haven (left) and pipedream (right). art by me, canisiris.

heart. art by tontoemojis. ꜜ     10 . 02 . 2024   ₊ im so grateful to have you, heavensent.

「 ₊ 1O     10 . 28 . 25   hi baby ♡ i know that right now things are a little rough, but i just wanted to leave you a little note just to let you know that i love you so much and i hope youre doing wonderfully. you mean the world and more to me and i wish i could be there to talk to you and do all the things we did, but just know that soon enough we can resume our daily routines together and be our best selves once more. i wish i could say more, but its been hard to muster up a long ramble since ive just been so busy and anxious all the time. but im sure soon i can make up for this. i love you bunches.

「 ₊ O9     09 . 25 . 25   hi dearie ! i know ive been slacking on getting this entry in ( plus i didnt even put one in last month :') ) but you know ive just been busy and having it tough as of late. i just wanted to say that im so incredibly grateful to have you in my life, to have you there to support me when i get stuck in my head, and just having you here to love me unconditionally despite my flaws. ♡ i wish i could be better for you–sometimes i worry im not a great boyfriend to you, but you still reassure that things are okay, which i appreciate. im so grateful to have you, so loving and appreciative of everything i do for you, i just want to give you the best of the best while i can. ♡ you deserve to be treated kindly and be given gifts and be given all the love in the world, even if you feel bad or worry when i spend money on you, just know that you deserve it for being my biggest support i could ever have in my life. nobodys ever been like you, and you deserve to be spoiled and pampered like i do <33 i cant believe our one year anniversary is coming up so fast !!! it hasnt felt like ive known you for just over a year, but forever, and not even :') time flies so fast when im with you, i dont know if i should be grateful or not of that, but that just means were one step closer to being with each other one day ♡♡♡ i love you forevermore, i couldnt be more grateful for you, my darling. i love you.

「 ₊ O8     07 . 23 . 25   hi sweetiepie !!!!! im so glad to be home and writing this stuff for you again!! <3 i know ive been gone and busy these last two weeks, technically been home 4 days but yknow. but anyways, im just glad i can talk to you like normal again and see you all day :) im so grateful to have you in my life and im so grateful to be able to love you <33 i say it a lot, but i just feel so lucky to have you, to have someone be as patient as they are with me, even despite the little bumps in the road :) and most of all, its been nice to just learn about you casually and talk to you casually, i love learning more about your life and things about you, even if we know basically everything about each other ... ♡ hopefully in these coming weeks some more fun stuff happens and we can call more often!! ive missed you a lot over my trip, and im excited to see what we can do the rest of this summer ♡♡♡ and most of all i cant wait for your package !!! hehe !!! i love youuuu i love love love you ♡♡♡ !!!!

「 ₊ O7     06 . 29 . 25   this entry is definitely a lot later than other ones, but you know ive been so busy but i promise i havent stopped thinking about what to put here :) theres been so much thats happened this last month, and i cant help but just say thank you for everything ♡ i feel so lucky to have you in my life, to have been so lucky to have also been accepted by your family, and to just continue to spend my time with you. i worried that your family wouldnt accept me, but i feel relief knowing that they dont seem so bothered by me in the end. i dont know how youve still manged to put up with me, but im just lucky to have you nonetheless ♡ being able to send you that care package was one of the most memorable moments for me, even if it started with a scare, everything has been somewhat uphill from here :) its been really nice spending time with you several nights before i go off and...do stuff. i really wish i could stay home and not put you essentially through hell for 2 weeks but i have no choice :( ill make sure to spoil you as much as i can when i can and do so once im back ♡ i love you more than anything in this world my dear, you make everything feel just a little bit better. ♡

「 ₊ O6     05 . 24 . 25   hi my love!!! i really have no idea what to say this month ... so much has happened and i also have so much i wanna talk about but i dont wanna spoil anything ive been planning for you !!!!!!!!!! ouauaghg !!!!!!!!!!!!! oh who cares i can vaguely talk about it ... im just so excited to send you your care packages :) ive been slowly chipping at finishing it but gosh am i busy. im so excited to see your reactions to it all ♡ ive started working on planning what to put into a second smaller one, and im trying to put as much thought and effort into this one since this ones easier for me to put together without anyone suspecting anything ... ill try to keep it smaller than the one ill be sending off sooner, but no promises <33 i want the best for you and ill give it all to you my dear ♡ you make my life so much better by just being there for me and being you, and you deserve to be gifted the best of the best from me ♡♡ I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you to the moon and back !!!!!!!! ♡♡♡

「 ₊ O5     04 . 02 . 25   HAPPY 6 MONTHS OF DATING OUAUAGAHH!!!!!!!!! ♡♡♡
i cant believe its already been 6 months, it feels like its been forever and also it feels like it hasnt been that long. im so incredibly happy to have you my darling. you have no idea how much of a positive impact youve had on my life, truly. even if its only been 6 months, youve done so much and made me feel like no other, and youve truly felt like no other either. youre so sososo special to me, more special than anything ever. im so glad to be home after my whole trip and be able to spend time with you, and know that i make you happy while you make me happy. i hope this feeling lasts forever, you mean the world and beyond to me, and youre truly the light of my life. ♡ you deserve it all, and ill give you my all. i love you oh sosososo much, more than that, no amount of words and actions can describe my love for you. ♡ i love you. i love you so much. i love you!!!! ♡

「 ₊ O4     03 . 10 . 25   haihaiii! ♡ i always like coming here and thinking of everything thats happened over the past month so far and just being reminded of how much i love you. ive been so down as of late, yet youve been nothing but patient and understanding with me, and no words can describe how much that means to me. i know its such a simple thing, but its always so nice having someone who is willing to be so caring towards me and someone who understands me like no other ♡ the patience you hold for me has always been something that made you feel like the one, the way you treat me gently and yet dont treat me as fragile, something ive always wanted from someone. im so grateful to have you, my safe haven ♡. i love you oh so much.

「 ₊ O3     02 . 15 . 25   hai my beloved!!! happy belated valentines day. i love you oh so much. im so. so incredibly grateful to have you in my life, i cant say it enough. i know i already showered you in my affections yesterday, and we spent the night together as well, but i still wanna at least put something in here as my routine. ♡ thank you for blessing me with your existence these last four months, and i cant wait for the many more ahead of us ♡ youve been so loving through everything, and ive slowly been able to be a lot more open now, which is a weird feeling for me, but its nice to feel a lot more comfortable with my vulnerability. you really treat me and love me like no other, i appreciate it oh so dearly. ♡ i love you so so so much, thank you for it all, my darling ♡

「 ₊ O2     01 . 08 . 25   hi my sweet angel, i know i said id ramble more here but ive created a consistent pattern of one little paragraph once a month so. here we are again ♡ im so grateful to have you, youve been so unconditionally loving the entire relationship and i adore it so much. its so weird having someone whose simultaneously my partner and also my bestest friend, someone who loves me so deeply and someone who also fucks around with me and is there to listen to my nonsense, i havent felt this in so long and it truly means so much to me. ♡ and i just cant say it enough, i absolutely adore your voice and it soothes me more than anything else, and i cant wait to hear it more and more, even while it sits in my head, i like just hearing it like its brand new ♡. i hope we can spend more time together soon enough and we can do some fun things as well, i look forward to that!! i love you so much sweetheart, more than anything in this world <33

「 ₊ O1     12 . 15 . 24   hi sweetheart ♡ i know i havent rambled on here in about a month, ill do it more i promise <33 im so grateful to have you in my life, i love being vulnerable around you and being stupid with you and telling you how much i love you. sure, we havent been together long, but you still mean the absolute world to me and i wouldnt have it any other way. i love spending my time with you, so much, it brings me so much joy and it puts me in my happy place. ♡ i love hearing your voice, i love seeing your face, i especially love when i see you with your hair down, it makes you so pretty <33 every day i fall more inlove with you, and i hope you feel the same with me :3 i love you so dearly, forever and always, my sweet fox ♡

「 ₊ OO     11 . 19 . 24   i cant express it enough, i love you. i am so, so incredibly grateful to have you in my life. youve stood unconditionally by my side, and loved the same way. youve single-handedly just made my life so much better with your existence, and i wouldnt have it any other way ♡. there arent enough words in the dictionary to describe my love for you, but i just hope my stupid rambling and nonstop affection and my neediness suffices enough. you deserve the absolute world, and more, i love you so much my sweetheart ♡.

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