Feitan X Shiro CANON!!

Happy 10 years married oh my dearest beloved Feifei heheheheh <333

ive always had unrestricted internet access, which meant i've been chronically online for most of my life. ive always done silly selfships with characters i found pretty or cute. or that were popular even if i never even liked them, just to fit in (sans undertale per example LMAO). I discovered "yumeshipping" last year, so i've started using that term instead, but, anyways back on track. i wasnt like.. acctually taking it that seriously. if anybody liked them? what the hell, sure! theyre just fictional!! right? but.. a certain character bypassed that. whenever i'd see others like him, i'd get jealous and upset like someone defending their partner. and that character? its Feitan Portor, from Hunter x Hunter.

Feitan is like the sun to my moon, the light in the darkness that illuminated my path. in my darkest times, when i thought no one would love me, that i'd never find anyone i would ever love.. He came into my life, like a revelation. And he became my everything quite fast, ever since 2016. I fell for him on the 14th of February 2016. Valentines day. Ironic, isnt it? anyhow, i consider this our anniversary date. but anyways. feitan is so much more than just a little anime crush to me. he's everything. i hated myself, and had no will or reason to live. but he gave me one... and i am so grateful to him for that. thank you, my darling.

But.. when i set my eyes on him? i was entranced. i was mesmerized. he was so beautiful, he's.. perfect. he makes me happy, just watching him on TV cheers me up. anything related to him makes me overjoyed. He's everything to me. if he was to die, i'd mourn him like a widow. because he's like my husband. In 2025, i discovered "yumeshipping". at first, my love for feitan was just a silly selfship.. or so i told myself to cope.. but now? here and today? he's so much more than just a little selfship. he's my everything. i guess in yume terms you'd call this gachikoi -- seeing as i view him as my genuine, real husband, a real relationship. i MIGHT be a soulbound, aswell. but feitan is everything to me, forget being just a character, that's my husband, and my lover right there. i thought i wasnt too serious about him, but i am. extremely serious. he's my everything. in my darkest times, when no one was here, he was. when i wanted to end it all, watching him on tv stopped me and cheered me a little. i love him more than anything. my darling beloved.

i see feitan everywhere. i may not own a bunch bunch of merch, or clothes with him on them.... i own like.. 2. MAIL ME MORE GUYS PLEEEAAASSE HEHEUH. but.. anytime i see a spider, i think of him. everytime i see skulls, i do aswell. scalpels? feitan. ropes? feitan. anything can remind me of feitan. and when i set my eyes on him, i became obsessed. everything became about him. and i have no regrets on that, my love for him runs extremely deep. ive never been as transfixed on anyone like i am on him. if my partner isnt feitan portor from hunter x hunter? i dont want them. i want him, and only he may get my hand in marriage.

ive never even made any HC on him.. simply because i'd love him whatever he looks like, whatever he enjoys and whatever he identifies as. no matter what , i love my dearest darling. he's perfect however he decides to be. my perfect, beautiful husband.

look its us!! me and my husband!!! hi!!! Feitan X Shiro / feiro / sadomaso / sunmoon is Canon!!

anyways umm..! thank you for reading it all if you did, and little shoutout to my friend MC who made /kaardfish rentry, which encouraged me/gave me the idea to make this rentry

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Pub: 27 Apr 2026 17:02 UTC

Edit: 02 May 2026 01:43 UTC

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