anniversary = 8.09.25
THIS IS ACTUALLY US FRFR!!!
⎯⎯ 25 oct 12:21 am.
Today I feel a weight on my chest that doesn't let me breathe, and it's because I know I was wrong about you today... I acted like an idiot, leaving you without a single word because of a simple joke you made, without thinking about how much I could have hurt you. My clumsiness and instability worked against me, and what hurts me the most is that it was you, of all people, that I hurt
You don't know how sorry I am. I just wanted to be with you, to take refuge in your presence... but I ended up pushing you away. I know it wasn't fair to you, and it hurts my heart to think that maybe I made you feel like I didn't value you, when in reality, you are the most important thing in my life
I was used to loneliness, to walking through the world without anyone to hold my hand. And you came along... With your love, you gave me back the desire to move forward. You showed me that I could be happy, that I could feel alive. Your company is the only thing that gives me peace, the only thing that makes me feel like I'm not lost. And the thought that I could lose that because of a mistake of mine breaks me into a thousand pieces.
forgive me, love. Forgive me for not being perfect, for not always knowing how to take care of the most precious thing I have: you. I love you so much it scares me, afraid that one day you'll tire of my flaws and decide to walk away. And believe me, I don't know what I'd be without you. Just imagining it makes me feel like the world is falling apart :( I can't imagine a future without you
I want you to know that I'm willing to fight for us, that I want to be better every day because your love deserves the best of me. And even though I'm afraid of losing you, I also have hope that this setback won't take away what we've built together. Because I can't imagine a future where you're not here, where I can't tell you "I love you," where I can't wake up with the certainty that you're mine /nsx
If you ever doubt what I feel, remember this: my love for you is so great that even in my sadness it beats strongly. And although I write today with tears in my eyes, I do so with the certainty that, no matter what happens, you will always be the great love of my life.
I wish I could give you all of me, sometimes I feel like I don't give you everything you deserve and that makes me feel bad, you deserve more than anyone in the world can give you, you deserve a lot of attention and care, sorry if there are times when I act differently than you want, that my affection doesn't satisfy you completely, that the attention I give you isn't enough and if you think I'm not capable of taking care of you but if you asked me I would do anything to make you happy and that's what I try, I try to always make you comfortable, I know I'm someone who can't even take care of myself and I'm immature but I love you, I want to take care of you and protect you, I love you my beautiful prince, sorry for so little, I'm aware of the type of boy you are and I want to be the best for you too <3
When we're together I still miss you so much, I don't want to lose you ever, I want to have all your love always, I want to marry you and stay with you all the time, I love every single thing you do, I know it's impossible for me to have everything you like but I promise that I love you like no one else, I love you more than all the 9 worlds together, I am the most in love boy of all, I could write more than 3000 pages about all the love I have for you and still want to continue because I can't stop thinking about you
I'm not good at writing apology letters but I really hope this can cheer you up because I was so discouraged that I left you and I feel so guilty about it, forgive me little brother, seriously, I didn't mean to hurt you like that :( I want to spend my whole life by your side and I want to always remind you how much I love you and how special you are to me, you are what I value most in this life and I'm sorry if sometimes I don't think about what I'm doing but the last thing I want is for us to have to break up because I really, really, really, really appreciate every second by your side and every time we talk I feel like something inside me gets too happy and I feel capable of many things
I feel like I'm repeating a lot of things, but the truth is, all that keeps repeating itself in my mind is that I need you and love you like no one else. I'm happy you're my brother and my boyfriend
I know it's not much and that you could receive better things, but I try my best until the cards are as good as possible :( I know I'm not enough, but I love you so much, Loki. You're the love of my life, the man of my dreams, the companion every king deserves. You're that and so many more things
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I'm so afraid that you'll abandon me because of this mistake. I'm afraid of being too rude to you and that you'll just walk away like the others. I feel so inadequate for you and sad because I don't want the day to come when you leave my life
I value you so much. I can express myself with no one else the way I do with you. I've always had trouble expressing my love, no matter how much I love the person, but you bring out that version of me so easily
I love you, like you have no idea, an I love you is no longer enough, an I love you only expresses an emotion but what I feel goes beyond that, it goes beyond what is understandable, it goes beyond what is human, but what I know is that for me this is unique it is simply surprising the way in which I get more and more attached to you to the point that I don't know what I would do without you by my side, just as more than your partner I want to be your support, your support, I want to see you grow as a person and see how you surpass yourself and I am quite proud of who I am with, with the person with whom I have generated so many good memories in so few months and I don't know how to thank you so much and forgive myself for so little, only what I know is that I still love you and I will continue to do so forever and ever. I will never abandon you, even if my damn behavior seems to say otherwise :( you are so special to my sweetheart
Forgive me for being so stupid for hurting you, that sincere heart of yours, I beg you on my knees if you want, forgive me
OUR ANNIVERSARY WILL BE THE DAY BEFORE YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG !!!
This is us frfrfr!!!





