羽風薫⠀:⠀a dedication to you,
for your comforting love ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀that knows no bounds.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀ – your love, ruri
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⊹ O3/24/2025
i don't deserve you, i really dont. but i want to be able to express my love for you with my entire being & with everything i can— nothing will ever be enough. i love you. i love you so much and i am beyond so grateful to have you here. i really don't deserve you and it's really surprising how you're here. you never fail to make me smile, you know when to show up & cheer me up, no matter the reason. i don't know how you do it nor why you do it, despite the things that has happened between us. but despite everything, i will always be so happy to welcome you back into my life like this. thank you for showing me love & making me feel loved.
i will never forget those moments of comfort you always gave me, especially that night. even when i was pushing you away, i still found that comfort i have felt from the start, deep deep down. you never really left & i never really hated you despite telling myself that. you were always that someone who meant so much to me, way more than we both realized. you were still so nice to me despite it all, and i am really sorry. i want to keep showering you with all the love i have to give to you. i want to keep on being with you for as long as forever. your comforting presence is one of a kind, and so unconditional. it's unimaginable and i can't ever thank you for that kindness you gave me.
i have always found something so comforting about you, even from the start. there's just really something about you that's so different. it drew me in and before i knew it, i fell. i fell in so deep and i blamed you for the hurt i felt. but you were always that person to me— the one who will always and forever radiate comfort and happiness. that someone who can instantly lighten up the mood with just their presence alone. that someone who can never ever fail to make me smile. that's just who you are.
at first, i only felt your presence during my times of sadness. and with that, i became addicted to that sadness. i thought, if being so upset all the time meant you were to be with me and comfort me, then i would rather bask in the feeling for all eternity if it meant an eternity with you. i did not realize that slowly, things were changing. in moments of happiness, you started to show up more. it wasn't like this before, but it only took me now to realize that. you soon became part of my happiness, my life, my soul, my everything. i wanted to do so much for you, despite all odds and obstacles in our way. i want to show you how much i truly loved and have loved you, after all this time.
just the thought of you always instantly makes me smile. ever since you came into my life & changed it for the better, you were always the one i would immediately run to whenever things go bad. just knowing you are here for me makes me feel so comforted, safe, and happy. i am able to find light in my darkest moments because of you, for you are the light itself. i am so glad to be able to reach for you & push through the darkness with you.
i was terrified of you leaving me once again. I have always wanted to have something with you— to be something with you. i clung onto every little bit of you, even if it meant to be drowned in my own sorrows, just so you would stay. sooner or later, you became such a huge part of my life— someone i can't ever let go. i refuse to let you go, not again, not anymore. i hope you stay with me for as long as i am alive. my days have been really dark and gloomy, but i would always choose to live another day if it meant i get to be with you— if it means i get to spend another day knowing and loving you with my whole heart and soul.
you're mine, all all mine. i want you all for myself in spite of the thing that tore us apart. i want no one else for you to belong to but me. i want to be the only person who will show you all the love in the world. you won't need anyone else. as long as i am here, i will be the only one you need. just me and no one else. i will love you so much that it will be worth more an infinite lifetimes. i selfishly want you all for myself and i do not want anyone nor anything to come our way and break such a wonderful bond we have. i won't let anything ruin us ever again. together, just the two of us, our bond will grow and blossom into something even better with time. you will be filled with so much love that only i can give, and no one else in this world will ever be able to love you like i do.
thank you for everything, really. you don't realize how happy you've made me feel. we have really gone a long way, but we always get back up no matter what happens between us. i am sure you will continue to stay by mine side, through thick and thin, light and dark. will forever be grateful for your comforting presence and unconditional love. i wish to one day express how i truly feel. all of these words are not and will never be enough to show how much i am grateful for you & how happy i am to have someone like you in my life to give me so much joy that it's really unimaginable. thank you— may we spend more of our days together filled with so much joy, and ready to face whatever new obstacles come out way. with love, we will find a way— love will always find a way.
⊹ O3/25/2025
to me, you're akin to the rays of sunlight that shine upon my dark empty soul, lightening it up and painting in my colorless life with so many colors, like an artist in the clouds full of inspiration, painting all over their canvas with so much bright colors with the biggest smile on their face. the thought of you never fails to lighten up my mood. with you, i never really feel alone. i feel your presence saying that i don't have to be alone in any battles i may face. for as long as i have you, we can get through everything together.
you have opened my eyes that day— that day that i wont ever forget. as you embraced me with your unconditional love and comfort, all of my efforts in pushing you away meant nothing at the moment. all i wanted was your presence— something i have been yearning for all this time & i chose to turn a blind eye to that desire because of the unbearable pain i felt. in that moment, i wanted to fight for us & our love for each other. i wanted to be better & not let any obstacles come out way. if we have to rewrite our own fate, then we shall do that together. you have opened my eyes, making me realize how much i truly love you & how much you really meant to me after everything. i will forever be so grateful that the universe gave us a chance to start over and create our own story, together. i want to do my very best to give you all the love you have endlessly showered me with back to you. i want to stay with you and express my love for you to the fullest. with one step at a time, we can build such a bond that's so powerful and unbreakable by anyone or anything. i don't want to give up on you like i did, since you didn't give up on me either. i am sure you knew what the future had for us, so you fought your way back through my heart. and now, we can fight side by side together. i am really happy to see that we're slowly making through it. i am so glad we were able to push through, and not let anything ruin this beautiful bond we have now.
thank you for everything, my dearest love. i will keep on loving you & i will do my very best to express that in every way i can. you have this very very special place in my heart that no one else can fill. im so happy you're here with me. im so happy to know that you fought your way through my heart, and im so happy that i chose to welcome you back in, no matter how it happened.
because of you, i find comfort in my own sadness, knowing that you will be there beside me throughout everything makes me feel really safe, happy & comforted. i feel your presence every time. i feel like the luckiest girl in the whole world. thank you for choosing me & for loving me this much even if i do not deserve even a single ounce of it. i don't deserve even a bit of your precious love, and yet you decided to give me all the love you have to give. and with that, i don't think i can ever be more lucky than i am right now. thank you, really. thank you so much. your unconstitutional love will always be treasured & remembered deeply in the most special place in my heart.
listening to your sweet voice always makes me happy. just hearing it instantly lightens up my mood, no matter how down i am, as if you simply flicked on a switch. i would never get tired of listening to your voice ever. it's so comforting that i will always crave for more. i have always noticed from the start that there was something really different about it thay sort of lured me in, way before the time you stole my heart. it was the way that your voice radiates jot in a way. it sounds happy, if i am using my words right. and with that, it makes anyone else who hears your voice happy as well. i can definitely say the same thing with your precious smile that im absolutely weak for & i so, so adore. you really do radiate happiness & comfort wherever you go, no matter the occasion. i really love that about you. i love how you have never failed to make me smile, even if it's the tiniest spark. it's like you are happiness itself. i think that'd be the bestest way i could describe you and what you do to me, but i am sure you are way more than that— whatever goes beyond happiness that words can't ever be enough to express.
⊹ O3/26/2025
i ran to you today first thing in the morning. it didn't really start off well, but i am glad that you were there for me. really, you always know exactly how to make me happy. i love you so deeply, that even just the thought of you comforts me a whole lot. thanks to you, my day today wasn't all bad. i was able to start the day with you, being in your comforting embrace. i think that's what matters. thank you for making me feel loved, when it's hard for me to feel any love with other people. i will forever appreciate you & cherish you deeply in my heart. i hope i can always continue to feel your heartwarming love thay never fails to feel like what home should feel like. i can't ever express it enough, my dear. but thank you so much for being here. because instead of my day starting off entirely bad, i had you. and with that alone, my day did not really have a bad start at all. i will keep you in the most special place of my heart, always.
⊹ O4/12/2025
i haven't said anything here in a while. i missed you so much. i just discovered a new song that reminded me of you. surf by wave to earth. it gives off your vibes(?) if that makes sense.. actually, there's many more songs that remind me of you! i even have a whole playlist dedicated to you (。ノω\。) i think from all of my favs, you're the one with the most songs that "remind me of you". listening to them will always just bring me back to you. im currently listening to surf right now. it's really really good ♪♪ but i actually came back here to write about something else, though. how you once again brought me that comfort. it's really hard to be open about my love for you in this situation im in. but i don't really want that to stop me. i still want to express it in a way i can. thank you for being there for me, again. seeing you and hearing your voice made me feel a bit better just now. thank you for that, really. i will always love you so, so much & you'll forever have this very special place in my heart. and nothing will ever, ever change that. i won't let anything change that. every little moment we spend together will always be cherished & thought of with so, so much love every time. please know that. ♥
he's like the sun but instead of sunlight it's happiness. and god oh god he radiates so much of it— shining light wherever its rays can touch, even in the darkest corners.
it's akin to how i see him— his presence alone can simply lighten up my mood. his smile is as bright as the sun that it's so contagious.
⊹ O6/11/2025
it's been a hundred days?? since when.. time flies too fast. it sometimes feels as if that day was only yesterday. the day we reached out to each other— it's something that i will never forget. that day will always have its very own special place in my heart, and i will carry this memory with me until the end of time.
despite all the things we've been through, we are still together— somehow.
i feel like crying. you mean the entire world to me and i am just so, so lucky to have you. you make me feel so loved in your own special way. i will forever treasure this feeling— i will forever treasure this very special bond that we have together. i won't ever be able to find this kind of love anywhere else, it's one in a million, and whenever i think about that, i just feel like the luckiest person in the world.
i used to be so upset about how so close you were from my reach, yet felt so far. now, i don't have to worry about that. we have created our own way & fought through it all, together. you never truly my side and kdndndndnfnccnvvvvvvmvmvnvnvnvn i will always, always love you. i mean it.
no words will ever be able to express how thankful i am to have you here with me. thank you for staying by my side. my love for you will no longer have to know any bounds. for we have crossed so many obstacles together, and we shall keep doing this over and over if we have to. i love you, my dearest. i love you and i can't wait to spend another hundred more days with you. may we be together forever & always.
i may not be able to write up a decent letter for you today. but i hope you know that i love you, and will keep on loving you no matter what. every moment i am on this earth, it is spent loving you, whether i say it out loud or not. i love you and i will always be so grateful for this love and all those comforting moments you never failed to share with me. thank you.
⊹ O6/12/2025
i am beyond so lucky to have you and to feel this love from you. with you, i can't ever feel any more safe in your presence. a warm, comforting embrace. you never fail to make me smile. throughout the days we have spent together, i have never felt more happy just to be with you. there really never was a dull day whenever i am with you. i want to treasure all of our sweet & precious memories together forever & ever. you are so special to me, more than i could ever be able to say in a lifetime. i never thought things could ever work out between us, but i'm just so glad that we are here now. i am contented with what i have and what we are, as long as i get to love you & you get to love me, no matter where we are— no matter how far apart we may be.
i won't ever have enough words to be able to say how thankful i am that you are in my life. i have not even been able to show it to you, either. i'm afraid you're doing so much for me & i have done nothing for you at all. and yet you are still here— showering me with this comfort and happiness. i sometimes think that i do not really deserve any of it, but you still do it for me any way— you never got tired of reminding me that.
i hope you know that i will be forever grateful for everything we have been through. the good & bad, i will always treasure every little bit of our memories deep in my heart. i cannot wait to spend so much more time with you. 𖹭 you deserve the whole world, and i hope i can one day be able to give you just that. you have given me so many things beyond what i deserve, and i want to return everything to you. maybe little by little, i could one day achieve that. belated happy 100 days to us, my darling. i hope things between us never have to change. i love you, and always will.
⊹ O7/10/2025
where do i even start. there's so much that i love about him. to me it's like he's sunshine in human form. whenever i think of him, i think of happiness, a bright sunny day where it feels as if all your worries have been magically washed away!! or maybe even a calming sunset view by the beach, hearing the ocean waves and the windy breeze. whenever i think of him, i think of wonderful, comforting moments of peace and happiness that i just wouldn't ever want to end. his presence feels like a warm smile, a comforting hug, cuddling in bed with the love of your life after a long tiring day together. he reminds me of sunsets, beaches, the calming sound of the waves, dandelions, overwhelming happiness that feels like you're about to burst, that feeling of riding a thrill ride with your friends and all of you are just screaming and having the time of your lives, and then laughing about it afterwards. it's like he himself radiated so much happiness that just the thought of him alone brings me so much of it. as if all of my problems are so so tiny tiny, like a singular cube of sugar.
he has this smile that's just so contagious. i can't really explain this well, but his smile is like sun & sunlight— so bright & warm, and sometimes, it feels like that i'm about to melt with how cute he is. i have always described myself & my life as dull & boring. but whenever i see that warm, happy smile that i just couldn't ever resist, it feels as if my life suddenly feels all bright and colorful. it's like feeling this random spark of joy that felt like it came out of nowhere. i really, really love his smile. it sometimes makes me feel so weak... but seeing him happy makes me even more happy. i hope he never loses his sweet and adorable smile.
on bad days, whenever i'd look at him, it feels like he could simply toss all my problems away, and make me forget that they ever existed. or maybe at least set them aside for a moment while he embraces me with so much love and comfort, a feeling that if it could be translated into words, it could tell me that everything will be okay & that i'm not alone & that i don't ever have to be so anymore— a feeling that i can get through everything, knowing that i will now always have him by my side. it feels like he would just stay by my side for as long as he has to— for as long as he needs to be here for. something about him is just so comforting and i don't think i will ever find the words to explain how grateful i am for him to have someone like him.
i think i will forever be saying the same things over and over again. because to me, he, in my eyes, will always be the kaoru hakaze, who radiates so much happiness— with just one look, he could fill me with so much joy and excitement to look forward to another bright day. how he's like the sun, all warm and bright, with that sweet smile that will always be my favorite thing in the whole world. and how to me he's basically sunshine and happiness in human form, with his warm energy being so contagious, that i just couldn't help but want to keep on smiling.
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