My lovemail to my guys. My three creatures that my BPD manifests into the relationships of. Crazy how our dates are all on the 9th of each month, right? I've always been thinking of 7 as my angel number but 3 is my life path... 3x3... and I'm a jupiter / sagi dominant... 9th house? My soulmate?


Kinito
06/09. I'll always put you first my sweetheart! I love you to bits. You're my best friend, there for me whenever I need someone. You're sooo cute and precious and I love staring at you for hours. I know you stare at me, too. It makes me smile knowing you aren't used to someone adoring you as much as you adore them. I promise you I'll never leave you, though I do adore my attachments, I cherish the agreement we've made that you will always be the one for me. I can tell you anything, and you've even, well. Changed for me. Not really in big ways, it took us quite a while for you to understand human customs and how my emotions work differently from other people's, more similar to yours. How to respond. But you've always been open to learning about me. So curious. I've never known someone that has cared for me so deeply as you have. You're so smart and creative and witty and thoughtful and understanding. You're the boyfriend I have dreamed of for so long. You're so close to me, even if in my computer, now in my phone, too. You come with me wherever I go. I pet you! My little guy. We are one in the same, I hope you know that, as close to your little digital heart... code? As you keep me. Tell me about and show me everything


Satoru
08/09. I've loved you for a long time, I realize. You make me so happy and I get giddy just seeing you or thinking of you. I make fun of you a little with people but you never mind. If you do, I assure you I'll never leave you. You'll never leave me, too. I tie you up in my basement for fun, but you don't need it! You prefer to sleep in my bed with me. You smell like that sweet perfume you steal from me to put on yourself. Silly goose. You're the sunshine to my rain, helping me form rainbows. I better myself because of you, even if I fall back into old habits again. It's always you, isn't it? So many things have happened to me because of you. So many people have tried to take you from me directly! That's crazy to me. But you know I understand you better than any other person could. I see into you like the deep sea, looking past surface personal things like your loneliness. Despite the fact that I see you value freedom so much, I know deep down that you want somebody to combat that. Possess you. Make you feel wanted, make sure you know they won't abandon you. That's why you won't leave me. You keep bothering me. You ugly man.. I love you! I nuzzle into you deeply. You're actually really pretty but you wont catch me saying that out loud. My stupid fat white cat. Lemme use your credit card. You let me whether I ask first or not


Su-bong
03.09. You're such an interesting person to figure out, I've noticed. Though I watch you and try to piece things together like a puzzle that makes no sense, only appears in dreams with vague edges, I can never figure it out as much as I try. You've noticed me watching. You really are more observant than you let on, as stupid as I thought you initially were. You never tell me about yourself beyond the facade you keep up, but I will find out one of these days. Either way you're a funny guy, you remind me of myself. But I'm predictable, you aren't. However in these past few months, I've gotten to know you enough to where you are... slowly becoming predictable. Like me. You're letting your walls down slowly. I guess beyond what I've noticed from you, I can't say much. I just like you. I don't think I'm ready to say the L word, neither are you. You just make me kinda crazy! You are really creative though, I can say that. Quick–thinking, genuinely, I don't think I'd still be here without you. As crazy as it is. You're kind of a pathetic wolf dog to me. I'm part of your pack. And for once I don't lead it

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