My dearest Victor,

For an eternity have you been present in my heart, never leaving my cold gaze. You have loved my undead heart for 4 years now .. For that I am so grateful. You have always been kind, loving, and careful with me .. I feel at utmost comfort and trust when I am with you, my dear. I am but a starving vampire when I am without you .. You are perfect for and to me in every aspect. Your beauty, personality, likes, dislikes, attributes .. We fit together like the slivers of the moon.

I want to walk by your side until we can find the end of the earth. I want to hold onto you and your heart forever. You will own my heart forever.

*It's hard to fit all of my mind into these messages. This list will be endless by the time we're in our graves. I will continue to use this section as a journal of my love for you forever. Sometime's my body get's so insanely happy that I cannot hold it in, so let me try to show you all my love.

Not only do you mean the world to me, you are my world. My stars. I'm the luckiest man to still have you here with me; to have you accompanying me for every memory and every experience. I wouldn't trade seeing your face every day for the world. You are priceless. I could perfectly replicate your face onto a canvas just by how many times I've stared at your beauty. I feel my heart wishes to pounce out of my chest everytime I look at you or even hear about you. I want to show you off as my prized possession, and that's why I can't seem to shut up about you whenever I talk to others. Most of mine conversations feature you. I cannot stop thinking about you.

Even when you are asleep, I stare down at your beauty. I admire each and every part of you. I know you've heard me say it so many times, but I'm so in love with those precious eyes. Your eyelashes compliment everything about you. I love the blush on your lips and the freckles that lay right on top of it. You have this one exactly up and to the right from your top lip and it is my favorite. Your face is a constellation of stars. Isn't it fitting for what you are, starshine? I dream of you almost every single night, and you look exactly as beautiful as you are in the present. I love your long blonde hair that sits on your shoulders with the brown root at the top. I love how it fluffs up after the bath. I love how you so carefully detangle your hair in the shower. I love how you choose what to wear everyday. I love how you ask me for my opinions on what to wear. I love how you get excited when you see things in a store and immediately run to show me. If I could buy you everything, I would. I would buy you the moon! I love how you look up at me in the morning when you wake up. ( Especially when you reach over to grab me. ) I adore holding you to sleep and feeling your warm skin. I love kissing your cheeks and feeling your cheeks crunch up in joy. I love watching blush come over you when you get excited or passionate about something. I love listening to you talk about all of your interests and new things that may have been released. You're an amazing writer and poet. Your designs are amazing. Your art is unique and satisfying to my eyes. Your coding is truly astonishing. You're so talented at everything you do, even if you don't think so. I wish for one day you could see yourself through my eyes. I am truly so in awe over you.

You have the most gorgeous soul. You are so passionate about the things you love and you have so much care and kindness for others; even if that is your enemy sometimes. You are truly a good person. You know how to make me happy. You know the key to my heart. You know every secret. You're cheerful and so very funny. There are so many funny moments I think back on that I can never forget. We've made so many memories together for 4 years now. Isn't that so crazy to think about? I re-remember some things somedays and I just still can't believe that I had something as beautiful as you that I made them with.

You're so incredibly thoughtful about others. Not only do I love how you care for me, but I love how you care for others. One of the most charming things about you is your personality. You deserve to be in everyone's thoughts all the time. You deserved to be loved undyingly and unconditionally. You deserve to have my words. To have this journal. To receive affection every single day from everyone you meet. Everyone should appreciate and see you how I do.

I am truly, from the deepest and the wholest part of my heart; so in love with you. You've heard me say it so many times, yet I never feel like it gets across how much I love you. I love you, Evangeline. I love you, Pelle. I love you, Victor. I love you.

I'm so happy you're mine.

In case you ever foolishly forget: I am never not thinking of you, my darling.

3/27/20

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Pub: 27 Feb 2023 02:09 UTC
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