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here i'm going to be explaining a few of my behaviours which are p common in relationships i have w/ people ::

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i'm "mean" ;; i use abrasive humor, but i never mean it srsly (( if u've misunderstood anything or feel as if i've genuinely insulted u, pls tell me so i can clear things up. ))

i overshare ;; it's rlly easy to get me talking, and sometimes it's abt rlly sensitive subjects, so pls tell me if ur uncomfortable or want me to stop, bc i don't register innuendos // hidden messages (( i need u to tell me blatantly. ))

messages ;; i don't often message first, it's hard for me to start conversations -- i normally start with smalltalk / asking how ur doing / what ur doing. i could also be having paranoia surrounding the relationship, so pls try and msg daily or tell me when ull msg less frequently so i can avoid it.

paranoia ;; as mentioned before, i can get paranoid rlly easily ; sometimes it turns into hours of crippling fear which can lead to impulsive decisions (( random unadding on socials, etc. )) if i tell u that i'm having paranoia or u see it on my status, pls be sensitive with me, it's xtremely easy for me to start spiraling. if i've unadded u due to the impulsivity, normally either a few hrs later or the next day, i'll add u again and explain what happened. pls don't be offended by this, and tell me if it puts u off.

i'm "annoyed" ;; sometimes i'll be energetic, and others i'll be bland -- please don't take it personally, sometimes i can be going thru rapid mood changes and one of the moods includes apathy / being bland. the reason is almost never bc of u, but u can ask if u feel it might be (( i'm not offended easily. ))

jealousy ;; at times, i can get pretty jealous. please ask if ur going to brag about success, friendships, or things you've created. this sounds egotistical, but it's something out of my control and something that i am working to changing in the future. please don't make fun of me for this.

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what do i mean by rapid moods ? it's not frequent but sometimes there'll be a few hrs when u can't rlly place if im happy or if i'm sad bc of how quickly my moods change, pls don't get frustrated w me as during this time i'm very sensitive to what a person says to me. the moods include :: hyperactivity, paranoia, frustration / anger, apathy / being bland.

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things u should avoid when speaking to me (( unless given permission )) :: pony town / ashes town, saying 'i love you', topic of fathers, topic of friendships / relationships, exercise.

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Pub: 27 Feb 2024 20:04 UTC
Edit: 10 Mar 2024 17:31 UTC
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