i really like giyuu :((( giyuu tomioka :( guys im a yumedanshi or whatever. Im a selfshipper. i ship myself with giyuu. im a giyuu yume :( i pretend giyuu is my husband :( also i deadass get pissed off when i see a girl claiming to be giyuus wife LIKE WHAT! idk it makes me mad.,, Its embarrassing bro I HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM! im in love with giyuu tomioka! like my parents know about him! my family! my family knows about my love for him!!!! embarrassing!!! its gotten so bad. this isn't healthy. i love him.

Do you know how many times i've drawn myself being wed to giyuu tomioka. Actually?? I don't know. maybe twice. but ive gotten like. FANART. fanart. what is it called.?? Just selfshipping? not like oc x canon. irl x canon or something. idfk. My oomf! has drawn fanart. OF ME AND GIYUU, BEING WED. it's so so beautiful. iiona.. i love you... my favorite opp.. ever. iiona youre my #1 giyuumiles ship artist.... and actually,, i have some printed out. and like taped up. on my shelf. and when i wake up, it's like, right there,, it's so amazing. Thank you everyone who has fed my unhealthy obsession to giyuu. you shouldn't have. but thank you.

bro he's :( he's lowkey so handsome :( i want to squeeze him until he pops like a littl stressball with foam in it. or like orbeez. (urgh i hate orbeez) he's so damn cute bro. the cuteness aggression,, its so bad. :( he's not even cute. so ugly. my favorite guy in the world. god.

DUDE I'VE LOOKED HIM UP AFTER WRITING ALL OF THIS HOHMYYGOD BRO I CAN'T DO IT. I CAN'T. AND I REFUSE TO WATCH KNY. LIKE I'VE DROPPED IT. IT'S SO HARD. i've dropped kny because of him. BECAUSE OF MY CRUSH ON HIM. i can't stand it. i can't stand seeing his face. oh my god. it's painful. i get so excited its EMBARRASSING. i have to take a break. after every frame. like my heart skips a beat. seriously. someone fix me please. i can't. HE SO FUCKIBG CUTE IM GONNA PISS SOMEONE KILL ME

he's liyerally my huzz.... oomgg my beautiful wonderful stunnibgf wife.... if you think hes your huzz.. youre delusional.. aha. (he's marrief to me on skibidi) "im giyuus wife" lol... not youre not lol.. did you knew hes already married already lol.. idiot... lol.. im his husband lol.. you dont even knwo him lol... fake fan lol.. i bet you dont even know where he was on december 5th, 2022 lol.. (he was getting married to me lol..) like you probably dont even have heart palpitations when you see him lol.. get a load of this fake fan...

if you would just take one look at him (wonderful man) (beautiful) you would realizde that im married to him because he would tell you telepathically
hes so UGLY bro i want to squish him and blend him (with a blender) and put him in a hydraulic press and cook him into chicken curry (favorite food) (want to eat him) (/srs) and smush him into a little brown stain and eat him alive and turn him into confetti and blow him up with my mind and kiss him on the forehead amd squish him in my hand and like watch him explode tjrough my fingers and turn him into slime and like grind him into kinetic sand
did you know that if you trained a monkey to recite random letters for eternity that it would eventually spell the phrase "miles and giyuu forever and ever"? i bet you didnt even think about that. yk why???? BECAUS YOU DONT FW GIYUU LIKE I FW GIYUU..!


you know what? yes. this is true. i am. im not ashamwd anymore. i, miles aka till aka juicytoot(1423) aka pawdhd, am addicted to giyuu oiled up tjrowing cheeks. me. genuinely? want to hesr him whimperinf.amen. goodnight. its 6AM.
^bro do not let me write at 6AM what was that.???

hi im the #1 giyuu fan /srs /gen /srs no one loves giyuu more than me if yuo only started likinf him after the latest season yuore a fake fan and i hate you and if you like giyuu then i want you dead and gone (/nsrs. i guess.) im marrief to him he is gay snd hes married to me anbd lovs me sooi much believe me its treu hes my hsuband im married to giyuu.

i never block people but its genuknely gotten so bad like i see someone with a post about liking giyuu or with some fuckass username like "giyuus #1 fan" "giyuus wife" BLOCKED. IMMEDIATELY. for my own comfortg. nothing against other giyuu fans or selfshippers i GUESS... bjt if yuo like him you are getting blocked. Okay? dni if youre a fan of giyuu. Okay?

exhibit A of giyuu beinf my huzz

THIS WONDERFUL MAGNIFICENT ART BY MY SIBLING thank you god bless omg
exhibit B

THESE MASTERPIECES BY MY OPPEST OPP IIONA!!!!!
theres more but im actuallt way too lazy

hi remember when i said i,, like., dropped kny because of giyuu. Hey. i lied. i cant just DO that. the newest season is freakinh good. i also have a crush on ubuyashiki and muzan btw. ::/. and tengen. um. and everyone. idk. everyuone is so fine. IDK. my only demon slayer hot take (that isnt hot btw,, like. lukewarm. or just warm, at most) is uuh GIYUU DOESNT HAVE ROMANTIC CHEMISTRY WITH ANYONE OK,!! sanegiyuu shippers KIND OF pmo. but shinogiyuu shippers REALLY PMO..! guys i swear he's aromantic I SWEAR

giyuu has fueled my love for demon slayer. i probably wouldn't have as much kny shit as i do now if it wasn't for giyuu. i have /koyoharu btw. i wanted to get /gotouge, actually. koyoharu feels like! personal! is that weird! I LOVFE DEMON SLAYER OK. and most of that love is probably thanks to giyuu oh my godd i love him

so many giyuu figures are preorders </3 i want this one so bad oh my god he looks so good LORDD I WANT HIM ::( he's so cute he's the cutest ever...

you know he's the bwst character because he also shows up in the first episode and jeez he's so nonchalant like he's aurafarming but IT'S WORKING OK. muzan is the #1 aurafarmer but it also works for him like god he looks so chill and nonchalant GOD..! i'm rewatching kny again. okay? i'm excited to see douma again so excited... and my husband of coursw... AND TENGEN! holy moly! i think i'm attracted to practically every (Adult.) demon slayer character idk okay :((

i don't know what like?? 10 year old me?? saw in him but i laid my eyes upon giyuu one day and i was like Yeah. idk. jeez. my problem is that i say 'idk' and 'jeez' too much THAT'S MY PROBLEM. it's not the selfshipping it's the vocabulary.

giyuu makes me go Tehe! i giggle a bit i dunno :/. uhm what was i gonna say I Forgot. why are all the potential ship names ass. 'miyuu' grr dpmo dpmo dpmo.

i treasure my lovely giyuu figures but dusting them is kind of.. a pain :wilted_flower: his hair is so spiky and i have to dust with like. these little sticky squares because all the dusters are ass so his hair pokes my hand YEEOWCH! it's okay it's giyuu (@^◡^)

ive LOWKEY been getting increasingly freakier over giyuu like it's scaring me..? herro..? idk if anyone knows that one picture tjats like. 'how i feel gooning to a character but also understanding their complex lore' or whatever THAT'S ME GUYS! guys im the #1 giyuu gooner my discord username is giyuugooner its true. but im also tje #1 giyuu fan and #1 giyuu selfshipper. it makes me so angry being a nonsharing selfshipper LIKE GOD can this guy have some whimsy?? jeez. it makes me so angry when i see someone with more giyuu merch than me like no obviously that doesnt mean theyre a bigger fan than me but it PISSES ME OFF why are you spending so much money on MY huzz...?? you think youre better than me..? god rich people pmo rich peolle dni rich people dni rich people dni you stink.
^IFOUND THAT ONE THING I WAS TALKING ABOUT

i'm genuinely feeling so freaky over giyuu rn i'm holding back so flipping hard bro SAVE ME. i feel so fake being freaky over him AHHGRG I STILL UNDERSTAND AND SYMPATHIZE WITH HIS COMPLEX LORE LEY ME TELL YOU SOMETHING. genuinely being insanely downbad. Like. gooner level. like. pouncing at my screen licking it up and down shaking and screaming and exploding and ripping my hair out. being that attracted to htis guy. makes me feel liek i'm like just boiling him down to his looks and sexualizing himGUYS PLEASE. i genuinely love this guy so much i hold him so dear to me he literally has a soecial place in my heart Ok. i love him. i love this guy. but i'm also insanely attracted to him. Ok. it's ok to be freaky over your f/o and also love tjem in a deep and pure wway ok. i love him soo much he's so cutesy he's got the cutest buggiest eyes bro i hate him GOD I HATE HIM. it's embarrassing talking abojt a fictional character like this but i just remind myself that i would be like. Hell yeah! if my friends talked about their f/os like this. and they do. and i'm like. Hell yeah!! Okay! i love giyuu! he's so cute i love him thank you gotouge!

i do fear that i almost cannot consume fanmade media of giyuu as it fills me with intense rage. guys. please. let me have whimsy. every time i see someone like 'ehhm i'm giyuu's #1 fan!' my mind goes to block thrm... and then sometimes i do

im gonna kiss giyuu on the mouth giyuu yoi are so beautiful my huzz my goat.. HES NOT SAFE FROM ME IM GONNA BLEND HIM INTO A TRILLION PIECES I CANT DO TS ANYMORE OH MY GOD everyone who likes him beyond a normal average level BLOCK ME BLOXK ME BLOCKMEBMCBXKXO ME JXLXKNE RIGJT NOW

whenever i see liek...whats it called.. peoples Lovemail.(idk.) to their f/o's i realize mine is sort of very different from theirs cause they're all like lovey-dovey, romantic, genuine letters speaking directly to their f/o AND THERES LITERALLY NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT OK I THINK ITS COOL. im embarrassed to directly talk to giyuu ok. thats what im gettign at.

dude genuinely i love giyuu so much liek why has this little guy changed my life 🥹 HE'S SO PRETTY AAHG i hate being non-sharing i feel so chronically online being jealous for liek no reason.... i don't have to prove my love of giyuu to anyone... but deep down i genuinely think that i love him more than anyone. i've been obsessed with giyuu since like? 2022? 2021? 11-12 year old me locked eyes with this guy and was like... Yeah... i'm gonna obsess over him for the rest of my life i think... and that's half my evidence for me being his biggest fan in the whole wide world. nanny nanny boo boo i've liked giyuu for longer than you... back in my day there were like 20 giyuu fans in total... ♡ i've been pissed off there are barely any giyuu gifs but i've slowly seen more getting added AND some fuckass fan has been making selfship gifs of him LIKE I'M SORRY OK but i genuinely get pissed. 'giyuu de lylia' who are you. WHO IS THIS FAKER. where were you before s5..? i've been here, lylia. i've been selfshipping with giyuu for years. hmu and we'll battle to the death. like men. i deadass love giyuu from the bottom of my heart like as cringe as it is to admit he means so much to me. yes he's a fictional character. yes i don't know where i would be without him. Lowkey. everyone and their mother knows about my obsession with giyuu bro. ESPECIALLY my siblings. my mother doesn't even KNOW how bad i need him. like yeah she knows i'm insanely in love with him. but i doubt she knows i genuinely need him carnally i'm tryign so hard not to be freaky rn but my point is i'm madly in love with him.

giyuu is SOOFINEE in kny gaiden oh my godd im salivating. he's so.I don't kno.w. i start jumping around as soon as i see him in that friggin manga oh myt god THE ARTSTYLE IS SO GOOD HE'S SO PRETTY IM GONAN CRY

btw im the #1 giyuu fan and no one lovrs him more than me and i'm his husband and he's my husband abd. he loves me and not you. i'm the most nonsharing nonsharer you will eber meet. he's my husbanf. yiu can not and will not compare.. okay? I LOVE HIM SO MUXH giyuu takes up like my whole gallery. sometimes when i'm sad i go in my gallery and look at giyuu and then i'm whimsical... he's my boy.... i lovr him.. bless kotoharu gotouge for creating the fictional loml i literally do not love any gharacter more than him..!!!! just know no matter how many words i write here it doesn't even capture a fraction of my undying love for giyuu. i've lovrd giyuu for like 3-4 years and i will like never stop!!!!! he's my wife not yours!!!! if you selfship with giyuu you're WRONG ok Sorry. if you selfship with giyuu that's okay. i understand you. he's liek the most wonderful man to ever grace this earth. i just don't want you INTERACTING WITH ME. giyuu is awesome ok yes

I LOVE GIYUU SO MUCHAHHHH like it maeks me feel physicallt ill thinkibg sbout jow much i love him bro HELP MEEE SAVE ME he's so SO CUTE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HIS BEAUTY OH MY FOD I WANT TO SQUISH HIM oksorry im being. but liek i wabt to eat him he's so:sob::sob: i legitimately can't even express my genuine love for him i love him so much THIS ISN'T NORMAL I DONT CARE every time i see him my muscles fucking seize up. i get giyuu withdrawals. like i'm actually ill in some shape or form (may or may not be autism) the cuteness aggression is severe with this one.... i see his face snd it physicallt hurts like i want to rip my frigging hair out. i can't even verbalize how much he means to me. this sounds corny as hell but :sob::broken_heart: like deadass i cant even see another character OR EVEN ANOTHER HUMAN as more physically attractive than him WHICH IS INSANE. other than bf i love u bf ♡

H MY GODS I SAW INFINITY CASTLE ON THE 11TH AND GIYUU....im..gooning... giyuu.. was so magnificent.. omg.... giyuu and tanjiro I MISSED THEMMM :sob::broken_heart: WATER BROTHERSS let me show you my favorite frame ever

OH MY FOSSDBROO ITS SO BEAUTIFUL IM SHEDDING A TEAR HE'S SO FINE,,,, i was deadass shaking so bad when he first showed up on screen....

??????dude i genuienly just spent like an hour writing PARAGRAPHS about giyuu and i accidentally refreshed the page. it's all gone. i'm actually so pissed rn DNII HOLY SHIT

it was actually like? lowkey surreal seeing giyuu in theatres again IT WAS LIKE actually seeing your spouse on screen like wow.. that's my husband... everyone is thirsting over giyuu rn but it's okay because i know they're all FAKES and the hype will die down after a while! i'm going a little insane lowkey because like selfshipping with him is a coping mechanism that i really rely on :sob::sob: especially considering it's basically my only healthy coping mechanism.. not a vent.. tugs collar. so when i'm spiraling or having an anxiety attack giyuu sctually calms me down & grounds me A LOT SO IT'S LIKE hard to accept that other people want to selfship with him or even view him romantically as well. especially because i've really loved him for so long with no 'interruptions' until like a year or two ago?, where everyone started making him super popular!! so it's likr wtf!!! he's one of the most popular characters now! people are insane over him! ::-( not that it's a big deal because at the end of the day he's a FICTIONAL CHARACTER ntm from one of the most popular anime/manga ever :sob: tch.. i should have chosen a more niche character... not like any character is safe from the internet though...
^^ TLDR;; giyuu brings me an immense amount of comfort and familiarity that helps me cope with stressful situations/episodes and he means a lot to me which spans beyond just romantic attraction! so it's hard for me to see people talk about giyuu the way they do!!!!!

nothing could make me hate you giyuu i love him more than i can even put into words... he means so much to me like he's badically my husband atp smh my head. people who talk shit about nonsharers are so weird bruhh because they're always just confused and act like we think we own the character :sob: "it's mental illness!!" and...? you're flaming someone for being mentally ill....? lock in bro

i'm giyuu's ONLY lover and he loves ONLY me!!! OwO i'm the only one for him.... no one understands and loves him like i do and if you're even just a big giyuu fan YOU'RE BLOCKED! i takw our relationship very seriously and we're literally canon, any other giyuu selfshippers are fake... sorry... i've always loved him and i always will... even when selfshipping dies down and no one likes it anymore, i'll still be here with my husband ok? no one understands how much he means to me and i block doubles for my own mental health ;-;;; seeing doubles physically pains me and makes me nauseous so yeah. it's for my own good. idc if i'm mentally unwell because i know giyuu will always love me unconditionally regardless of my mental state.. if you hate on me you're just jealous i have a loving real life parter AND two loving fictional partners lalalala you're jealous you get no romantic partners you have no game

doubles do not exist.... doubles are government propaganda.... i have no doubles.... giyuu loves me and cares abiut me..... doubles do not exist.... giyuu would choose me over any other yume.. doubles are propaganda... giyuu is my wife.. Okay..
"it's delusions" i know he's a fictional character and that he will never be real or have actual feelings.. "it's just pixels" then why do you care what i do with them... "it's cringe" cringe culture is dead i'm gonna do what makes me happy regardless of whether or not its 'cringe'.... "they don't belong to you" i'm well aware.... i don't think giyuu BELONGS to me... you haters.... jealous..haters....



#yup #itsofficial #we'recanon
i actually dgaf if youve liked him for longer than me or if you have more yume art or anyrhing that doesnt make you a bigger giyuu fan than me.. okay? i know i love him the most out of anyone i cant even express my genuine love for giyuu he makes me so haply

Ok im coming to the conclusion that selfshipping is no longer a healthy coping mechanism for me THIS YUME SHIT GETS SERIOUS!!! this means, you Can't bully me for being nonsharing.Thats ableist. im autstic. giyuu is my autistic hyperfixation and also.coping mechanism. for depression and trauam adn stuff. be nice to me. be kind to me. i'm realizing that this is not healthy anymore. i'm so mentally ill over him. sorry giyuu. This is. actively taking a TOLL on my mental health instead of helping meLMFAOO IVEGONE TOO FAR I CAN'T TURN BACK I'M SORRYYYY i'm still gonna feed my delusions tho #yolo giyuu loves me
maybe if i like make myself as mentally ill as possible it will get so bad that it cancels out and i turn out perfectly fine....is this smart....?

I HAVENT WRITTEN IN A WHILE OK i've still been thinking about giyuu nonstop everyday ughhh ithink i have a hyperfixation on him again wipes tear... i'm not complaining.... ilove him so much.. i printed out some pictures of him and im. gonna tape them on my wall. joy to the world.... I DOWNLOADED AN APP that tracks like how long you've been together,,,, i dont know the exact date i started shipping with giyuu so i just put a random date.... almost 1,000 days though!!!! should i celebrate hmmmm... decisions decisions. i might bake something.

MY HUSBANDDD whenever i'm at the gym and lowkey need motivation to finish my set i think about the grueling training giyuu went through or i lowkey imagine him talking me through it and it works STOP LEAVE ME ALONE

i can't even put into words how much giyuu means to me, like he actually changed my life, as crazy as it is to say......the GOOD news is that i'm getting more used to fanmade media and other giyuu fans (exposure therapy worked), the BAD news is that my mental health is lowkey still rapidly deteriorating and giyuu is one of the only 2 things keeping me alive :sweat_smile: #wish me luck #send prayers. i'm falling into the mindset where...i think of Harming myself??????FOR Giyuu??? hey??? giyuu would NOT condone this???:sob: THESE DEPRESSED BITCHES R CRAZY!!!! anyway yeah this isn't a vent i'm like documenting my feelings in a way (miles' fancy way of saying venting #smfh) don't take this as an example of all nonsharing selfshippers LMFAOO I'M JUST MENTALLY ILL. i've been this way with giyuu since before i even knew this was called selfshipping. This is not a part of selfshipping Btw. Hurting yourself for your f/o is not normal pls reach out if u have these thoughts ok #disclaimer over

i got this giyuu bodypillow as a joke but i'm sort of attached to it now.... it's kinda embarrassing but it's actually really nice, especially since its my wife ok so it's liek Woah.. i'm falling asleep next to my wife..Woah. i'm waking up next to my wife... this is so #cool. eberyone should do tjis. bodypillows don't deserve their slander they're so nice. you know what else doesnt deserve slander. GIYUU??? fym giyuu is overrated. stop. stop. stop. is giyuu that popular now????? idek how to process this MY WORST NIGHTMAER :sob::sob: THIS FUCKING SUCKSSS i want to go BACK in time when there was like. less..... giyuu fans.. sorry.. i fucking hate when people say "ehm i liked this before it was popular :rofl:" "i miss when this had no fandom.... ://" BUT IT GETS TO A FUCKING POINT OK. the point is where RVERYONE suddenly loves him, he's the fan favorite, and you're basic for liking him.SHUT UPPUHH. suddenly a million people are like "ahh i am giyuus biggest fan! i'm his #1! he's been my favorite character since forever!" boi stop lying :sob: i'm so done with being a sensitive hypocrite

i haven't wrote a lot here because i've been writing traditionally lately, i'll probably transfer it to here later on — but yeah giyuu is obviously still my #1, he's always been my #1, and i know he always will be. my love has never faltered once (that was a lie it actuallt faltered for a few seconds once oksorry) and he has always been my light. he's been the reason i get up in the morning and the reason i fall asleep with a smile on my face every night.... i'm being so for real.... nothing could ever even come close to mattering this much to me as embarrassing as it is, because he's honestly saved my life. he is the reason i'm even still breathing right now. and a part of me lowkey wishes i could die just have a chance to be with him in another universe sometime. i know it's really unhealthy how i feel about him but it's hard to feel any other way. it can't be anything but that we're meant for each other okay!!!! i know he loves me!!!! y'all are geeked up on giyuu but i'm locked tf in!! i feel fake because i've had... a really bad hyperfixation. on something else. and it's made me doubt my love for giyuu. because i honestly don't know anything other than being so incredibly in love with him and the thought of anything else scares me. i know i'll be able to be with him soon. i'm not doing this for him but still.

yeah this is cringe but i STILL get like butterflies in my stomach FRIGGING THINKING OF giyuu LOVING ME. i'm COOKED!! this is a fictional character btw!!!!!! but i sometimes remind myself like,? surely your brain can't tell the difference between fictional and real people right? eventually? Tell me Km Not Crazy

can't believe i'm just putting this out into the world but i'm in the TRENCHES of an eating disorder rn but also partially trying to recover??? and like when im trying to make myself eat, giyuu like. helps with that. like ouhh 'giyuu would want me to eat' but also when i'm in a really SICK mindset it's like 'giyuu wouldn't love someone with your body' but like hey rhat's not true. giyuu loves me either wayyyy and he would want me to be healthy and happy. it's just hard.

ALSO DUDE it issss early december as i'm writing this. and i'm still thinking about that one giyuu frame i sent earlier. it's so gooodd he's so unbelievably beautiful i can't believe it like wow that's my husband..ougghee..... i'm so luckyyy

i've already said this i don't careee if you've liked giyuu longer than me I LIKE HIM in a more deep and cool and awesome way. ok. idk i'm still very defensive over him. a lot of my obsession with him early on, i was really trying to avoid him tbh LMFAOO becausd i would freak the fuck out whenever i saw him and like my muscles would tense up, my heartrate would like speed up surely beyond what's healthy for you, i couldn't breathe at all and stuff,,,,uhh. yeah. i think i blush easily but i can't tell. when i find my face getting really hot my first instinct isn't to pull out a camera or run to the nearest mirror so idk. but whatever it is, it happens every time i think about him. it's at the point where i can actually look at him without almost dying, officially, but if i think about him or stare at him for too long, i will like. start actually going crazy. yeah. i wonder if he would be like this with me LMAO PROBABLY NOT. i'm a FRIGGING nobody i'm a weirdo with no irls and i just stay in my house all day and geek out about fictional men on discord!!! it sounds way more psthetic when i write it like this. i think in a swap au he would be obsessed with me though. i guess. idk what it is about me that someone could obsess over but i appreciate it. hypothetically. i'm staying up past whatever time is good for me to go to sleep to write about my FICTIONAL BOYFRIEND send help. i haven't been giving him as much attention lately and i feel bad. he's my catboy malewife. i love you giyuu

I REALLY NEED TO LOCK TF IN because i always have so much to say about him but i never end up writing it down. do words even matter that much anymore????? idk. i've already like. poured my heart out & dissected its contents (that are all giyuu) a billion times. maybe it gets to a point where they don't mean anything anymore but it's not like i'll ever be able to stop talking about this adorable man CRIES!!!! MAYBE TJAT'S THE POINT ANYHOW!!! even if they lose meaning, it's the fact that you still want to say shit that matters

i missss himmmm i miss you giyuu Runs hand down window. i say when i can just rewatch or reread kny. i need to read the manga. i've already read it obviously. but i need to Keep reading it. probably reread it. yeah that's actually just what i said in the first place sorry. i've talked about how i felt about him early on PLENTY: HE DTILL MAKES ME SICK. i, thankfully, can breathe whenever i see him now, but i feel like i still freak out AAUH bro i don't even know how to describe the feeling, it's like the worst case of cuteness aggression you would have ever heard of. it feels surreal almost like gosh i can't believe this guy EXISTS EVEN gotouge i cherish your creation everyday.

it makes me kinda angry when i see people with really big shrines of their f/os!!! like spanning their entire room!!!! especially when i've loved giyuu longer than they've loved their f/o. stop. you don't need all that. slow down. i wish every possession i have related to giyuu in some way shape or form. i want my room to be covered top to bottom with everything that could remind me of him, it genuinely sounds so wonderful.... i yearn.. i wake up and the first thing that greets my eyes is GIYUU. amd then i look around and EVERYTHING ELSE greeting my eyes is ALSO giyuu. OH MY GOD ITS 5AM. but yeah even though i have a litwral giyuu bodypillow—and i do have a ton of pictures of him printed out, figures, framed photos, etc.—it still doesn't feel like enough

guys my 3 year anniv with giyuu:eyes::eyes: coming soon. in like 20 days. eek! it's actuallt so fun to have a set date and celebrste my little milestones with him even tho the date is actually probably very far off. i just threw a guess out there. 02.10.23. yup! i've done all the math i can and i've gotten as close as i think i ever will unfortunately. because i've frankly always felt this way about him. but i also do not know when i first started kny either? so i don't know. it really couldve been 2021-2023. but i didn't know what selfshipping was until like a year ago probably, even though i actually was already selfshipping with giyuu long before that. so. i just thought i was a weirdo. back when you would be nuked for selfshipping probably. i #wasn't there.

highkey i dont gaf if u hate nonsharers or think theyre delusional; giyuu is a huge source of comfort for me abd im not comfortable with beimg around people who are also that comforted by giyuu it makes me feel liek i have to compete even tjough i dont. i kinda contribute this to my autism & forcing myself ro interact eith other people who ‘like giyuu as much as i do’ will do more harm than being nonsharing will. i dont care if its cringey other giyuu yumes highlowkirkvecuinely make me feel nauseous InDONT CARE ANYMORE

I CAMT EVEN DESCRIBE TJE LEVEL OF PURE UNADULTERED LOVE I FEEL FPR GIYUU there is no possible combinatiom of words in any language that could express hwo mucfh he means to me tjis is actually very embarrassing that i feel so much for a fictional character but i truly love him so so much... it makes me feel ill he's so special to me even though he is literally some anime boy HES LITERALLT A NONCHALANT BLACK HAIRED ANIME BOY IM LOSINGG!!!!! i feel really fawking bad sometimes because i LOWKEY use him to make my mental health worse by pretending that he wouldn't love me if i didn't lose weight/didn;t harm myself/etc. even though i KNOW that's not true. im so evil he's gotten me through so much and there i am saying he wont love me unless i starve myself

guys i'm lowkey not insane (clinicallyj) about giyuu anymore. #healing? i'm still insane about him as in love though. and he's still obviously mt favorite character oat. no other character comes close. i really need to read the manga bro. i'mve already read it of course but i keep FORGWRTIMFG whatever tjere's always time

BRO PLS JES SO STINKING CUTE WTF:sob: WTFF :sob: im so lucky amirite Guys i camt believe jes canonically my husband wow omg. we're Canon.

i need more giyuu stuff so bad. like my entire room just has giyuu merch/drawings/etc plastered absolutely everywhere but there's always More to get. he brings me so much comfort; i feel really at home with pieces of him everywhere, i just wish i had the money to do moreee

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Pub: 06 May 2022 20:58 UTC

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