Me if I was homelessMe if I was an umaMe if I was gayMe if I was straight Oliver's Awesome Ranting Rentry One of my many ranting places.... this one is for when I'm on my computer !! Or something... many-a things will be discussed here !! I have a chronic problem of saying "Bro" and "Dude" like they're periods and comas—not sorry


First Entry⠀⠀⠀09.23.25
I'm rewatching Total Drama right now (TDI) and GOSH dude they needa get me on that show I would've cleared EVERYONE (lie) I like to think that with all my years of pathological lying (and being a follower) that I could live at least like 3 episodes.

I STILL FEEL BAD FOR TRENT !!! THAT WAS MY GOAT DUDE AND I MISS HIM BADLY. Trent was my all-time favorite in S1! Probably because he's got that Loser, Midwest emo, Big brother core energy to him. Every time I rewatch S1 I get violent flashbacks to S2 Trent and have to sit down and cry

I do believe that Trent deserves all the love in the world and that's why he should be kissed by the following people: Duncan, Duncan, Duncan again, Duncan, Gwen, Duncan

Please don't even get me started on what they took away from me with GwEnt ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY GUU GWENT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ENDGAME THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY TOGETHER AND NOW ALL I HAVE IS THAT STUPID RAREPAIR YAOI

Why do i even like DunTrent? Because who else am I gonna force to love Trent???? LOL

I will get shot and skewered if I say that Chris is me fr but he truly is !!! That's me at my trope-y-est and what I would do with my life if I were a 30-something year old man who was mentally insane and a show host that kept getting his ideas greenlit!

Actually... The only thing TRULY holding me back from this is the fact I'm not 30-something yet... Perhaps in 5 or so years look out for a certain Oliver [LASTNAME] running a reality tvshow

Whateever⠀⠀⠀10.2.25 I have come to the realization that I hate a lot of characters that are the most like me in their media. Two examples of this are Eunyung and Alhaitham BUT my reason for hating these two are veryyy different

I hate Eunyung because it's like looking at myself from someone else's perspective and I can see just how silly and stupid I am. I hate Alhaitham because he's gay. Half joking !!! Alhaitham's fine I just really am against KaveTham because I hate gay(mlm) genshin ships

On that note I genuinely cannot stress how much I HATE mlm genshin ships HOLY HELL DUDE It's so ass that you got THE yaoi man to hate it'

I love Yaoi I literally consume every single Yaoi I come across I indulge in shitty yaoi because NO YAOI LEFT BEHIND !!! Until it's genshinslop

If you put a gun to my head and asked me to try and understand any mlm genshin ship or reread Sadistic Beauty Side Story A I would read that damn manhwa like it was the best thing I had ever read ever

Yaoi rec of the day: The Metalhead Next Door

Fuck Your Yaoi⠀⠀⠀10.21.25
Warning: Many sensitive and possibly triggering topics are mentioned in this entry and will not be censored

I just realized that some people may not know what I'm even talking about or why it even matters when I talk about Sadistic Beauty's yaoi story so here's my entry for that

I hate Sadistic Beauty NOT ONLY because it was bad but ALSO because I wanted to see so much more from it's story.

Now I think it's important for everyone to know that almost nothing stops me from reading yaoi no matter how uncomfortable I am I will keep going (these comments summarize my mentality)

I am also not gonna go back and read to fact check anything because I would rather DIE

With that out of the way I must now stress to you just how LINEAR reading this story was. It was like you were constantly in the rising and falling action of the story but never a climax. There were so many interesting things that could've been used more or expanded upon but that just never happens??

For example, Minho's drinking problem and Wookyung's attempt on Minho's life. Both of these are very interesting things that add something so intruiging and complex to their relationship yet I feel as though they both just got sweeped under the rug??

Uhhmmg I'm getting sleepy and spacing out so I'll finish this when I wake up But just know that this story's a waste of your time lolol No offense to anyone that likes it but I'll just tell it to ya straight man You like torture revenge porn and probably a lot more unsavory shit

Yaoi rec of the night: Not Sadistic Beauty

Bruh⠀⠀⠀11.26.25 My friends are in a polycule thing. That's not the point of this entry, I just needed to get that like out of my head.

Anyway. Being like internally Homophobic WHILE being like really queer and identifying as gay for majority of my life (and being a Hiroaki fan hi Hiroaki mention) is just so crazy to me. My main problem and really my ONLY problem is with Gay men. Everyone else is like fine I'm pretty sure I don't care like at all but for some reason Gay men just set me OFF

I think it's worth noting that I'm also like? Toxically masculine? I dunno there's actually a lot of stuff relating to men that I just have problems with/about 🤷 I catch myself thinking things like "That's gross" or "Be a man" and when I do I have to sigh and beat myself up because what does that even Mean ??? "Be a man" Okay dude 😭 that is the most VAUGE shit ever.

I understand where it comes from and like why I think like that right but I just can't get over how STUPID it all is and how I need to GENUINELY lock in !!! If a feminine man is going to make me uncomfortable what does that say about ME ??? I can't handle fucking makeup?? I can't handle just some guy ???? LAME DUDE SO LAME !!! I want THEM to "man up" ?? THAT IS INSANITY !!!

I'm just like trying to prove to myself how STUPID this shit is 😭 Like REALLY ??? Two men kissing really makes you THAT uncomfortable ??? DUDE YOU ARE A MAN WHO HAS ONLY EVER WANTED TO KISS OTHER MEN YOUR WHOLE LIFE ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW ??? It's just stupid. That's my point.

I also just wanted a silly and light hearted entry especially after the last one which I just could not finish because I kept sighing and shaking my head at the though of it

Yaoi rec of the day: Dear Gene

Good and Bad⠀⠀⠀11.28.25
As someone who used to have a mindset of constantly trying to quantify myself into a "Good" or "Bad" person I think I'm allowed to say that if you're constantly thinking like that you should probably shut up ? Especially if you make that your entire personality. lolol..,,.,

I think you can totally like look at someone else and view them like that, but yourself.?.??? You just get trapped in a loop or like start deluding yourself. You are not a "Good" or "Bad" person you are a person who is capable of good and bad things.

I like to think that this is very ? obvious ? but it's also something I took a while to like truly accept as the "truth" i guess..?.? I think what I'm saying is that I hate people who refuse to realize that they are a person and ultimately human with the complexities of a human 🤔

I dunno it's a whole thing you just have to grow out of I think. Which is funny because I am 15 writing this.

I get both sad and annoyed whenever I see some guy going "I'm a bad person and I know it" like?? okay?? lol??? have you ever tried fixing that? If you think you're too far gone to be fixed or to be "good" that's just entirely stupid I think. I can't really help anyone so I just have to hope that everyone who does think like that is able to stop? Try finding good people to hang around with because ? y'know. You are what you eat or something....

I get skeptical, hopeful, and annoyed at people who go "I am a good person". They never actually say that but like they might start listing stuff that sounds good on paper like it's a college application lolol. Like it does sound good and it does make me hope that person's perception of themself isn't skewered but at the same time more often than not they are probably being like super superficial with it or something

I'm not quite sure how I should word this but it's like okay are you a good person or are you just doing good things? And at the same time how should I know how much weight those good things hold? Maybe what I'm looking for and thinking of are exceptionally good people because truly I think everyone's default before anything is to be good. Does any of that make sense? I dunno I'll reread this all in a month or a few days and think some more

ADDING ON. This is typed a few moments after the previous stuff above. I think because we as humans are so driven by emotion it causes us to do "bad" things so that's like even more to why you should stop trying to categorize yourself into good and bad ykykyk???? It makes sense in my head just let it marinate and I may or may not come back

EVEN MORE ADDING ON. ULTIMATELY. I think you should do whatever you want forever!!! I don't actually care I just like having my little echo chamber here and talking to myself. It's whatever and just fun to see and think about me thinks. I think everyone is just a person and that's awesome !!!!

Even more than that !!! Perhaps no one is "Good" they are just "Nice". I was going to talk about how most things seem to just be pleasantries more than "doing good" but didnt really have the words to back that thought up til now.

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