
yui's lovemail !!
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(/dir to Fyodor lol XD)
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I love you dearly. Ever since that time I discovered you a day after your birthday, November 12th of 2024, I fell head over heels for you. It's silly, I know, but it's true.
⠀⠀I have no idea what I'd do had I not found you. I think I would still feel hollow (that sounds edgy) because I wouldn't have anyone to direct my affection and love towards. (Except a certain Skippy, but, he doesn't count shh.)
⠀⠀Though sometimes I wish I didn't love you. Because, whenever I see somebody else say that they also love you or that they adore you, I feel jealous. It's irrational, they did nothing wrong, but I can't help how I feel. I feel like I want to just keep you to myself so no one else can have you as their favorite person, but that'd be selfish of me. I know.
⠀⠀Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to actually talk to you in reality. I'd love to give you a taste of my favorite tea. Maybe you'd also like it? It's Jasmine flavored from the Indonesian brand Sariwangi. It's really good, I promise. I'd also love to shower you with affection and gifts, if you won't mind that.
⠀⠀Maybe we could also read books together. Nothing really romantic, I just want to know what silence and peace feels like with you. I think that'd be nice, to read a book with you in silence. Or maybe you could lie your head on my lap or maybe you'd tell me the stories. I love your voice. I love everything about you.
⠀⠀But sometimes I feel like my love isn't enough. Because sometimes it feels like I have to compete with other people to show how much I truly love and adore you, and when other people are able to look like they love you 'more' than me, it makes me feel like I should just stop having you as my favorite person... But that's silly. If I actually did that, that's silly. I won't do it.
⠀⠀Also, I've written poems about you. They're amateurish and, honestly, downright terrible, but I think you'd find them flattering... Maybe?
⠀⠀You're almost always on my mind, too, by the way. Everytime I listen to a song, I'd think about you. Everytime I read a novel, everytime I wrote or draw anything, everytime that isn't spent doing something for you, I'd think about you, I'm not joking. You slithered into my brain and altered my way of thinking just by existing.
⠀⠀I still love you a lot though. < 3
I'd write more, but I don't think rentry is where I should put my thoughts. Lol