dec 13th
goodnight

5:28
need to lock in i neeeeeeeeed to lock in i hate winter i cant do anything
kenny made me a little rentry which has a diary so i can talk to myself like i always do so cool supa cool idk what to write in here Lol i dont manically rant on social media anymore thank god i look through my archived instagram posts which make me lock back in cuz no way i was crashing out like that and irl

im going shopping tomorrow

dec 14th
if i go to bed at 8:30 i should wake up at 5:30 ive been sleeping on average 3 hours or 11 hours a night no inbetween and im still extremely exhausted no matter what Lol sept 2024 i had a really good sleep schedule and it was never seen again (that was a really good month, sept - nov 2024 i miss it and all those friends i had they were supa cool) im going to get my shit together this week and go to school since ive only managed to go 3 or 4 times its weighing heavily on me and im the only one who can sort it out
i think itd be really cool to get back into consistant communication with all the people ive fell out with with this year, because ever since i moved into the middle of nowhere it was kinda hard to keep anything going bc i like to spend time with people rather than text or call (slowly slowly slowly.........)

dec 16th
ummmm

dec 19th
i luv nicole dollanganger, angels of porn is currently my favourite song 

dec 20th
i had a nice outing today, the weather was really nice (but coldd) me and my bsf went 2 the farmers market so she could get more nose piercings, then 2 the mall so i could get gifts (very thankful for her shes supa sick which isnt nice but she still drove us) im so excited for christmas just to see family and have a full house, i dont really care abt gifts that much moreso just getting them for others, my bsf got me sick but it isnt as bad as she has it, shes always sick when im over and i lowk feel bad bcuz ik she wants to do stuff but her body is literally always against her :(

dec 22nd
i cant wait until the spring cuz ill be painting my room, probably a pastel pink or something thats not too solid, christmas is in 3 dags and i have to wrap more gifts which will be a hassle, my friend is making gingerbread cinnamon rolls for me i think which im extremely excited for (love you sparkler)

dec 31st
its newyears and im glad and im so tired of this year i moved one year ago into the middle of buttfuck nowhere and it literally messed up everything in my life and it makes me irritated and this whole year was so fucking bad im done

jan 1st
its 2am but happy new years, not to get all sappy but i actually really appreciate and love all the friends ive made this year, and all my other loved ones, everyone really does mean alot to me, especially the ones who make an effort to talk to me everyday. love you all

1:18 pm
drove past my old neighbourhood and it reminds me of when id ride my bike around for hours by myself or with an ex friend of mine, i miss it

jan 3rd
band of 2026. last years never picked up but for sure this time it will. parker is practicing and im going to get a drum kit this month. similar to june of 44, rodan, squirrel bait, big black etc. she already has song ideas and we might save up for analog gear and whatnot. big stuff guys big stuff im excited

jan 4th 12:51 am
ok genuinely everyone is a bot, ai generated, whats wrong with you guys, i think clearly and straightforward, nobody else does, we should get that fixed right? whats wrong
i also feel like im following what everybody else does, dont group me in with everyone who has the fake reality, i am aware
this is the way to get around,
everybody knows something i dont

jan 7th
my music taste is so broad it makes me laugh, im really into buckshot and bladee right now but last week it was nicole dollanganger (she is still my favourites dont get me wrong) my top artist on spotify was $uicideboy$ but my favourite genre is 90s screamo. i still love rap but i also love europop and girly pop music from the 90s/2000s, my band is going to be noise rock and thats another one of my favourite genres
im lowkey everything and everyone i know

jan 11th
bsf 19th bday today!!! so exciting im going to see her
i miss parker i have not seen her since only yesterday and im getting parker withdrawl, shes the only one who really understands me, we are the same person almost, her grandma also loves me shes so cute awww

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Pub: 13 Dec 2025 06:15 UTC

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