insane shit rentry carrd version last updated: september 10th


kai/blaze/helios 17, he/fie/sol, trans ftm bi i have autism, anxiety, and adhd. maybe some form of derealization/depersonalization i don't know

i'm x x x x x episodic x x x x x there are a couple unlisteds for my own sake ask if you really want to know


blacklist: obsessive love, yanderes, stalking, discussion of mahriru shiina's murder, sudden loud noises (warning beforehand ok)

squicks: the lyrics to mahiru shiina's first trial music video "this is how to be in love with you", the name bri/brielle, nursing homes (jokes like "ok grandpa let's get you back to the nursing home" are ok just not in depth talk please), audio of women yelling angrily (mothers in particular), and talk of parents walking out on their kids. if you're going to play mahiru's cover of psychogram in vc, please warn me beforehand

media related: don't hate on any of the mes excessively, please be careful when talking about my murder case as a whole for milgram (this goes for episodes as well), any futa ship that isn't with mikoto or kotoko + don't mention 0610 around me too much, esmu or es with any prisoner romantically, any akito or toya pairing that isn't akitoya, the cg of shinji kasa's death (sdra2), shinyuki (sdra2), kel/basil romantically or sunburn romantically, itaban, keichi, kuroshu, keisou, kurosou, or kaosou


info: i'm dating skye if you didn't know already i'm a little bit gay like that, i tend to be the butt of jokes and that's okay but if it gets a little harsh please use tone tags with me, i get very excited over my interests and tend to infodump a lot if this gets annoying please just let me know, i zone out a lot in vc so if i go quiet on call that's probably why, it takes me awhile to process some things so if i seem slow bear with me it takes me a couple tries to understand things, i probably have some dissociative thing going on. #hotgirlsummer idk, if it seems like i'm struggling with something but don't say anything don't try to force it out of me. i don't think anyone here would do this but while i do struggle a lot with bottling things up i have to come to terms with speaking about it on my own terms, i tend to have episodes where i believe i'm not real or i forget who i am. i don't open up about these very often but if i do mention it the best course of action is to just reassure me i'm real and to stay with me.

media related info: my episodes/delusions are especially strong when it comes milgram i'm just putting that out there. i'll probably be very opinionated on things that have to do with any milgram character in the me section and if that comes off in an aggressive way i don't mean it that way i'm just insane


socials:
twt: sparkingblaze main + samfausts priv. also i run akitoquotebot, shihoquotebot, and es_qtbot if anyone wanted to follow them + my personal quote bot is egoisticheroes
insta: ftkjym as a general spam + sparkingblaze for edits if i ever do it again
tiktok: gekkoukitan

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Pub: 09 Aug 2022 18:43 UTC

Edit: 11 Sep 2022 04:26 UTC

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