hiaiii ;; im illusionary or valley/pangi.i use he/che pronouns and no terms at all unless you are a close friend ໒꒱ im an agender boygirl, not really im not a boy nor girl but the term fits me weirdly enough so im using it smd ,, anyways uhmm im aroace maybe cupio im also single someone should hmu idk
im disordered with a few things but most notably autism bpd and a shitty plurality thats all you get to know idk man this def affects how youre gonna interact with me because i cant even keep myself acting normal aka whatever is considered normal thats not me at all i need to go to the psych ward istg

small warning if you do actually interact with me is that im very quick to switch opinions on you, things mentioned, other people, ect. and also i will subconsciously mirror you, this means that i will adopt your opinions, mannerisms, ect. without realizing it ;; id just say dni if this is weird to you i cant control this even though i really want to be able to sorry
another thing is im really bad at socializing, it might not seem that way but i lose interest in conversations quickly - especially if you dont start them as i lose any motivation to want to talk after a bit of time, its nothing against you but i cant hold conversations unless the other person is also doing so. this also adds on to the fact that sometimes i cant actually tell if our conversations are still going or not,, sorry
oh also i apologize alot?? i just realized this while writing

um, i want to add that due to how i was raised i dont know how to identify my emotions well at all, this also includes the fact that certain things that many others know how it feels or is, i dont, this might mean i may ask what certain things feel like? if this is the case um i apologize in advance and you can just tell me not to do so and i wont! simple as that trust me
also if i do actually manage to identify what im feeling, its most likely due to being in an episode and its an intense feeling, if this becomes the case i might go dry, talk solely about things im interested in, or i might just ignore the conversation completely to indulge in said interests this is nothing against you, i just prefer to do this rather than accidentally say/do something ill regret
another thing ill add is the way i typically have coped throughout my life is by fiction, ive attached myself to a handful of characters - including illusionary_night ; john and others i also have like really jank introject sources aka pangi ; q84 and charlotte

if we arent close, most of the time ill start conversations by either mentioning my interests, complimenting/mentioning a part of your profile, or by talking about myself .. umm if this makes me seem full of myself i promise im not, (i actually have a really unstable self image), i just dont know how else to start conversations
on that note,, some of my interests include roblox myths (as seen with, well, my name and all that), pressure, regretevator (i guess), object shows, lifestealsmp, witchs heart, pocket mirror, and a plethora more

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