seraph ᵒʳ synzi
ask for my age, he / it.
an amalgamation of
every media ive ever
consumed, with a
fluctuating personality.
i go by many names depending on how i feel, but synzi or seraph is a good default, with the nicknames syn and sera respectively. i do not identify with any gender in particular and do not resonate with any genders, but at the end of the day, i dont need such . he / it / angel pronouns with masculine terms, sometimes using we / our / us to describe myself despite being a single being. panromantic aegosexual, and tend to go for t4t.
while i have no diagnoses, there is definitely something wrong with me mentally. similarly, i suffer from chronic pain. i am 100% certain that im afflicted with paranoia, anxiety, and attachment issues with potential mood swings, but i have not had the time to do proper research on other things. i tend to display avoidant attachment and do not usually enjoy when people are overly clingy. i also have a tendency to mirror other peoples speech or text patterns usually without even noticing that it happens, though i do my best to identify it and keep myself in check.
i severely struggle with empathy and comforting others, and therefore do not want people coming to me for comfort. i also struggle with texting or interacting first, and if i dont want to respond to someones message, i simply will not. very rarely is it personal. i also have a hard time getting into new medias, but if i do get into a new media, it is very likely to become a fixation of mine.
often times when first meeting a new person whose company i enjoy, i want to talk with them all the time. usually after a month or so, my excitement, which was very high at the beginning, dies down into normal feelings of friendship rather than basing my entire being on them. this means there will not be as much communication on my end, especially if i perceive that they are 'too busy' to talk. i have a tendency to only text first if theres something i need to share, but i do my best to respond in a timely manner.
i do not recommend being my friend if you want to have idle conversations, as i hate small talk, and try to avoid it.