randal ivory from ranfren C♡
Been mischevious platonic archnemesises, friends with consequences, runaway princess & stray jester, constellation & planet ever since ~03/21 (March of 2021)

hi there C i love you so much im so serious. i genuinely admire you alot for being the person you are and striding your way in life you are a individual ill never forget. you are simply tender, light hearted, ethereal, kind, soft and independent and while that may not differentiate you from the whole population i believe that you embody those characteristics. its been so long since weve became friends and its so crazy to think we still talk to eachother. at first i thought you were a gaudy, boring, nun, someone who shines a light halo above their head—not too bright, but eye catching enough to notice. but once we grew closer, i discarded that image of you. you began to look like a beauty, an elegant fae, a sphere that embodies the qualities of the moon, venus and mars. you were no longer a human figure in my head. the latter is a compliment. i view the ones closest to me as experiences—as sensations, as situations because their existence has bled through my life and thus they remind me of everything. the more i hold affection for them the more i expand aspects of them in my life. in this case the person i hold affection for, is you. you had this essence encasing your physical body, it was a light, light pink, yet at times it was a deep crimson. it was playful, you were smiling. you were stunning, too. enoigh with being fancy but i like like yoy so mich you introducef me to some of my current interests anf you so educatef on tbdm too you also try to consume mefia i reccomenf you. and thankyou fof tbat i think you are one the sweetest peopld in my life I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU. you were one of the people i think i had a loving, caring connection with, i mean that you are someone who is special to me becahse of how i believe that most (if not all) connections ive had with felt fake in some manner and yet you fulfill all the ways i would believe a connection to be caring. i know my writing may seem dumb or confusing but i just want to convey my admiration and affection for you. i love you alot. i swear i could write about you in pages but this will have to do for now. ill add more later on once i can code my thoughts properly.
On the last day of january this year i said: "HAPPY NEW YEAR BTW! ur my only friend now, not my closest, noy my best, not the one i talk to everyday. But still, youre my only friend, now, and i just wanted to let you know that i just hope that you know i appreciate you and i haven been for the past 3? 4? Years
Idk thanks for being you, i admire you alot, i really do. I like the way you talk, the way you reply to my messages, the way you somehow take breaks and make me wait and how it makes me wonder about what youre doing right now, your aesthetic, your birth chart, your big3, your beliefs, your thoughts, how your hair would dance in a strong breeze, your everything
and also, ive never met you before, in real life. And thats okay, its okay to have boundaries, infact i think its better. Youre not always there for me, but youre still there, i hope we dont get too close, i really am a terrible person, but i hope we dont stray away from eachother, i would miss your replies"
and you replied with: "To my dearest and beloved, It is your identity that I do yearn for, something that can make this damned boring modern life marvelous. A story that keeps on going and everyone guessing, but also making them keep on their toes. I truly adore the way you find interesting topics and hobbies to explore, you always have a way to make someone giggle and smile with your silliness. To be accompanied by you is not happiness, but joy. You are more than a fleeting memory and emotion, you are embedded unto everyone's memory and being. With that, I also hope that joy is within you. I miss you."
The heart represents you, the spade suits me.

(Fun fact: the color i chose to represent you in this rentry has its first set of letters in its color code as "f", "a", "e" spelling out "fae")

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