@Maal1na

originally i was gonna use some free paste deco i was gonna get on here, but i never got the deco, so i'm gonna use this as a space to ramble about forsaken. i've been meaning to find a url for it, but i just get really self conscious on talking about myself (feels cringe).

if you didn't come here from another url, i'll have a small intro. hello, my name is vanity or shame. i'm sixteen, autistic, & utterly obsessed with forsaken. you can find out more at my main or extended.

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this is unrelated to 1xbut related to forsaken but i think ill m4 builderman today. i still need to grind mr "burger" n7 on my friends acc but i justhit level 76 im in the flo state duuude. thatll leaveme with dusekkar, chance, & guest. my heart wants to say dusekkar because thats safer (and has greater chances of xp) but im not the best with protecting from fatal blows and hes awful in lms. i actually do think guest is somewhat fun, but it leaves me with little time to do gens unless i wanna be a fraud, and im not the greatest with blocking - particularly hitbox drag. parrying is out of the question for me rn because i always save my punch which CAN be good but itd be better to parry in a lot of cases esp since my punch i 50/50 hit. chance, i have awesome luck with but absolutely suck at aiming.

i do wish i'd left myself with characters i actually enjoy playing but i had too much whimsy and now i'm stuck with chracters that will not be fun to play until i hit level 60's (which is when i've pretty much learned the character's moveset, strengths, weaknesses & ascend)


update idk how long ago that was (sometime in jan maybe last week idk im cryin) but i ended up m4ing builderman AND guest1337

guest1337 is not nearly as bad as i thought, i can hit parries... i just really hate being trapped by john doe because trying to avoid being baited is embarrassingly difficult when im IN A TINY LITTLE CORNER but i enjoy playing him

i think the issue lies in that im much more confident protecting myself than other people, not out of a selfish tendency but literally just me being unsure. im ok to body block and charge, even parry solo, but as soon as im trying to prevent someone's death i become rly nervous

this makes me feel guilty but im not trying to be useless, i just need more confidence :"3 my m4 adventure wasnt too bad, i only had people get mad at me twice (at least,, the chat i could see. i suppose a little kid or a grown adult couldve been mad and i wasnt able to see).

someone insulted me before leaving which ofc means that theyre just upset they died but it still hurt my feelings to be labelled da bad guest<//3 idk who it was since they left before i died but prolly someone i attempted to protect. guys pls be nice to ppl learning characters :( insult in ur head. id rather a sentinel try and protect me and fail over them emoting in a corner or holding a cola awaiting my death

anyway i really like the m3/m4 skin a lot, but. Well. then i could never miss a block or id get laughed out of the game

the m4 curse is REAL! wear the skin and you're suddenly shit. imo, its just because i think you start doubting/second guessing urself tbh since you're expected to be good. that and m4 = target. why is noob so immune to this?

i pissed off a guy bcs he was the killer and it was me & another guy (i forget which character) and i was asking my partner if i had enough time to save him, it said no, and i think it was underground...? and i was above ground, so i didnt go run plus there was like 2 minutes and he was about to die.

so i get sent into lms, parry and stamina management the hell out of this guy. he decides to leave with his friend but, before that, he tells me that i'm supposed to help my team

that one was funnier bcs it was clear he was just mad he lost, & i literally wasnt in a position where id be able to save him with 2 minutes on the clock + our distance + the damage happening.

yes, i didnt feel good about being lms as guest 'cause that means i didnt succeed in protecting my team but i didnt even know where the dude was for a bit and sentinels can only do so much if youre not good at running/juking!!

dusekkar isss.. m3 i believe? but im not having a good time playing him unforch, hes so very helpless and killers will LOCK ON YOU if you so dare as protect them from a lethal damage hit. SLASHER I KNOW YOURE MAD ABOUT THE SHIELD BEFORE GASHING WOUND, THE DUSEK DOES NOT DESERVE UR WRATH!

chance is. Chance. (me). the pc nerfs me because my luck is genuinely so good, 130 hp and all my shots usually shoot..... i just cant freaking aim yo. not unless i hit the flow state

i still need to m4 my friend's n7 plus my OTHER friend wants me to get all the gingerbread before the christmas event ends and IDEK when thats ending, the 30th? Since the next update comes out the 30th? I NEED 650 GINGERBREAD TO GET THE LAST 2 SKINS FOR THEM! IN 2 DAYS? i understand i like playing forsaken, but thats bcs im making progress to m4ing everyone :"(( playing sweat servers to get gingerbread is tiring, esp when the killers running all around and im tryna stay OUT. OF SIGHT.

i still need like 550 and doing this as veeronica is painful but i do quite enjoy bouncing off the walls. idk if id have more success w/ gingerbread playing smb else. i really like playing elliot, but anytime i play elliot, he gets targeted hardcore :( i understand why but its very discouraging and explains why i NEVER see elliots

i enjoy builderman. he be building.


I LOVE PLAYING C00LKIDD ITS HONESTLY A DISGRACE OF ME TO NOT BE PLAYING HIM EARLIER DEAR GOD

i was leveling up burger (7) on my friends acc for like 5-6 hrs yesterday and i decided to turn my killer on so i could get more money since im trying to buy all of the 7 skins for him

and i normally main noli but i was like "hey itd be funny if i did c00lkidd since he really likes 007n7" and i ACtually love playing him. WALKSPEED is the greatest

i also played a little elliot but u legit have to throw the pizza into the person in these lobbies for them to eat it bcs otherwise they run from it like it's poison. AND WHAT IS IT WITH PLAYERS RUNNING FROM ME? im not the killer and im holding a MEDKIT!!

(the ones that do take the medkit die shortly after. you're guest, i dont know how you accomplish this)

sigh and people still dont understand that hemmorhage is fixable and, w/ the chat limits, its so much harder to communicate to someone to click/tap on me to fix it. sixers rarely appear but when it happens its devastating

nyway ab to hit m3, and c00lkids at m1 so thats neat.


i hit m3 and m2

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