Val's Blog
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wont be using this as much as before... most likely whenever i have mood swingsor wanna rant about something :// sowwy for deleting my old ones
Feb 26
i feel so upset right now and i dont know why. i feel so embarrassed and sad about everything that happened today and its just terrible. so,today, i had a fieldtrip which some people may know, ive been talking about it for a day or so. but it was nothing like how i expected it to be when i got there. we got there 25ish minutes eariler than we had to, so we just made lines and started waiting and eventually everyone just started moving around, mingling, finding their friends and what not. i was with one of my close friends since we were on the same bus thankfully, but the problem was that i didnt really know any of her other friends (that well anyway) and i just dont know how to handle myself in those situations, so when she went off to talk and find more of her friends i kinda just seperated and found a corner to wait it. but while i was there anothere one of my friends came up to me and tried talking but i just didnt know how to handle it so i just kept nodding and not adding anything, and it was probably weird for her so i felt bad. when people started getting more excited because it was going to be our turn soon, things felt like they got kind of louder yk?? and i dont do very good in loud places, and i already wasnt doung good wirh all the people there so i started tearing up and the beforeBEFORE mentioned friend was just coming up to me again and she noticed and i just started crying. and it was humilating. she was being really nice about it and im so grateful but i feel like i did something wrong and i felt so bad because for the rest of the time we were there she was still eith her group of friends and i was judt..yk, off to the side just walking eith them. i didnt do anything fun with them because i didnt know how to hsndle any of the things people were oing there and i still didnt know how to talk to literally anyone anymore snd i feel like i downed the mood, so i tried disappearing into the crowd for a while, and it worked, but it was kinda lonely too... in short i just didnt have much fun. like at all. none of the showcasing the people were doing were anything like i expected either, so it was just disappointing all around. i really dont want to go back to school tomorrow but i know i dont really have much of a choice </3
cries also im gonna start deleting my old entries just to make space. i dont want this to be some long long thing,okay?
Feb 27
"there's a cake sitting at my house right now and I swear on everything if I get home and my fatty fat big sisters ate it I'm going to preform an unlicensed and unconsensual open stomach surgery on them to get it out" hey guys that was me eight hours ago while I was on scratch and just about to head home I just wanna say that the cake was in fact not eaten by my sisters. EVERYONE APPAULD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!,
Mar 1
HAPPY EARLY ST PATRICKS DAYYYY!!!! YAYYYYY!!!!! i woke up early today im so excited for tomorowww ,.. NOT FOR SCHOOL BUT ABOUT HSR OF OVURSE. I HAVE 95 PULLS FOR RAPPA AND SHE SHOULD BE OUT BY THE TIME MONDAY ENDS AND IMMMMMSOOO EXCITED!!!!!!! IVE ALSO BEEN WORKING ON FINISHING UP SOME PERSONAL ART PROJECTS TOO,, sigh making guy ocs is so hard..,,,,
Mar 4
ive been so chronically online lately like. everything irl right now is so borirnngnggughhhghh THE INTERNET HAS BEEN SO GOOD LATELY. alos youre never gonna believe this,, when i got home from school aparently. APARENTLY!!!! bina got onto the table, got the lid off of one of my sisters cookie things, dragged that into one of the dogs kinnels and ate everything that was left, then threw up 3 times in the living room. and we know it was her because the dogs were at the groomers for most of the day,,,,,,,..aauaauuuhghh.... SHES FINE NOW DW BUT OH MY GOD. i nesrly shot myself right then and there whatthe hell
causally changes the gif here for the 5th time
Mar 9
pheewwweewww its starting to hit reallly bad now. i feel like im goimg to die..... i cant fall alseep its that horrible . PELASEE please let it fade tomorrow,,, im actually going to start sobbing why do I have to be sick all the tome it isnt fairrrr(˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) i know i should be used to it by now but it still really sucks i cant help but complain
seperate rant thang.. it's about 9:20 as i write this.... i feel so stressed bro.... i have so many things to do for my friends and for school snd i've been worried sbout various people for a while now. its like,, draining my social battery RAPIDLY. i feel so bad for my irl friends because it really shows when i'm at school,esp since i havent been talking to them like i did before. i've been trying to not show it with my online friends cuz i dont want the, to worried snd i dont want to get all negative and complain-y with them and add more bad things to this already jusy. negative nasty soup BARSahah.,,,yeah! i want another smoothie bowl i'm so sick f eating savory foods
Mar 10
every few weeks i start watching new shows, but whenever i think i'm finally breaking out of my strictly 3 fandom era, i relapse and forget about all of the shows i watched. its a very worrying phenomenon.... i think i need to clean my most used pillow it smells like all my perfumes combined plus cat smell. and just smells like me. and im not sure if i like it... I DONT KNOW HOW TO DESCRIBE IT???okay yeah no i'm washing this bitch right neow.. I HAVE TWO OF THEM, ONE OF THEM IS UNTOUCHED AND THE OTHER IS THE ONE I USE. LIKE HUGGING, SLEEPING ON(obvi), SQUEEZING , AND I KINDA JUST LIKE... REST ON IT WHILE SCROLLING OR WATCHING VIDEOS YKYK?? the untouched one is so much denser and coloful then my baby. the one i use is like,, squishy and discolored. WHAT HAVE I DONE????

Mar 10
IM SO EMBARRASSED. SO I GOT HOME ESRLY RIGHT??. FOR CONTEXT I PUT ON A SHORTER SHIRT BECAUSE I KNEW IT WAS GONNA BE WARMER SINCE SPRING IS COMING SROUND, IT HASNT BEEN COLD IN A WHILE, YKYKYK. whell. as i'm getting some water from the fridge after i got home. my little sister, who was home too since my mom also got her sick, tapped me on the shoulder snd was like "the back of your bra is showing btw..." and then she called me a whore and i died on the spot. apparently. APARENTLY. I DIDNT NOTCE THE CUT IN THE BACK WAS SO SHORT AND IT LITERALLY WENT BELOW THE BACK OF MY BRA,, LIKE, THE PART YOU CLIP SHUT. AND THERES A GOOD 1-3 INCHES OF SKIN BETWEEN THAT PART AND MY SHIRT SO IT WAS EXTREMELY OBVIOUS. thank goodness i barely took off my jacket while i was at school whew,
Mar 11
im very pleased but very sad at the same tome. SO BASICALLY IN ELA TODAY , WE STARTED A PROJECT YKYKYK?? its about the outsiders again because onviously it is... so our teacher oicks like 4 group leaders and we're gonna have to make a poster about a character, right? for context, theres this girl i really REALLY like in there. i really wanna be her friend, she seems so nice and offtopic but her name is SO pretty. but we're both quiet in there and i dunno what interests she has so i never say anything, but in a class full of loud people we usually just notice each other.....sliently..... but anyways. she gets chosen to be a group leader and she picks johnny for her character, amazing!!! i wanted to be in her group even more!! and lucky me. because. she,,, she chose me to be in her group in the first like, round of the group leaders choosing!!!!!!!!! i was actually really happy man...... but. then i left early so. and if i stay sick and go to school im gonna make a fool of myself in front of her snd whoever else she chose to be in our group because my of my stupid voice. and if i stay home snd fight the sickness here IM GONNA MISS THE WHOLE OPPERTUNITY TO HANG OUT WITH HER IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! sigh. life is full of hard decisions i suppose
Mar 14
im so hungry.....i want a smoothie bowl......SOO BADLH OH MY GODDDD WHY ARE THEY DO GOOD.