Wilbur–
So, not only do you try and make me feel bad about myself, you get all pissy when I make a playlist to cope, and/or when I attempt to escape the drama when it's over with by blocking you and Virus? Let's go over what you did, mate. Also, I told you to stop. I have the screenshots, and yet you continued talking to me.
You manipulated and guilt tripped me. You hurt me (not literal, what you did hurt and this made me hurt my own feelings due to intrusive thoughts,) and in the meantime, you were probably giggling about it with your child and whoever else may support you. Maybe Broken Prince, your online parent that you probably sent after me that one time? Saying something like, "hey, I cyberbullied this person! XDDDD". I'm 5 years younger than you. You say I'm trying to use my age as a get out of jail free card, but I'm not. Instead, I'm trying to use it as a, "Hey, I'm ___ years old! Please be more careful with me; I don't know as much as you!" Then, you act like I'm the villain when I apologized (pretty sure I apologized multiple times to you and Virus both,) realized that, with the help of my boyfriend, you were the one who really needed to apologize, not me. Sure, you say that you apologized, but you basically said "sorry >.<" and then listed reasons on why I was wrong.
You didn't really even bother to listen to me when you started this. You could've been like, "Hey, Phil. My daughter said that her name was in your status, and I'm unsure who it was actually referring to! Could you say why it's there?" – I'd say, "Oh, yeah! Sorry about that, I have a little that I'm taking care of as a caregiver! She shares the same name as your daughter, sorry!" – Then you could say, "Also, why did you replace my daughter?" – I'd say, "I didn't know I was, I'm an online parent and I just want to be there for everyone." Because that's the truth. You could've been nicer.
I don't care if you're feeling oh, so numb! or, oh so mad at me! If we're talking immature and/or selfish, then I'd point at you for that one. (Since you can bring up things that happened months ago, how about we bring up the time that you said that Virus didn't have BPD? Or was guilt tripping you? If you aren't the alter that did that, system responsibility, coming from someone with 2 system partners & who all agree on system responsibility.)
You harrassed me and tracked me down. You track me down, probably searching for servers that I sent you, and eventually found one. You DMed me on my alt account, making paragraphs and even a voice message to try and make me feel bad. Round of applause, you did for 1 night! Woo, good job! Clap clap! But like... who uses my trauma against me and then blocks me-? Like, I get blocking me once I can actually speak, because I read the entire thing (and didn't listen to the voice recording because I would actually shut down,) and was trying to respond, but nah, blocked! I don't understand the "I bet your dad never hit you, or threw you across the room!! rrr!!!" nonsense, because he did. Either way, oh well! More peace for me. I contacted my friend who is also the owner of the server you joined, thankfully she (and my other friend) will get it figured out.
Harrassment is a crime, and I have you on my DNI list for a reason. The drama could've been resolved what... 2? 3? However many weeks ago, but you decide to be all tough or whatever and be like "GRR PHIL!! I HATE YOU FOR BEING SELFISH AND IMMATURE!! GROW UP!! RRRRE!!!" well, not exactly like that, but do you get my point yet? Honestly, you probably don't. You don't like understanding me, I assume. Also, you keep bringing up the time that I chose Alexis over you, but I was in the illusion of "if I do this, everything will be okay!" because I thought of you as my son, yes, but I also thought of Alexis as my son in law, basically my son at that point because you cared about him, and that made me care about him too.
What I type in this rentry will be the most amount of attention that I'll give you (unless we interact again, which I doubt will happen,) because you're practically tugging on my leg, and sputtering words such as, "Immature!" "Grow up!" "Selfish!" and so on. I don't need to grow up, but you do. You have 5 more years of experience than I do, and that's enough time to learn about respect. Oh, or that tracking people down on servers is a bit... unnecessary? I dunno, I'm still surprised that you managed to do that. Also, how do you expect me to grow up when you:
- Won't let go of the drama.
- Keep messaging me and making petty insults.
- Keep tracking me down (for the record, you only did that once,) and shaming me (you did this every time we talked about the incident.)
- Try to justify your actions... but I have like, screenshots + this entire rentry on why you're just weird.
Like... man? Oh well.
P.S. Thanks for providing an example on what not to be like! Also, the fact that you track me down weeks after the drama is over just boosts my ego, kinda flattering that you keep coming back to me when you're like "Don't come crying to me!!" but that's exactly what you did to me lmao. Thank you, I'll go live in the exact same way that I did before now! God, this is funny, because I know that I'll always be stronger than you. I will not trust your lies. They are just words, and you are an adult. Never contact me again. You're possibly worse than Mumza/Toms, because at least he apologized and stopped the drama then and there.
12/31/2023: Actually... I decided to listen to a few seconds of your voicemail, since I figured it might just be pure nonsense. It was, but the first thing I heard was that I am the most immature person that you've ever met? Something along those lines? One, that's impressive, considering we both knew Toms, unless he didn't put us through the same stuff? Two, imagine how it feels for me. Actually, you don't give a shit about me, I'm smarter than that. What about how Virus felt the times you were a total dick to them? Look. I may be immature, but are you any better, making paragraphs and a VOICEMAIL to express your anger over someone 5-ish years younger than you and comparing them to a 10 year old? What the fuck.
I originally thought we were okay, that we could've talked it out when we had a normal fucking conversation a bit before. It is not me who caused this drama, and it is especially not me who continued it. I wanted peace and to be a father, not just of T, but of everyone. Is that immature to you? Is doing what I thought was right– No, I didn't even think when I made her my little, and you get ALL pissy. What is wrong with you? Genuinely. I am just... wow. I may be tired, maybe I'll delete this when I become more mature, or if I can figure out how to think like you. In my eyes, you harrassed me over one harmless action after your daughter told you. In your eyes, you think I am the most immature person to ever exist. What. Dude, I have been thinking of this every day, do you find pride in that? Joy? Excitement? Hell, you probably do. You didn't care if it hurt me when you typed those paragraphs, and so I will do the exact same. YOU continued the drama. YOU messaged my alt. YOU joined that server. YOU made a scene. I'm flipping the phrase around on you; you are so incredibly immature for your age, it's genuinely disgusting how you expect a child to grow up when you couldn't even stop texting me after I MESSAGED YOU TO STOP. If you don't believe me, check my Ghostbur account and your dms. You will see that I told you to stop. And what did you do? Not stop. So, I blocked you to end the drama.
Maybe I'll see it your way when I'm older, but I feel the exact same as I did months ago, and it's sad how you think or thought that you were in the right. Sure, I probably wasn't in the right either, is there really a right or wrong in this shit show? Most likely not. I was trying to exist, genuinely. Please do not talk to me ever again. There, you read it. Do not interact with me ever again unless you plan to actually apologize and stop snapping at me when I'm still healing from choosing between you and Virus. Just... do you think I find joy in the fact that I did what I did?? I already asked that question, but I'm just shocked still. I don't regret adopting Virus, I don't regret adopting you, but I do regret choosing anyone. Hell, I'm beginning to think that ghosting everyone and switching accounts would've been better, because I think about that entire conversation (and also the one that this rentry was made for,) almost daily. Grow up, please, for everyone's sake. Sure, it's just words, but I'm sick of the disrespect that I am constantly shown because I don't know how to speak up for myself or react in the 'right' ways during drama.
It's called the 'freeze' and 'fawn' response, and what happened when I talked to you? I was pissed and couldn't think. That's what I'm going to apologize for, because I know that I should've been a good father and been there for you, but I didn't. I acted irrationally, and I am sorry for the stress that I caused for you during that time, after thinking it over for the 20th time (underestimated by a lot.) But, what you did was absolutely not okay. I get it, you were mad and rage makes us do dumb shit, but seriously? Come on, even I know better than that.
P.S. If you send anyone after me on Discord, I'm blocking them ASAP. You have not done it yet, but you sound like someone who would, and I'm sick of having to talk to people like your online parent (no offense to them, they're wonderful /gen,) because you have a problem with me. Oh, and you've made me realize that second chances go no where. Thanks, bye.
– "Phil"