system update log but its hurrendous (not in any order)
will occasionally be updated (maybe)
8/9/23: log is back up! episode subsided thankfully &
ended up going to bed early last night
11/12/23 gave up on updating this bc life has been not great lol
coping log
- started distancing ourselves from social media like twt for our sanity
- started frequently blocking people that didnt make us feel safe
- bsd makes me feel happy :)
- got on new antipsychotics finally (old ones were so ass)
- began managing our bpd more :)
- i feel happier about life
- i feel happier about myself :)
- began cutting bad ppl out of my life
- began getting rid of old possessions associated with bad memories / events without feeling guilty
- some of the headmates began taking coloring as a hobby (rest in peace to my money T_T )
- began managing our paranoia more
- downside: amnesia has worsened :(
- dropped out of school for our sanity & will be
looking into community colleges in the next while - ciel is healing slowly
- taking a small break online bc of mental health going downhill
& the internet isnt healthy for us - started using collective to refer to ourselves
- not doing so good the last few days, taking some
more time off of our devices for our sanity - disattachment, that is all
miscellaneous
- ciel got into typology
- ciel started feeling human again
- philip started fronting again more
- lyrine alongside ben has been helping
with organization / 'filing' (including logging) - redid the rentry formatting rq
- recently bought a halloween themed throw
& its the comfiest thing ever - also got back into writing
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