no one noticed my absence. no one dmed me once.
i was planning to come here to say all the stuff i planned to work on and how i missed people or someshit but i dont see the point to that anymore
nobody missed me. nobody would have cared if i simply never came back who knows maybe id go overboard and drown or maybe id overdose and have a seizure and choke to death
it is my own fault for my ego to tell me to expect tons of dms and anything at all. i wasnt even gone for that long so i dont know where im going with this
maybe i should just quit social media altogether. maybe im overreacting. maybe it wouldnt matter. maybe ill never open discord or pinterest or my computer again.
maybe i wont do all the things i said i would. maybe i wont get back into art and come back to tiktok and maybe i wont make all the pinterest whisper ideas ive had and maybe i wont make that stupid "vlog" ive been so excited about and worked so hard for and maybe i won't finish coding my site and maybe i wont actually release anything. maybe.
maybe i just wont end up putting this on my blog main page at all so no one will see it or ill just delete this with time and forget about it.