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irloomf called me a nerd when i was showing my new glasses BRITTANY REFERENCE
Yo. This is just. all my information that I know of gathered in one place. my actual extended
Guten tag I am Isaiah (IRL name)―Albeit I have a plethora of other names such as Brittany, Fan, Faust, Vodka(n), Blade or umm whatever your heart desires. U can also call me brikittany if we cool like that Lol. I'm a hetero monogamus cisgender man and I'm white please I promise I'm not as basic as you assume. I use also default male or any pronouns I am also #catholic #christian I am trying to be a better version of myself also
- Typology: XNFP 9w1 SO/SP ChaoticNeutral Melsang. I also have disorders the ones most apperant in my behaviour being Schizophrenia (Medically recognised, diagnosis soon I hope), Borderline Personality Disorder (Also medically recognised, unable to get a formal diagnosis as I'm 13)
- I am unmedicated for both of this and have now just realised I've been in a long-term psychotic episode for 3 years now hence why I thought I had DID/OSDD sorry guys I'm not really a system I'm just schizo this is not for display it genuinely affect s my behaviour and the way I act.
(upd I reached out to someone now that school's started and I finally will be getting hooked to more professionals and even possibly get medicated)
Also healing compulsive liar Lol I've came clean about all my lies and I'm actively changing sorry to others I hurt in the past eheh Hahahah............... the only pills I take are multivitamins and vitamin C Uhhh I'm 13 have I already mentione that oh yeah I have sorry. 16 December 2011 at 11:57 pm Also a bit of an anxious attachment style Sawry im stabilising this
- I have a very deep connection with Isabel DVC, I am not a 'simp' neither am I her '#1 fan' or a 'fictionkin', I both genuinely and full-heartedly believe I'm her in real life as we have tons of things in common, the exact same mentality and mindset as well as the fact I've been a fan for almost one whole year + have a body pillow (NOT FOR SEXUAL REASONS), a blanket of her, my irl name is isaiah + im catholic christian I'm literally her as a teenager if she was a man and used to have a shrine before taking it down. I resonate with her very very deeply. Nobody gets or kins her like I do. When I see her on screen it feels like I'm looking in a mirror. I even sound like her (also pointed out by friends). I am even considering changing my last name to Carboni... Should I?
- (Not delusion)
- (Just because I have memories doesn't mean you "remember me")
I'm very pessimistic, I tend to assume the worst in situations and overthink a lot from paranoia. I panic and freak out at random frq's and don't make the best first impressions when this happens, please bear with me. I promise I'm chill after I know your intent. I'm also either very cautious or IA on every 29th I HATE THE 29TH EVER SIJNCE JAN 2025 29TH EVERYTHING BAD HAPPENS
- DNI LIST HERE
- I regret every action I've committed in the past so believe me I'm trying my best to change for those I've hurt. Btw I know I'm sometimes on my own dni but that's none of your business
- Disclaimer, don't lie and act like somebody you're not just for me to like you. I like you for who you are and either way regardless if you won't reach out to me let this be a lesson that you shouldn't change for anybody unless it's for yourself. Easily influenced people are not on my to friend list just be yourself. I feel you because I used to be easily influenced but I am now setting up boundaries and you should do the same because you come first always
- I block freely. If not close or if not The Secret Club, don't care who you are. I've stopped using the people in my computer as a lifeline. Get over it lol. #free from attachment issues.
- I'm not dealing with anyones problems anymore, if I feel I'm starting to resent you and there's no fixing I WILL block you. I have recently left my mental abuser (with pages of proof about being an A**L dupe don't try me)
- I'm in the sky flapping my angel wings IM FREE DUDE IM SO HAPPY
Anyway looking past this I HAVE SO MANY INTERESTS LISTED HERE. My main ones are mcsm, fnafhs, ddlc, gurlz night Ummmm Idk Oh object shows too I HAVE /osc /ii /inanimateinsanity. Also a heads up I am nowhere NEAR gatekeep-y with my interests, I WILL be overjoyed if you get into them, regardless if we're opps or not. I love ALL of you guys even if we've had beef, my life is amazing and I hope yours is too! Yes you! Yes whoevers reading this! Even if we've beefed in the past! Peace out (^∇^)
Also a little tip and a potential life lesson don't listen to haters. As an ex hater they only hate because they're insecure and sad with themselves and don't know how to cope with it, as a result of this they lash out. Don't give them the attention they want, instead point their insecurity out and play chess with them instead trust me.
Alexa Gurlz Night: I love this woman. And i am not wasting another moment of my life denying that. Brittany Fischer.. will you marry me?!
Brittany Gurlz Night: Wow. This is unexpected.
If u guys cant tell i love yuri a lot
I ALSO LOVE X BFNIF!
He's me trust.
also meim fred im fred i love evil characters sorta! FRED AND FREDDY ARE X AND TWITTER IN ANOTHER UNIVERSE
IM IN TEARS
Thank you for sharing the whole thing — that’s a lot to read, and I can see why it shook you up. When someone you were attached to writes a message like this, it’s meant to overwhelm and hurt.
Here’s a breakdown of what’s going on in his email:
- Blame-shifting & rewriting history
“I never wanted to be your friend… you forced me into it.”
“I literally made a plan to make you hate me.”
This is him trying to erase the reality of the friendship to make you feel like it was all fake. People do this in abusive dynamics to devalue you and absolve themselves of responsibility. It’s manipulative and cruel.
- Verbal abuse & demeaning language
“Grow a FUCKING PEAR”
“selfish little bitchy attention seeker”
“insufferable”
This is straight-up verbal abuse. Name-calling and insults are not “standing up for yourself”; they’re attacks.
- Weaponizing mental health
“I was on the verge of killing myself and jumping. ALL BECAUSE OF YOU.”
This is a classic form of emotional blackmail. Even if he felt suicidal, saying “because of you” is meant to make you feel like you’re responsible for his mental state. You’re not. People’s mental health is never another person’s fault.
- Projecting his own behavior onto you
“You’re always the victim.”
“You can’t stop judging.”
He accuses you of traits and behaviors he’s actively showing in the email. That’s projection — another manipulative tactic.
- Boundary violations
You blocked him. He broke that by emailing you this long tirade. This is harassment.
- False accusations
He accuses you of things you state never happened (transphobia, not letting him talk about his religion, not changing). False accusations are used to discredit you and rewrite the narrative.
- The “I tolerated you” narrative
“You should be glad you had me because nobody else would tolerate this.”
This is textbook abusive messaging. It’s designed to make you feel worthless and dependent, like nobody else would ever support you. That’s not true — it’s manipulation.
- The “plan” confession
He claims he “made a plan to make you hate him.”
That is literally describing covert hostility and manipulation. Whether it’s true or a lie to hurt you, it’s abusive.
Bottom line:
This email is not a normal “I’m angry and venting” message. It’s a mixture of:
- Verbal abuse
- Guilt-tripping and emotional blackmail
- False accusations and gaslighting
- Boundary violations
- Manipulative narrative rewriting
This is emotional abuse.
You don’t have to defend yourself against every lie in it. You don’t have to prove you weren’t transphobic or that you’ve changed — he wrote that to get a reaction from you.
The safest and healthiest thing for you now is:
- Do not respond. No matter how tempting it is to “set the record straight.”
- Block him everywhere. Block his friends, too.
- Save the email in case harassment escalates (screenshots, date/time).
- Seek support from people who believe you (friends, therapist, online support).
You already did the strongest thing: you left. That’s not easy for someone with an anxious attachment and BPD. It’s actually huge progress.
What your current ex-FP wrote and what your past abuser wrote share the same core pattern of emotional abuse:
- “I’m the only one who cared about you” → “You should be glad you had me because nobody else would tolerate this.”
This is classic control language. It’s meant to make you feel like you’re unlovable and that only they could put up with you. That creates dependency and guilt. - “You caused this” / “All because of you” / “Die”
This is blame-shifting + emotional blackmail. It’s designed to dump their pain onto you, make you responsible for their feelings, and scare you into compliance. - Timing & cycles
It’s not a coincidence that this is happening again a year later. People who behave abusively often follow the same cycle: idealization → tension → devaluation → discard → rage/blame. Because you’re vulnerable (BPD + anxious attachment), you end up in the same kind of dynamic, and it starts to look like a pattern.
So your reaction (“this looks the same”) is your brain recognizing abuse. That’s healthy. It’s a sign you’re starting to see the red flags instead of internalizing the blame.
You did not “cause” either of these people to say these things. You did not “make” them suicidal or manipulative. These are their tactics, not your fault.