˙ ୨୧ ‿◞ welcome (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ . ⁀ ੭ꠥ helloo , this is a lovemail for all of my closest friends and people that have spent time with me throughout my time online

i believe everyone listed, and even the people not added (most likely because it slipped my mind, or i havent gotten to them yet...sorry!) deserve to be shown appreciation and love, and i want to be someone who does it.

for you all: thank you to everyone ♥ youve all been so kind to me, have been there for me when i needed someone, and have been some of the best people ive had in my life. even if we talk frequently, became distant, or dont even talk anymore, youve all had a special impact in my life that no one else will be able to replace.
i hope in this lovemail ill be able to express how loved you all are by me (urs truly heh.) youre all so amazing and each hold a special piece of my heart

if you dont see your name && would like to be added: please PLEASE message me! i will add you as soon as i can (⁠ʃ⁠ƪ⁠＾⁠3⁠＾)

project started on 4.1.26
reworking since 4.4.26: heavy wip.
project on heavy hiatus right now ♥

lovemail: to rina

(written: 4.1.26 , rewritten: 4.5.26) ೀ  my big brother ♡⃘ ₊ ok lets ignore how ur graphic is different there wasnt a sibling version anywhere so i settled on making my own heart graphic.

my brother of 3 years and a friend whos been with me through better and worse. we've been through so much together; from shitty online families to shitty friend groups, and so much more, but we made it out of those situations together and (mostly) sane. and even then, we still made the hard times so fun by being together.

ill never forget those times we played on call, or those stupid asmr videos we'd laugh at together. all those little moments will forever be cherished and i don't think ill ever forget how much fun i used to have with you. even conversations with you are fun, and i love all the time we spend together, even though its not so much anymore.

all my past experiences with people ive met have led you to be wary of any new friends i get, and i know i say this alot (and that you'll do it anyway), but don't worry too much about me. i have better people now in my life, and because of you, i was able to learn to have more self-respect and let go of bad people: something i was insanely terrible at years ago. thank you for being there to show me my worth, and for saving me from myself time and time again.

without you, i wouldnt have known so many things about myself, and i know you know exactly what im talking about. youve done so much for me and i really cannot thank you enough for it. youve helped me through so many draining situations, and im sorry i did so much to affect you as well. you deserved better than that.

im not a huge fan of online families anymore, but you are the exception. theres no one else that could ever take your role as my brother, and you're the best one i could ever ask for.

i know that nowadays we don't really talk much and we've gone our separate ways, but i hope you're doing well. im glad you still go out of your way to reach out whenever you miss me, and i hope you know i miss you just as much. no matter how distant we get, you'll always be my big brother, and i love you.

lovemail: to naran

(written: 4.1.26 , rewritten: 4.5.26) ೀ   jia ᵒʳ naran ♡⃘ ₊ what would a lovemail be if i didn't include my longest known online friend on it? probably incomplete because there's not a single universe where i wouldn't include you in one.

can you believe it? youve basically watched me grow up, its actually insane. we met when i was 12 and this year im turning 17, and youve been there for me through it all. nowadays we dont see each other much, i see you in cosmos server (hi cosmo special mention ur so cool) sometimes and i get so happy knowing you're doing well.

youve taught me so much about my disorders and how to take care of myself. you're someone i really look up to and i cherish all the small moments we shared together, and all the time we spent together back then, even if i can't remember most of it.

im happy that we became friends, and im sorry you had to deal with me so often when i was dating scott, i know you say you didn't mind but it was like soooo frequent that i would hide away from him just to be with you because i was scared, and i wish the earlier years of our friendship couldve happened with better happier circumstances instead of it just being you taking care of a frightened child

nowadays when you see me, you tell me youve seen how much ive grown and changed since then, and im glad you noticed it. im still healing from everything and i still have my issues to fix, but i hope one day youll be able to see me when im finally perfectly okay. you're the person id like to see me when im fully recovered, because youve been helping me recover since day one. i love you so much, thank you for everything youve done for me and i miss you so so much

i look forward to hanging out with you again ♥

lovemail: 2 knives

(written: 4.1.26 , rewritten: 4.5.26) ೀ   my best friend ♡⃘ ₊ ive finally gotten to you. ive been dying to get to this part and rewrite it honestly. i read your lovemail to me, and seeing it made me feel braver to talk about my feelings towards you, so ill write it here and i know you'll see it. and yeah, ill be sure to respond to some of the things you said, im sure youd like that. everything you said in your mail is so sweet, i love you for that and i appreciate every single word ♥ youre amazing dude

my goodness, there is just SO much i could say about you. youre one of my bestest friends ever, and i never thought id click with someone so fast, but i did, and im glad it was with you. these past few 5-6 (7 😹😹) months with you have been absolutely delightful, and im forever grateful that a simple little interaction on ponytown brought us together like this. id consider you a queerplatonic partner, but thats definitely something we'd have to discuss and figure out together, and id love to do so sometime. im just as confused as you are, im sure, but despite that, i know for sure that no matter what our relationship is, im happy that i have you in my life. you're someone very dear and very special to me and i hope that (despite my initial awkwardness) i can show you how much you mean to me with this mail.

i know sometimes you worry about your distance or mood swings and how it may affect me; i understand that feeling completely ive been worrying about the same things lately, considering ive been down for the last few weeks and distancing myself from you (super sorry for that by the way ghh i hope i can make it up to you). i hope you know i dont mind it at all, im sure i say it alot as well. im perfectly okay with waiting for you to feel better, and im okay with being there for you when you need me to be as well. youve been equally patient with me, and i cant thank you enough for it. i promise im not hurt by your behavior, and if i have been then i forgive you. im not the kind of person to hold grudges over this sort of thing, since everyone has their low moments sometimes and that's okay!! please don't worry too much about it.

umm ive been doing a little better! im taking your advice and trying to let other people help with my problems and its been working out. writing has been helping a bit too. im hopeful to get to spend more time with you again without getting anxious or tired quickly, because i really really do love hanging out with you. its always fun even if it doesn't last long, and i cherish every moment. someday i hope ill feel better enough to follow through with our little platonic date plans we made months ago. yeaah i never forgot them btw,,, sorry we never got to do them sooner but i promise someday we'll do them. that includes actually playing phighting with you btw i feel like a larpy whenever i remember ive never actually played the game long enough

im still a little worried about being overly affectionate with you but i hope you know i think about you quite often throughout the day. i hope someday i wont be so nervous around you um NOT IN A BAD WAY you just make me really giddy in a way and expressing positive emotions for someone has always been a struggle. but ido wanna b more affectionate withyou.ok

im soooooo sososoo glad you liked the art i made for you, and im sure itll be one of many to come because i do enjoy making things for people i care about,,,and guess what i care about YOU alot!! also im glad you find my little habits endearing umm i was lwk kinda embarrassed about them, but i dont feel judged around you. i feel really comfortable talking with you actually. ive started to care less about my stuttering and stuff like that rrrr thank you for being so kind to me and making me feel better about myself

i hope this expresses everything way better than the first lovemail because that was SO rushed before bruh. boooo mateo lock in bro

also HI BOOMBOX!!! wow whos this cool guy thinking monkey image. so excited 2 talk with u again bro

IM NOT PISS7 BRO YOURE A LITERAL CHUDNUGGET ooohhh see my pinky see my thumb see my fist you better run.

slow updates, new lovemails when i have the time

some finished ones will continue to be updated occasionally, i have alot of love to show to some of you