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2/5/26
i fucking hate how the school hasn't even harmed itself for traumatizing me when i was younger bc if you expect me to hurt myself due to your standards and yet you don't want me to hurt myslef it makes no fucking sense and they're all like "talk to someone!" bitch i am done putting up this fake ass persona that i'm suddenly full of joy every time that i go to a "trusted adult" in the building and then they are recommending me things i've already did like can't you think properly for once and see nothing will go right or are you in your own paradise filled with sunshine and rainbows because apperantly i'm in your standards i just need to escape and then after that i can finally blow down the school i wasted time on and i can be the own king of my own dda without your bullshit opinions in the way like "we're the best school ever!" you just want me here because i perform like perfect to you well guess what? that's all a fucking lie and whoever is going to not let me talk properly about my trauma or is going to expect me to give a fuck about creating a dda where my trauma lies is so fucking stupid and i'm going to destroy their car(s) like my trauma from growing up implanted the idea that i should just hurt myself for the satisfaction for others or that i shouldn't be alive in the first place

1/20/26
all nighter playlist going crraaaazzzzyyy rn

ALL WEEK IM GOING TO TAKE SHOWERS EACH DAY AND IM GONNA CLEAN UP MY ROOM EVERYDAY AND IM GONNA GO TO GET GROCERIES WITH MY MOM TO USE THE COINSTAR MACHINE AND IM GONNA BRING MY WALLET WITH ME TO URBEX AND IM GONNA LIE TO MY PARENTS AND IM GONNA DESTROY AND DESTROY SOME MORE AND QUAI IS GONNA HELP ME BURN DOWN THE SCHOOL HEHEHEHEHE !!!!!!!!!!
BESIDES I HAD A DREAM WHERE I DRANK UNDERAGE SO MAYBE THAT COULD HAPPEN TOO !!!!!!!!
EITHERWAYY TIME TO DO ANYTHING CUZ I SUDDENLY CAN DO ANYYTTHHHIIIIINNNNGGGG !!!!!!!

1/14/26
boo bitches i'm at it again
tomorrow i'm gonna make tomato soup, ravioili, green beans, and a cynical knuckle sandwich with queer nerdodivergent sauce to serve at the meeting on froday
and then the cops will never catch my blowing up of the school cause they're stupid
after that i will start a toro travels the movie fansub progress doc and a cleaning journal and and a yt channel dedicated to plushies and a yt channel dedicated to oshis and yt channel dedicated to my obsession with burning stuff down
/!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1/1/26
they made fun of me not automatically being as fast as them to fetch a words definition out of my head
they got me angry to just make fun of me
the teachers treated this as if it was another daily show of "a person can't take it anymore" with all their popcorn and comfy cinema seats
am i not human enough??!!

12/24/25
"i'm going to clump all neurodivergent people into a small box called 'be proud when they commit suicide' bc i'm abliest! huzzah! i am following autism speaks rules for being a member of society! i can't wait to erase the fact that i am creating the problem and scapegoat it onto them! my family will be so honored to have me as a child'" FUCK YOU YOU LITTLE SHIT IM GONNA BEAT YOU IN THE BUS AND THEN THROW YOUR BODY OVER THE RIDGE

12/18/25
"it'll get better"
no it won't for an autistic who has a larger suicide rate have you even seen the outside world i need to put on a mask every day to just survive and you're out here thinking that it'll just suddenly become sunshine and rainbows like i'm not autistic and that i'm just a faker of it sybau it only gets better if you're neurotypical and not easily drained and there was a guy a while ago who shot a disabled person so stop giving me hope and stop being so stupid

12/18/25
plans for the rest of my life
get meeting scheduled crash out at meeting go to store to get arson tools (lie about your age if you have to) go to burn down the school (destroy the 1st match box by throwing it in the fire) run away from the cops (if they ever catch up bite them) quickly book a helicopter to travel to do arson from the skies burn down the dentistry burn down a few houses of people you hate go bowling chug soda leave soda remains in lakes and hills steal some cars and destroy them throw a dance party at your house go to a parking lot and sing your lungs out vandalize houses go to the store to get energy drinks, alcohol, and soda if the people you hate haven’t died yet, mix the energy drinks, alcohol, and soda into a gatorade bottle and break into their house to deliver 50 of them spend all of your money make a ramune gun by hot glueing ramune bottles and treat it like a real gun if the people you hate are still alive abuse them make a fake cigar make your whole fit about lying about yourself and pissing people off dye your hair break into a concert venue and go wild and crazy and talk to people make a band stop for a lot of food if someone asks you about your crimes blame it on an anime character or your family go home and finally sleep (maybe, or do it all again)

12/16/25
how stupid can people be to refer me to best buddies?! i want a meaningful advocacy based club and not a mass manufactured socializing one that prolly won't accept me cuz it's less obvious
they latch onto anything just to get me to shut up
and oh "we could figure out a plan to do it here!" you don't know how trauma impacts the soul
you can't keep me in the place i swore to leave years ago
you can't even take abliesm more seriously
and yet your idea of community is a lame assembly where people guess who's singing
what a pathetic joke of a school i have
and hiding it all behind a plastic filter is shitty nonsense
if people commit suicide it's not their problem, it's yours

12/14/25
i wish people were more up front about stuff, instead of using filters all the time. i wouldn’t have to wait for the painful reveal because i’d know already and life would be slightly better for someone who wants to burn down the school because of my disgust of what happened. not just elementary school, all of it.
but if i have to be more up front first for others, then that’s a waste of my time as everything at school is just a waste of time if you’re more at suicide risk than the general population

12/12/25
at this point i'm ready to give up on anyone based on the slightist minor inconvinence bc i've fucking had it with ya'll wish there was an irasutoya graphic of a man hanging to capture or choking himself how i feel about society

12/10/25
i'm honestly running out of time to apply to a new school and you saying i should just stay in the present doesn't really help and at this point it's gonna be i'm denied access by everyone since they don't see the pain and i can't even create a dda (disabilities & disorders allience) here because i just wouldn't go well as a leader and all ms. burelson cares about is numbers on a report card and i shouldn't be framed as a problem because this systems the real problem and i feel if i don't go i'll end up cutting myself again and it's stupid to not even try to go to school that could probably lessen the possible suicide rate for me and "oh we're the best school ever!" you never got a brain when you were born and it shows

12/5/25
survey question: why do you think your education is that important to your future? (in the previous question i put 1 star for how important it is)

answer:
it fucked me up and gave me trauma in the long term and i was bullied for being autistic in elementary school but then the principal was like "you're trapped here and your mental health problems don't matter stay in line with society until you've been suicidal multiple times!" hahhahhaahahaa i can't take it anymore fuck you and fuck giving money to a place that encourages me to hurt my ears to just survive the bus with someone i hate and fuck everyone who gave me trauma you are going to be thrown over the hill near my house and you're house is going to either be burnt down or will be destroyed by the upcoming comet on the 12th of december

survey question: what are your plans after high school?

answer:
either a) get outta this town, b) change my identity, or c)live my dream life and get everything from my wishlists

11/21/25
fuck everyone who doesn't agree with me on whether i should abuse anyone who i hate or burn their houses down

11/5/25
i don't know who i'm supposed to be anymore because all the time from 12 to 14 and a near half, i've been subject to drugs as in my development process of being from elem school to the end of freshman year never got really established bc i never treated correctly as a child and even before those times i can't trust that it was really still me when i was on meds bc now looking back at it i was forced into the role of suffering to be socially acceptable. even at the doctors office, there was this one doctor who said "it's a uid or birth control" or something like that and looking back on that i'm disgusted that i had a normal forced upon me that i only really followed because it was in line with everyone else and i was obsessed with fitting in as an elementary school bc i was being bullied and yet no one even bothered to check in on me. the psychologist didn't make even one appointment with me and as a youngster, i donated to autism speaks likely because my dad recommended that to me. well that money's wasted and now that i have proof that autism speaks is abliest, it's even more proof that adults just see serface value. i lied to the principal when i was younger that the reason that i was being so bad was that i wanted to dropout of school and she actually believed it, rather than catching onto my depression and actually helping me. and what she said to me afterwards about how i must be trapped in this school district until the end just made it worse. the bitches who are still abliest in this school district piss me off and what pisses me off even more is that teachers will just put them in the back of the class like it's just a few mistakes or whatever, if you are an adult you should know that teens do things purposely, not always on accident and i would much perfer if they were kicked out of the room. i don't know what life i was supposed to have, but in this one all i am to other people is just another animal to roadkill

11/3/25
FUCK YOU IF YOU THINK ITS FINE TO INVALIDATE NEURODIVERGENTS BASED ON THEIR APPEARENCE CAUSE 'oh you don't look autistic' LIKE NO SHIT BITCHY SHERLOCK YOU WERENT BORN LOOKING ABLIEST YOU THICK CRUSTY FOREHEAD MF YOU WERE BORN IN THE SEWERS AND THATS WHERE YOULL GO TO ROT AND DIE SOON IF YOU DONT FUCJING MATURE AND GET YO BITCH ASS UP BY 2027

10/14/25
fuck what my mom said about me not being able to burn down the school due to low impact the fuck does she know? nothing this is going to be a top tier mission with proper equipment to blend in at night not some idiotic attempt at daytime

10/12/25
FUCK EVERYONE AND FUCK ABLEISM IM BOUT TO BURN IT ALL DOWN
ARSON TIME 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

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Pub: 27 Oct 2025 08:43 UTC

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