I love you so much, Ekam, i love you, I love you dearly, and truly, I want you to know, the depths of my love for you, because the way I feel is something I never felt before, I adore you dearly, and I want you to see yourself the way i see you, I truly do, because I want you to love yourself the way I love you.

I want to take care of you while you're sick, even when you are in your lowest to the point you can't eat nor clean yourself, I’ll be there, to feed and bathe you, to take care of you, even if others find it disgusting or weird, I wanna be there during your hardships, and during your good moments also, because love isn't only being there for the good moments, it's also being there for the bad.

I wanna be there for you in the future, someone you can trust and love, I wanna stand by your side, I want to see you propose to me with a ring of any kind, I want to kiss you, and I want to hold you, I want to hug and cuddle you, I wanna cherish you, I wanna die by your same side, I want to hold your heart in the palm of my hands and kiss it and show it as much love as I could possibly express, I want you to feel the warmth you gave me, and to tell you how I feel, I really want you to feel the extend of my love, and im sorry if you ever felt unloved any time by me, because I truly love you, and you mean so much, you mean the world to me, and to be honest, if I had to, I would leave everyone for you, I want you to know how I feel. How I feel for you, its such a strong emotion, one hard to describe, but something more then love, stronger then love, stronger then any words can express.

I wonder how I ever managed to make as someone as amazing and lovely as you to fall in love with me, it seemed impossible at first when I fell in love, and especially since I don’t deserve someone, especially you, I don’t deserve you at all, yet you still love me despite all my flaws and thats why, I wanna make myself better, I wanna improve because of YOU. You taught me and showed me what love is, and i want to return that favor.

I never believed in gods, angels, nor any celestial beings, but you proved it otherwise, since you’re the one i learnt worship, and to pray to, a true angel in my eyes.

I want to die by your side, my love, and to live by it especially, because I wouldnt know a life with you in it, because it wouldn’t be meaningful without you in it.

Because what makes this life meaningful is to be by your side.
My dearest Ekam.

Your heart, so full of love and warmth, and to want to claim as mine, selfishly holding your heart, to claim as my own, even as my greedy hands loosen, you never retreat, pulsing a warmth that comforts, even when I don’t hear the heartbeats, it being present was enough to satisfy.

oh Ekam, your love so strong and beautiful, sometimes we wonder how you ended up in a world this way, messed up and it wronged you in many terrible ways, yet you stayed, so I love and held, cradled it and cared, never wanting to let go of a warmth so deeply comforting, but a bird could never be held down, so I learned how to still feel comfort without the pulse of the bird in my hands, and saw the bird flap out its wings and fly off, and it was beautiful, i dont think I could imagine clipping the wings for it to stick with me, since that isnt love I propose, since love is letting go and trusting, isnt it so?
And, I love you, mi amor, my sweet boy, your sweet words and love is all I need honestly, how much love I feel for you, is so big, its amazing, I love you, I never felt so much for someone, but you? You are everything, you are my love, my heart, my soul, I miss you even when we don’t talk just a minute or two, I truly love you, you mean so much to me, you mean more then the world, more than any person I met honestly, which is silly to say, but eres mi vida, yo te amo muchísimo, Eres la persona que me hace querer vivir, quiero vivir para ti, mi guapo novio, MI NOVIO!! Te amo tanto, más de lo que las palabras pueden expresar, quiero star un persona buena para ti.

Always for you, simply for you, my soul and heart belongs to you, my love.
I truly do love you, and nothing else will stop me otherwise. Its a surpise we been together for this long!
Love, Derek/Noli