with the advice (<- THATS MY FRIEND FEAUTING MY FRIND OK BYE BYE!!!)