I LOVE MY FRIENDS CHARLIE!!
This isn't fully public since it's not linked everywhere, but if you've found this and you think its stupid then UMM look away omfg #embarrassing. I love my friend group okay

Connor
"For all the things my eyes have seen, the best by far is you"
Obviously I've written a lot more in dms, but I still want to write something completely new again for you. It's almost December, and it marks an anniversary of what I can confidently say has been the most stable and loving relationship I've been in. You support me in the ways that count, and I'm so so grateful you came into my life when you did. I know we started drifting apart, but vcing with me that night in june (WHAT IN THE HEATWAVES
) genuinely changed my life. You're there to lift me up when I'm demotivated or depressive, and bring me back down to earth when I get irrational. Honestly the only thing better is knowing I can support you just as much as you support me. You've been a part of my life for over two years now, which is fucking crazy LIKE WHAT. Plus the fact that we had this big of a butterfly effect all because of that perfectheart yumeshipper holy shit (Sorry Ade.) (No I'm not.) (Can't wait to see ur bitchass in two weeks xx) IT'S ACTUALLY INSANE. The Ari pipeline of my friend in 2018 asking me if I want to try Flood Escape 2 with him, getting mad into the game and playing a fuckton of FE2CM maps, (ironically even playing one you worked on??? WHAT) moving onto Tower of Hell in summer 2020, finding out about JToH through the ToH/JToH drama, and the rest was history atp. I'm so happy I've gotten to meet so many of your friends & that you involve me in your circles. I'm NOT happy that you KEEP GETTING ME INTO YOUR FUCKASS ANIMES THOUGH. WHAT THE HELL IS A STEIN'S GATE. WHAT THE HELL EVEN IS AN OKABE. (honest to god we're like okabe and kurisu and it makes me violently ill) Seriously though, you always listen to the things I love in return and it's fucking amazing. I honest to god love you to the edge of the visible universe and back, because you did Not have to stream me family guy & persona 4 for MULTIPLE hours while I died with a 103 degree fever. In complete honesty I just feel lucky to wake up knowing you're the person that changed my view on relationships, and myself along with it. Corny ideology incoming, but I really did think there was something inherently wrong with me that I needed to fix. In the time I've gotten close to (and started dating) you, I finally understood that there's nothing wrong with me, and that it's only because I don't click properly with the people around me. I didn't understand that for a long time, but it was you reassuring me while also calling me out on my spiraling that changed my perception that much. I feel so much healthier now that I've grown alongside you, (although I didn't listen to you about the bpd 16yos WHICH LIKE. I WAS NAIVE OKAY. YOU CAN CALL ME AN IDIOT YOU HAVE MY BLESSING.) and learning new things about myself and relationships in general has been such a journey. I wouldn't trade what I've built with you and for myself for anything in the world. I sometimes wonder what it'd be like if we met when we were in our early teens, but honestly I'm glad I met you when I did. I am so so proud of the man you are and how you've handled all the bullshit life's gone and thrown at you at mach ni- . . wait. say that again. ALSO WAIT THAT TOO. YOUR OCS??? YOUR OCS WITH MY OCS??? Your oc storylines are fucking incredible so thank you for letting me be a part in your life like that??? It's been such a blast getting to write our characters together and lowk mashing them together like barbie dolls. M9 AND CARMEN HAVE MY HEART FOREVER. Just generally speaking, thank you for helping to guide (and even shove my bitchass) in the right direction when I need it. You're the judge when I can't understand or decide what to do, the jury when I need someone to listen to me, and the executioner when I always tend to forgive and need someone to hold me back. I love you so much it's not even funny, and I could say it forever. As of now we're 2 weeks out from meeting, and I can't wait to chug every fucking can of solo you have because you've hyped it up for at LEAST 7 months. You're the citrus to my berries, the quantum physics to my astrophysics. You complete me in a way where I know I can function and work on my own, but when we're together we make something incredible. Being with you is like finally completing the bigger picture, and I can't wait to literally fall asleep on top of you after this fuckass 20h flight. I love you Connor, thank you for letting it be me.


Konny & Mikell
"I fell in love- 'cause no-one saw me the way you did, and no-one's seen me that way since"
Jesus christ where do I even START. I met you guys over three years ago, and I've never regretted spending a single moment with you. We've been through hell together, and we've laughed, fought, cried, and grown alongside one another the whole way through. The actual honor I've felt that you two welcomed me into such a close and important role in your lives has been SO emotional for me LIKE WHAAAT. Every single good thing that comes to you two, I want you to know from the bottom of my heart that you deserve it. You've both been through so much, and you deserve nothing but the best in life. 3 years is a long timeframe to know people, and because of that I've had the privilege of watching you both grow up and into who you are today. Not once have I ever wished we didn't speak after TUSOC died, because you've taught me so much about self-love and healing that I have no regrets. Literally snatched your asses up in the server divorce and we've never parted since. These have been some of the greatest years of my life, especially this past year now that we've gotten even closer. 12.03.24 was a life-changing moment for me, because it showed me I can still love people outside of romance, and that soulmates are a real thing. You guys know me better than I know myself, and I'm so goddamn thankful for that. You always know just what to say and how to help when I'm feeling down, and just what to say to send me reeling and falling off the bed laughing when I'm having a good time. In specific, Konny- you've shown me what forgiveness and forgiving people actually means, and that I don't owe that to anyone. You get me on a deeper level when it comes to past relationships and the love they held, so it's always been something I've been so grateful for that you can support me empathetically and not sympathetically. You've taught me so much about self-worth and loving yourself first, and that the happiness of others isn't a responsibility I need to force myself to carry. Spending late nights on the phone with you playing EToH, watching the postal movie, playing silly ass gartic phones and laughing myself into cardiac arrest; all of it has been absolutely pivotal in my life. You know your beliefs and why you hold them so closely, and you don't let go of them no matter what. I honestly admire that about you to the ends of the earth, and it helped me develop a sense of righteousness and resolve when it comes to relationships. Every step I've taken on the path I've formed has been with you by my side. You've seen Jace, you've seen James, you've seen Callum, you've seen every major player in my life. You know me inside and out and I take your advice to heart every single time. I'm so fucking proud of where you are now, and cornball alert here; every single time you send a picture or talk about life in university it makes me so emotional for you. You've put so much time and effort into being where you're at now, and you honest to god have earned this three times over. I'm so happy you have a stable group of irls that support you, and that you've finally found a living space where you can be safe and happy being yourself. I love you to death and I can't stress it enough that I'm so happy you chose me to talk to. Mikell, you've been nothing but a good influence on my own drive as a person. You've helped me find motivation when I need it, and you've always (whether directly or inadvertently) helped me to keep moving forwards. That's honestly the motto I live by every single day, and it's something I learned from you. No matter how much life tries to drag you down with things, so long as you keep moving forwards, you're beating it. You've always been an inspiration to me, both as a 16yo when I adored your art and demeanor, to a now 20yo watching you always put one foot in front of the other. I still have the time we listened to Spun on release and we were genuinely music fujoing (enby and a cis man by the way.) out over it engrained as a core memory. Goofing around and talking about our ocs and interests has been one of the best bonding experiences I could ever ask for, and you always build me up and motivate me to keep trying. While it used to be for art and oc storytelling, it's now molded me into who I am in every corner of my life. You care so deeply about those close to you, and you're always there to pick them up and keep walking with them. Growing up with you has been incredible, and for the times I slowed down and even fell during the race, I owe you everything. In 2023 when I wholeheartedly just couldn't keep going, you stopped running, and came back to give me water and told me to get back up. (metaphorically, that is). Thank you for being a light in a pitch black place, and thank you to the both of you for being a consistent comfort and guiding support in my life. In 2024 when all I had in terms of people I truly loved and trusted were the two of you, it showed me that quality will ALWAYS beat quantity. Thank you for watching movies, playing games, drawing, calling, and being there with me. More importantly though, thank you for being the best support system I could ever ask for, because you directly contributed to the person I am now. I love you guys times INFINITY (NO REVERSES OR +1s) and I'm so happy I've gotten to love and be loved with you for this long.


Mel
"Dance like nobody's watching you Randy, and love like you've never been hurt"
bleh

Ade
"A drag path, etched into the surface; as evidence I left there on purpose"
bleh


Alice
"We fell in love in October, that's why I love fall"
bleh


Ryan
"My November was summer 2015; when I fell In love with someone who fucked my whole world up, showed me life through a different lens."
bleh

Lucy
"If we know the way we're gonna die, through everything else we will survive!"
bleh

Luckey
bleh

Kenny
bleh

Laser
bleh

Zach
bleh

Jam/Avery
bleh