why do i irl furina, clorinde, chi, chuuya and why i'll have a stroke if someone else
says that they irl them too cause these idiots super important to me and taking all
their traits as characters and combining them together you basically understand who
i am as a person .


furina : did you play the genshin fontaine archon quest ?? yeah ?? yeah i have a very fucked sense of self esteem because uhhh my parents are not the most nuturing people although i understand that they love me but uhhh ...... i also struggle with masking and playing / performing a certain persona when around people , but its a lot less prevalent now that i have new friends ... aha ..but outwide personality wise i think i can be prone to theatrics , i sing in the shower and play act for fun , and i can be a loud person without meaning to , with exaggerated actions and behaviours . also yeah i am not exactly very "spontaneous" and need coaxing to have my plans for the day being thrown off , such as to skip on finishing a show to hang with my friends , but i also know that my friends are people i care for extremely deeply in my life , and the fun afterwards is always something i love . i'm always up for a new activity but if i have plans made in my head , i usually don't like having to change them . and i also love to hear tea and gossip although i don't go around looking for it ... wife can vouch that i go into her dms and talk about people i don't like + people i have sneaking suspicions over ... my inner world is vast and complex i'm picking out a lot of these from the extremely extensive genshin kin quiz but yeah i think their judgement of me as furina is extremely on point ... when i opened up to my old friends and started lamenting more often , they started to leave me , although i was being more open and vulnerable , maybe they realised i couldn't be a rock forever , and i made friends with fyn and grew closer to her through crying with her so she's seen me way more fucked up than other people did and honestly thank god ... and yeah i feel many things very deeply and very intensely , and don't know how to express my feelings in a "mature" way , this probably also explains why i regress , because my emotions are very childlike and i giggle and laugh when happy and tend to cry when i'm angry , and cry waterworks when i'm sad , i don't think i actually emotionally matured much as thats kinda an issue like i think i have some form of stunted emotional development .. and these are all easier and make me feel less awkward when i think like a child mentally when doing so ... i also hate being criticised cause it makes me worry about what i'm doing and my relationship with the person , i tread on eggshells constantly and can sometimes worry about my relationship with someone when i make mistakes ... this all stems from insecurity probably
definitely ...

clorinde : yeah i am a nerd , a huge huge dork , i like deep diving into game mechanics and talking about music theory sometimes and yapping about food and talking about niche things . i try to appear neutral and not show my emotions , ESPECIALLY when i'm sad / i fuck up , but i wear my heart on my sleeve and am extremely easy to read , so i ( according to my friends ) have a kicked puppy expression when i mess up and feel really bad about it and this is canonically a very clorinde thing to do , i am also absolutely enamoured by my blonde best friend who i am in a gay adjacent relationship with ... i love so deeply and so quietly that it feels embarassing when i do it, i love many things in my life and i love being someone who cares so much but its also sooo embarassing to care so much about it ...

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Pub: 11 Dec 2024 09:34 UTC

Edit: 28 Sep 2025 12:03 UTC

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