last updated 25/03/27
i love kuguri so much. i don’t even really know where to start with this i just hold so much love in my heart for him i didn’t even know it was possible so i wanted to type it out i guess. he’s such a genuinely kind person and seeing him interact with others always brings me to tears. if you follow me you have probably seen me talk about this, but one of my absolute favorite traits he has is his care for the people around him, despite the fact he would probably deny it himself. he loves so much and i wish he would accept that. it’s okay to love. it’s okay to let other people love you. it’s okay to be vulnerable. i think part of the reason why he resonates with me so much is because i see myself in his way of thinking, and i think that the things i would like to tell him are the things i believe i need to hear myself. i constantly find myself wishing him happiness and wishing i could support him to find it. i love the moments where his front wavers because it really shows that he still is the kind person he always has been, the same kind person who was struggling to express emotions as a child. on that note, i also love when kuguri is expressive. as much as i like his usual smile, i wish he would be comfortable showing genuine happiness and emotion in general, not only when he is being caught off guard. i think it is totally achievable for him, both on his own and with a support system and i wish i could be part of it. i feel comfortable with him he makes me believe all will be okay. even though i always wish him the best, the fact he too is “broken” and good at hiding it makes me feel comforted because i am the same. i believe the both of us are people who wish to be saved. the kind of people who act like they are detached from the concept of strong emotions, but are secretly wishing someone would find and accept their “real selves”. kuguri is to me someone who saved me through being the same as me. his happiness feels like my own, like we share a soul. if he can get better, i believe i will be able to as well. i hope we can get better together and i am cheering him on forever.
deep things aside the main point is that i love kuguri i want to give him my soul and all of myself and he saved me and i really truly love him. i’m sure other people love him too but i believe he was specifically crafted to cater to me. he’s perfect but not in the literal sense because we all have flaws. he’s perfect in relation to how i am as a person and we are perfectly in tune. he’s my home. there are so many similarities between us too like the fact we both have a relationship with music (i love how he still enjoys music despite his relationship with it being strained. it makes me wonder what could have been had he had better support as a child). we also are both left handed and both of us speak three languages. we both like visual kei and classical music and dressing up. these are definitely coincidences but really funny ones. we're also opposites in some aspects like our favorite colors and the kind of wine we like but it's like complementary opposites. also our birthdays match. september 6th (6/9) and june 12th (12/6)! the numbers are all one after another in the multiplication table of 3 and we both have sixes in our birthday, just on opposite sides of the date. he’s perfect for me i believe it. i love knowing mundane facts about kuguri. his favorite subject being biology is one of my absolute favorite facts because of how mundane it is. and it also makes so much sense for him to like it. i think it’s really in character considering his interest in life and others. sometimes i imagine what would be if he was a biology major studying at university with me, like a 2025 university au. he has really helped me get through this year probably more than any real person has, as stupid as it sounds.
it relates to what i was talking about earlier, but i love how attentive kuguri is to everything around him. he's so caring towards his fans and it's so cute, he's so cute. i love how he tried to eat as much chocolates he could out of the ones he got from fans on valentines day. i love how despite his constant act of not wanting to be present, you can still tell how attentive he is to going through with something he's tasked with properly. i love his attentiveness. i love how he remembers things about the people around him and his fans even if he has met them only once. and how he will think about it when seeing something that reminds him of said fan (e.g. how when he got a nail kit on his birthday he thought he could let his fan who wanted to paint his nails with it). regardless of how he wants to come across, you can tell that kuguri does care. i wish more people saw that side of him...
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if you made it this far i am terribly sorry but also welcome to a piece of my mind. this is completely unrelated to my actual yumeship it's literally just my own feelings. i am aware that he is a fictional character btw